For ‘Everyone who is Sad, Alone, Depressed, Stuck in Darkness – YOU ARE NOT ALONE

The Most basic human emotions

Being stuck with negative emotion after a loss in life can change us, being stuck in the darkness of sadness when our life changes for the worst can and will change the strongest of us. I would never sit here or anywhere and claim to know the truth or say I understand how your sadness, or any emotion can be stopped. Right now I personally am in a personal Hell. I don’t write for me because I can openly talk to the right people. It is hard to talk, and it’s not something I enjoy, but I have to fight, like you I have reasons and people to fight for. You are not the only one hurting or sad, depressed or nearing the end of your patience with life, far from it! This is a Taboo subject that not many people can open up about, and this is totally understandable and allowed.

 

Some leave clues to sadness and pain, if we look and listen, we can be helped

Recently, through NHS neglect I have found myself opened up to pain and emotions I have not felt for a long time. Like you I was once happy, living, caring, social, I could go out into the World and join in. When I say NHS neglect I must pull that emotion back and say it’s just human error. People put us on Drugs, we become addicted, and then they take us off them and leave us in utter HELL because our body is craving the drug. I must now turn the coin around and say ‘Alcohol and Drugs’ are not the answer. Drs put me on about 12 different drugs over the last Decade and a half, and today I am happy to try and understand why I have to let these drugs leave my system, but it’s the hardest thing I have ever done, but like you maybe, I need put on Drugs that HELP, Drs may have already killed me. I must say if it wasn’t for FELLOW SUFFERERS I may have given in already. I am told ‘There is a light at the end of the tunnel of pain’ – I can’t yet even see the tunnel, let alone the light. Today I am suffering, but those closest to me, and I mean as close as could be, are suffering worse, because I CHOOSE to trust a Drs advice on ‘Smothering it all with prescribed drugs’ – I have 2 little girls in this house and this is hidden from them, think Daddy has a sore knee, but they are 7 and 8 years old, I know it will break their heart when we have to tell them all about life THEY ARE THE REASON I am typing this at around 4am on a freezing cold Scottish night. Already I have been here an hour, but slowly I am getting the words out somehow. Yesterday (Wednesday) my body went into sever withdrawal and a few organs started to close down. But I made it through another day. I want to RIGHT NOW take my own life to make life better for those I love or call friend. But my Daughters need me, so I can’t be selfish; I have to ‘Man up’ and become strength. The first people I hope to see this strength are my Daughters and their Mother. I can only try, all I can write in this moment is ‘I am trying’ – I walked away from almost everyone I used to love being around, I chase people away because I an angry, but its ok, sometimes we should and can be angry. As I said above, others leave us clues. I hope you can find your way to cope. This isn’t mine, but I am reaching out in the hope the RIGHT PEOPLE read and reach back. The song below starts around 40 seconds in, they lyrics are too much for some, but some of us can live with this music. The proof of this is, it’s a video. It isn’t fair, it hurts and it’s ok to not be ok.

 

 

 

 

MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

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BLOGGERS FOR PEACE AND SANITY

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

Shaun Gibson Twitter: @ShaunyScot
Skype Username: shaunyg1973
Shaun Celtic FC Twitter: @ShaunyCeltic

THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS - THIS REPRESENTS 'BETTER' FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS – THIS REPRESENTS ‘BETTER’ FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

 

 

 

 

8 comments on “For ‘Everyone who is Sad, Alone, Depressed, Stuck in Darkness – YOU ARE NOT ALONE

  1. You are so right Shaun, neither alcohol or drugs are the way, but sometimes they seem to be necessary just to survive the worst pain, may it be mentally or physically.
    I would also appreciate, if we could get pain killers, as don’t make us addicted to them.
    This time will pass too and there is a light, we just need to find it.

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    • Yeah totally true Irene x
      Some need medication. Sadly opiate based drugs are over prescribed, now Scottish NHS taking people off them all, to low levels, replacing with different and herbal stuff. All £ree, but still horrific x..and always looking for light. xx

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      • I do take very much care not to abuse my medication by same reason, but sometimes it is needed for a period because of hard pain.
        It would be nice to find something legal among the plants, as could help instead.

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      • Canabaloids!! They are there. They are in breast milk Irene. I think cannabis liquid without the HIT of being stoned MUST be looked at. America allow it, for some reason Europe isn’t following…
        Totally well said! x

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      • I can only agree, Shaun. They are having an experiment in Denmark now, where the doctors are allowed to give Cannabis Oil to people with hard pain, but the huge problem is, that not many doctors will give it out, because this is decided over their heads by the politicians and not proved enough.

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      • I know Irene, where I get lost here is, the money Goverment could make is STAGGERING. A few States in the USA are better off because of this..
        It’s a natural oil, and FACT it helps….
        Good shout x

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  2. It’s OK to hurt. It’s not a weakness but a way of coping, but for some the hurting becomes so unbearable that no matter how hard you try to soften the blow or how hard you listen to why the hurt is so much, the only option is to permanently take the hurt away. At that point there is a sheer strength that overcomes the hurt. A peace descends and everything becomes clear. I say this because that’s how I see why those that hurt so much choose to take their life. To others it might seem a selfish act but I see it as taking away the burden from those you love who watch the suffering.

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    • Yeah I have thought and seen and heard this thought many times Patrick mate. So many people leaving us not because they really want to, but more so because they think they are relieving loved ones of a burden…Well said, as always mate….

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