I started this page to share my life, my thoughts and try and help others worse off, and I think it is going fairly well, another 40 odd followers today, so thank you for following. People from all over are getting involved in my blog, and I am getting involved in theirs, so this is good for me
Today I woke up with the worst lower back pain ever, I bought a new bed, meant to help people with bad backs, so well done there bed, you are rubbish. lol took me over an hour to get out of bed, then 10 minutes to walk to the kitchen, then some medication and a LOT of Voltarol Gel on my lower back, so I am just really sore now. Living with Chronic Pain really is a nightmare.
In my dreams, I get teased, I can run, play football (Soccer for some) and feel as if I am 15 or so again, wonderful dreams, then I wake up, and I am in my 30s and in pain, I love dreaming. Lol
In dream we can do anything, and I guess my dreams are taking me to a place where my mind wants to be, a place I can walk far, I can run, I can play football, the game I love and more. So dreaming is good, it’s the waking up I don’t like, as the second I open my eyes, pain, and to cap it off, just a little more pain for good measure. As the day goes on, the pain lessens, then at night a few hours before bed I can almost feel normal, the pain is really light, I still have to be careful, but it is almost gone, but this is when I have matsticks holding my eye lids up, lol
So when I share, I don’t ask for sympathy, but if anyone else out there suffers, don’t suffer in silence, be a man/woman, or be brave and talk about it. Some think as a man I shouldn’t talk about it, but they must know more than my Drs and occupational therapist, as they urge me to do this blog, and over time this blog has saved my skin a few times, the ability to just open my blog and type what is on my mind has become an invaluable tool for my mind.
So, for those in pain, depressed, whatever, open a page and share, take it from me and others, it helps, and don’t be scared off what others say, or think. I don’t. I think the older you get the more tolerant you become. A few days ago, as I said in a blog I literally almost deleted myself off the internet, I was just in a really bad place, looking back, I can laugh, but looking back, we all can.
I wouldn’t change anything in my life, a beautiful caring partner, 4 kids, two older sons, and two daughters under 4 years old; they are all a blessing to me, my body and mind. And again, all I can say is I am utterly blessed to have these people in my home. And my family and friends also are key to me in life. It took me a LONG time to tell my family I have CPS (Chronic Pain), and it is a man thing isn’t it, stupid pride comes into play, but if I have learnt anything the last few years, it is, people do understand, and do care, and will help. So again, I say this in most blogs, don’t sit in silence, and don’t despair, as someone is always there. Even if it is God, speak, open up, because sharing gets it off your back, and lightens the burden you carry. Some people will mock you, but they are just nasty, and probably have never been loved or don’t know what love and compassion is, and never will, forget them, let them live their nasty hate filled lived. I don’t hate anyone, but I do feel sorry for people who are hate filled. People say I should not, but we can’t change who we are, can we. So share, whatever your problem is, open up word, open a blog, open a website and share. People will understand!!
For now, and god bless you all