Dying Inside

After doing this blog here “Suicide is not always a ‘One-off-Act’ – It’s a living thought for People “ I got a few ‘Gossips’ from people who ‘should know better’, but also nothing from people I expect to be at our side, our being ‘Me and mine’ – When someone lives with Suicidal thoughts and a whole host of other issues like M.E. (Myalgic Mencephalomyelitis) + Fibromyalgia + PTSD and Psychosis, like I do, they want to die, I want to die, but I have reasons to live more important than myself, but I would love HELP to take the burden away from loved ones who watch me suffer, we don’t want sympathy or ‘What a shame’ and I hate this I get a lot ‘I feel sorry for you Shaun, you been through too much for someone so young”, yeah that tires your soul out that one. Sadly people I know say things like “That stupid fucking blog that Shaun does” But that’s it, they DON’T HELP THE PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO SUFFER BECAUSE OF MY ILLNESS. This is not about me. Think who hurts when one is watching another die, slowly or fast, it makes no fucking difference. This World is horrible, I am suicidal, but I will MAN UP as people say about me. But it is fucking hard to take the next step, the next breath. 5am, been up for a day and a half, pain is like death, my mind is scrambled and tied to the moon. Yet people who claim to ‘Love me’ are reading SOMETHING ELSE HERE, or wishing they had a voice? #NEWSFLASH, you do have a voice. Use it or shut the fuck up. I am aware there are people FAR WORSE than myself, but this is hard, every moment is ‘How can I kill myself’, but here I am, for now anyway. Regret is ONLY regret AFTER the event ❤ Peace

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♫ Dying Inside ♫
Via Shaun Gibson on You Tube

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MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

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BLOGGERS FOR PEACE AND SANITY

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

Shaun Gibson Twitter: @ShaunyScot
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THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS - THIS REPRESENTS 'BETTER' FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS – THIS REPRESENTS ‘BETTER’ FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

 

 

 

6 comments on “Dying Inside

  1. What can I say matey. This hit home. I know life must be unbearable at times for you and I know I can’t even start to imagine the pain both physical and mental you go through each and every day. It’s sad that those close by can not comprehend the feelings you have when all you want is peace. Shame I am not nearer so I could lend and ear in those times when you are low. After all, it’s having someone to listen and understand that helps. Loneliness becomes a dark place and that’s when the mind turns to thoughts like “what’s the point anymore”. As always I am hear if you need to just ramble. I will listen.

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    • You already listen, and you are here. We been friends a while now, we understand each other. The times we have spoken, it’s been just natural fun. For me this blog is where I place my SOUL, then people have choice to listen. I don’t talk like to ANYONE, so if someone brings it up as ‘Helpful’ I will smile back and talk about it. Sadly some will get angry over this as I have kids. This is 2017 Earth mate. People live in regret due to ignorance or maybe they have mental issues too and refuse to accept or seek help…It confuses me. But in these rare moments of clarity, I just type how I feel…Same as yourself.
      As we say ‘Keep on keeping on’….Nothing else for it.
      Thanks Patrick….#Respect

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      • WOW..Just wow. These words hit me as they intended too mate. I hear them, feel them and understand them. You have courage Patrick, courage to TALK, courage to admit. There is NEVER weakness in your writing. You help me for sure and people who help me, help me, help others.
        Fantastic blog, and I re-blogged it too mate.
        Keep on keeping on!!
        Respect mate

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      • Sharing is caring, and it helps. It’s that simple. It’s why we share. Keep plugging away mate. All we can do is our best (ANY OF US GLOBALLY)…And we are…
        Strength of MAN is the ability to step away from what SOCIETY expects of men. For men to write and express as we and others do, some may see weakness, not a chance. Utter Strength to reach out….

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