Finally in the ‘Mental Health’ System – LONG, HARD, ROAD AHEAD – I SEE HOPE!

Living with severe pain and severe mental health issues. My first blog for a while here, and I didn’t really want to do it either, but as we reach out, others reach back. It started for me, the journey of pain and mental health about 15 years ago. I had issues from Childhood that haunted me when I was signed off from being allowed to Work all these years ago. The cycle of pain and mental health is a tricky one. The medications I am now on are less, but better and just as powerful. Today I am TRYING to start being a sit-down DJ again through the Stafford Center below and also singing lessons to FINALLY TRY and sit on a stage and create moment of ‘Music’. Always I have this view that Sport, Politics, Religion, and the worse one, MONEY just divide us all, well most of us. For me, just me, Music is my God, it speaks to me, and it listens back. I need a stage, I need to be part of something for myself. I spent too long doing things for others. I lost most of my Family because of these issues, but Family who mock, don’t understand, make things worse, are they worth having? For me no, but we all have our own ways. What I do know is, when we get ill in ANY way and it effects us badly, people walk away. FAMILY say things like “I am not getting involved”, but who am I to talk, I walked away from the emotion of HATE I had and still do have. Family just unable to hear us speak and just say ‘Nice one’ then change the subject. I am fighting for myself this time. I have lost, BUT SO HAVE YOU. We ALL have a something, we all have things holding us back, making us dread moving forward. We all lose, we all hurt, we are all just human. We live in a selfish money chasing brainwashed World. So I am doing this for me, but I have two little Girls here, my Daughters. All I am trying to do is make sure they are like their brothers, I hope they grow up and find HAPPY, without money, hate, anger, struggle. And understand who they want in their lives as they grow. They are only 7 and 8 years old, but my Job is to gently and over time tell them ‘It is your life, you make the choices, and to NEVER allow another to dictate to them in any way possible’, it really is that simple. Like you I am surrounded by people not in control, and these people work, have money, CHOOSE the life they lead, and are owned by emotions and the emotions of others. I dislike these people because of the impact they have on my Girls. Never hate, I say it below always. Just typing to TRY and connect. This took me like 3 hours today 😀 I hope 2 people read it.

BE KIND TO YOURSELF!

DON’T ALLOW OTHERS TO STEAL YOUR LIFE, THOUGHTS OR EMOTIONS.

Be yourself and NEVER compromise this. When you do, you give your control to others.

For now…

..Below is the system of help I am in just now. I will be adding a pain-team back to this list shortly

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This was my first HELP about 12 years ago:

@Dr_A_Dobbin – On Twitter

https://www.facebook.com/PositiveMentalTraining/

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The River Center is for people suicidal, depressed, just lost in life:

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I am now here. The possibility to be a DJ again, AND TO SING (Is the plan)

https://www.facebook.com/TheStaffordCentre

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For ‘Everyone who is Sad, Alone, Depressed, Stuck in Darkness – YOU ARE NOT ALONE

The Most basic human emotions

Being stuck with negative emotion after a loss in life can change us, being stuck in the darkness of sadness when our life changes for the worst can and will change the strongest of us. I would never sit here or anywhere and claim to know the truth or say I understand how your sadness, or any emotion can be stopped. Right now I personally am in a personal Hell. I don’t write for me because I can openly talk to the right people. It is hard to talk, and it’s not something I enjoy, but I have to fight, like you I have reasons and people to fight for. You are not the only one hurting or sad, depressed or nearing the end of your patience with life, far from it! This is a Taboo subject that not many people can open up about, and this is totally understandable and allowed.

 

Some leave clues to sadness and pain, if we look and listen, we can be helped

Recently, through NHS neglect I have found myself opened up to pain and emotions I have not felt for a long time. Like you I was once happy, living, caring, social, I could go out into the World and join in. When I say NHS neglect I must pull that emotion back and say it’s just human error. People put us on Drugs, we become addicted, and then they take us off them and leave us in utter HELL because our body is craving the drug. I must now turn the coin around and say ‘Alcohol and Drugs’ are not the answer. Drs put me on about 12 different drugs over the last Decade and a half, and today I am happy to try and understand why I have to let these drugs leave my system, but it’s the hardest thing I have ever done, but like you maybe, I need put on Drugs that HELP, Drs may have already killed me. I must say if it wasn’t for FELLOW SUFFERERS I may have given in already. I am told ‘There is a light at the end of the tunnel of pain’ – I can’t yet even see the tunnel, let alone the light. Today I am suffering, but those closest to me, and I mean as close as could be, are suffering worse, because I CHOOSE to trust a Drs advice on ‘Smothering it all with prescribed drugs’ – I have 2 little girls in this house and this is hidden from them, think Daddy has a sore knee, but they are 7 and 8 years old, I know it will break their heart when we have to tell them all about life THEY ARE THE REASON I am typing this at around 4am on a freezing cold Scottish night. Already I have been here an hour, but slowly I am getting the words out somehow. Yesterday (Wednesday) my body went into sever withdrawal and a few organs started to close down. But I made it through another day. I want to RIGHT NOW take my own life to make life better for those I love or call friend. But my Daughters need me, so I can’t be selfish; I have to ‘Man up’ and become strength. The first people I hope to see this strength are my Daughters and their Mother. I can only try, all I can write in this moment is ‘I am trying’ – I walked away from almost everyone I used to love being around, I chase people away because I an angry, but its ok, sometimes we should and can be angry. As I said above, others leave us clues. I hope you can find your way to cope. This isn’t mine, but I am reaching out in the hope the RIGHT PEOPLE read and reach back. The song below starts around 40 seconds in, they lyrics are too much for some, but some of us can live with this music. The proof of this is, it’s a video. It isn’t fair, it hurts and it’s ok to not be ok.

 

 

 

 

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The Broken Family Unit – It’s a Global Selfish Uncaring World!! God is Money!

Lately as I wake up to an uncaring World torn between what they desire and what they think they want, and also the lust for Money everywhere is very hurtful to stand back and watch. I remember when I was a child in the 1980’s, Family was close, if one fell, we all fell, then helped each other back up. Today the ‘Family Unit’ is broken and all I can see is Money and Ego getting in the way. My Father is in his early 70’s and lives on a small Island somewhere; he has Dementia and NOBODY CARES, NOBODY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT HIM. It seems I am the ONLY person who keeps in touch with my Father, he has NOBODY really, he is alone with his thoughts and I have no idea being 700 miles away and unable to travel to him for ‘Many’ reasons, how bad things are for him, and everyone else is just caring about the people they stayed close too, like siblings, MY OWN, who turned away to the other side of whatever family. Jesus, the more I think about it, can I blame them? Pause for thought Shaun!

Me and my Nana in 1973

I remember when my Dads Mother, my Nana passed away, she died alone and unhappy. Often I think back to her, the top of my Family Tree and cry. I cry because ‘SOMETHING’ made people walk away from her, in the end she died alone and thinking nobody cared. I took ALL the blame because I was a bad kid, but I still tried, as I did along with one Aunt who sadly passed too were the ONLY PEOPLE to try. I visited most nights to make sure my Nana was in bed ok, the gas was turned off and she was safe. This was back in the 1990’s. I remember the wake after the funeral, the guilt I felt was self inflicted. My Aunt who has sadly passed away was there and came to me. She gave me a hug and said “Penny for your thoughts” I then told her what was on my mind, my Aunt cried a little and said words that helped, and I will never forget her for that and many reasons.

Edinburgh, Scotland – My Home

20 years on and my Family on BOTH SIDES is broken, I don’t see my own Sons any-more as ‘THEY DON’T WANT TO GET INVOLVED’ But involved in what? Life? Family? Love? Yeah it’s a confusing emotion. My own Mother is in a bad place and it’s SO HARD as I have NO IDEA how bad things are for her, not a clue, nobody speaks, nobody seems to give 2 fucks any more. It’s all ‘Me, Me, Me’ wherever I go, the IRONY of it all is wherever I go it’s all about ‘SHAUN’, and this is from people I have never seen in 20 years or seen in the passing a few times over the time we had two sons I am so proud off along with their Mother and now 2 little girls that literally keep me alive. But looking back I look back and smile, Edinburgh is my home, I want to leave the mess behind, but Edinburgh taught me all I know. Life just happens but Family from Childhood all moved away from Edinburgh, often I ask myself “IS EDINBURGH SO BAD” I don’t think so, it’s a beautiful place

[MUSIC VIDEO] The Lake Poets ‘EDINBURGH’
Via: The Lake Poets on YouTube

Memories

I see a World so uncaring, so Money oriented, so scared of ‘EMOTION’ it hurts, afraid to ‘Talk deeply’ even one time and move away from it. I have never left my Childhood in the sense I am still living my life around the same people and same area of Edinburgh, Scotland. But the Family unit IS BROKEN wherever I look, anywhere I look, most if not all families just DON’T CARE, and the ones who do care are selective on WHAT SIDE OF FAMILY THEY CARE FOR, sadly many chase the money and side-step people who are ill. It’s horrible to watch. Again I am ‘Irony’ I know it! But like many I get blamed always, so I may as well be irony and just take blame right?

I have two little girls here aged 8 and 7 years old; they are starting to take note of NO FAMILY. They don’t know why, I MUST take some blame as I do have a car but LIFE JUST SAYS I CAN’T DRIVE SOMETIMES. My partner does her VERY BEST to show my Girls life, but it’s ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE to sit with Family in all directions be them blood or not these days. People just hate, fear and loath over money or emotions life somehow forgot to teach a generation of people. Where did we go wrong globally, can you see it, do you even care? I know I do, but it’s like trying to fart against a storm to stop if. Yeah Scottish humor right there, got to keep smiling yeah?

What happened to us?

What happened to us all? What happened to you? What happened to me? What happened to us? Will you read this and ACCEPT BLAME? Because these days all I get from these kinds of people is ‘IT’S NOT MY FAULT’, YEAH! People just TAKE THE BLAME. I am a Grandfather in name only; I don’t see my Grandchildren and I am at the stage of giving up on EVERYONE. HOW FUCKING SAD IS THAT? And THEY will read this and just accept and not try to make up. I get it, sadly I understanding it. The worst decision I ever made was to wake up to this World, it’s IN DIRE TROUBLE

Right now if I could I would sell up, get a passport and take my Girls to Australia where I have some family who still ACTUALLY CARE. Recently I had 2 Cousins who flew from Australia to Scotland to spread ashes for a parent they lost and ONLY around 12 people or so showed up from the Scottish side of my Dads side of the Family, a family that is FUCKED. I am irony because I was not there myself, but I respected them by not going as certain people just want to get drunk and cause FIGHTS because they think ‘Being a Tough Person’ suits their style. I was one from 20 people who stayed away TO RESPECT my Australian family, I am not alone, about 10% of the Family turned up for them, Australia to Scotland and THIS!

[NOW HEAR ME OUT FFS] I was on HEROIN Levels of Drugs till a year or so ago till a voice in my head said “Tell the Dr you want out” and my Dr was amazing and changed medication allowing me to wake up JUST ENOUGH to see two little girls beside me, but also others who just ARE NOT INTERESTED in anyone bar themselves, I respect private people, I must respect hate, anger and fear in others because like you, do we have a choice? My pain is no worse nor no less than yours, my issues one and the same as you who read this. Put aside health and money for a moment and I see it, my friends see it, Family I do speak to feel like I do. It’s hurtful and awful.

I can almost remember this, I was always youngest

But Family members of mine will read this and see HATE, ANGER OR FEAR. The 3 emotions one of my Parents pressed me HARD to lose from my mind over many years. Always one of my parents was telling me “Shaun, hate anger and fear will drag you to the grave”!! So I listened and now all I do is hurt. I woke up to a level of dysfunction so badly I just want to smother the pain in drugs and say ‘Not interested’, this morning I TRIED TO REACH OUT TO A BROTHER AND A SISTER due to a worry I have for one of my Parents and I got NOTHING BUT ‘SHIT THROWN BACK IN MY FACE”, same old bullshit like “Aww Shaun!! People get old and it’s JUST LIFE” << WHAT ON EARTH HAS HAPPENED TO US ALL? I am close enough with many people still who hurt people with lack of caring people and it’s so hard to see. I have my life partner here HURTING daily because of lack of love from her OWN! You can’t deny this if you read, BUT YOU HAVE CHOICE TO FIX IT, and we are here should you decide to ‘GET INVOVLED’ in love of Family

I see 1 option for my Daughters, and it’s a new life, new ways, somewhere where people care. My only doubt and question is “DOES IT EXIST?” I fear it does not. But as long as I have air in my lungs and a mind to try hard, I will protect my Daughter from Hate, Anger and Fear like many friends and family and I who have young kids agree on “WE WILL NOT ALLOW OUR KIDS TO GROW UP AND BECOME SELFISH AND UNCARING PEOPLE” And I refuse to do this with my Daughters, AT ANY COST! Even if it hurts me to walk away totally.

I wish I felt the emotion to this picture….1975 I think

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THIS WORLD? I remember a Family so close on all sides, then I seen Drink and Drugs, abuse, hatred and more and people just slowly did what I IRONICALLY AM SAYING HERE…They just walked away! The old saying of “If you can’t beat them, join them” seems my only option for my Daughters. This rant, as it will be called a rant! if anything, it’s just a confused question of ‘HOW AND WHY’ can I help two little girls see love and happiness? I will do my best to search for answers for MY 2 DAUGHTERS!!! I must therefore be like the rest and turn around, walk away and say “I love you, but I must look after my own”

THE IRONY OF IT ALL IS KILLING ME! I am fucking BADLY disabled, my body lives in pain and my mind is FUCKED. Yet I feel I am the only person looking at our kids, all our kids, globally and thinking “HOW CAN I MAKE IT BETTER” – But then I pause, reflect, and KNOW there are people like me who want to mend the ‘Broken Family Unit’. How we sit back and allow each other to hurt and die alone, how we allow our minds to be turned by actions of perversion be them literal or fiscal is beyond my thoughts.

….I am lost, but I must find a way for 2 little girls. AT ANY AND ALL COST. No longer will I allow myself to be #Anger #Fear or #Hate, I purged my soul of these 3 deadly emotions. Sadly most people I see have not, most have 1 or 2 or all 3 emotions of Anger, fear and hate. Why?

It was ACTUALLY fun before….. lol – That is me crying North-West Scotland as my Sibling laughs 😀 Good times!!

Whoever reads this, and I only get about 300/500 reads per day these days [NOT THAT NUMBERS MATTER, I would rather 50 REAL people read it than 1,000 uncaring people read this, I am asking why has our World walked away from itself and to what? Money the illusion of happiness through the illusion of money?  But then I know people reading this will just point the finger back at me and my kind, and allow the circle of #Anger #Hate and #Fear to be in their very minds and souls, and transmit it to their own. So I MUST protect my girls from these emotions, so they grow to be free from these emotions. IF IT’S MY LAST ACT AS A HUMAN, THEN SO BE IT, I ACCEPT THE CHALLENGE WITH LOVE AND A SMILE.

 

When in Rome……..You know the rest surely! We give up on each other too easily. Why?

#Peace

I miss them all…All I knew!

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♫ One More Light ♫ A Song for people trying to see the World – Imagine

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When we sit down and don’t speak because we may worry what others may think, we oppress ourselves and each other. When we stand up and speak, we liberate ourselves and those around us. Before we can see the World and understand the World around us, first we must understand ourselves, accept ourselves and learn to like ourselves. Only then can we turn and look at the World without the basic human emotions that cloud our every thought, day and impulse. These 3 emotions are #HATE #ANGER and #FEAR. Once we remove, if we can remove these emotions, then life becomes something else, we become something else. Self importance dissipates and we see the World, we hear the World, we become less selfish and more caring towards first our own lives and Worlds, then the actual World itself. Selfish people doing selfish things for selfish gain will in the end be alone, those who decide to reach out are never alone. Down the right-hand side of my blog are video’s, each a video I seen that gave me power of my own thoughts. The video that hit me most is the Charlie Chaplin great dictator speech, it is Words spoken in 1940 when our World was at War, but the Words ring true today, the images speak of the selfish acts that many of us can feel. Some feel, some can’t. We must respect this because to be free is to allow freedom of others, as long as no harm is being done, sadly much harm is happening Globally as I type, as you read. People are in Genocide being killed for Selfish reasons, yet only a few of us care. If each day every living soul awoke with one purpose, example of purpose would be ‘To make one person smile’ Imagine we ALL did this, we could change the World over-night. The very thing many of us crave is in sight, but the blind are blinded by consumption of selfish acts by selfish perverted people. We must stand up, we must unite. I know I am not alone, and neither are you. Will you look only at yourself or will you look at the World and care? I grew up with an elder telling me “I cry for Humanity”, so my Childhood till today has been a journey of discovery of self, my World and yours. Education is simple if we know it exists outside our own front door or even our own minds. Life is hard, yet many make it harder, so logic tells us life can be easier. Living in the moment meant this moment only, moments of self reflection come and go for me personally, what about you?

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♫ For anyone with Mental Health issues ♫

Images and Lyrics. For anyone with Mental Health issues – Chester Bennington – Numb – I myself suffer from Suicidal thoughts and a ton more. But I don’t suffer in silence nor alone. I talk, I speak up, and I have MANY good friends who are like me. Policemen, Trades Workers, Teachers, Sports Coaches, pretty much EVERY level of Society there are people I know who have a daily thought of Suicide. Many call it depression, for me it’s just darkness, sadness.

For anyone with Mental Health issues – Chester Bennington – Numb
Via:  Shaun Gibson on You Tube

NEVER SADNESS FOR ME in-terms of ‘Shaun’, my sadness is for our World. Sadness for the World around me, sadness for the entire World. But when I say this, I know, we all know, many don’t believe us. They think we want sympathy, feeling sorry for us. Not what we want, we just want to talk about together so we don’t lay it on loved ones. Life CAN be that easy, why some resist the easy and make it harder still, is beyond my thoughts. Never in hate…Always in peace and love. Shaun

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Dying Inside

After doing this blog here “Suicide is not always a ‘One-off-Act’ – It’s a living thought for People “ I got a few ‘Gossips’ from people who ‘should know better’, but also nothing from people I expect to be at our side, our being ‘Me and mine’ – When someone lives with Suicidal thoughts and a whole host of other issues like M.E. (Myalgic Mencephalomyelitis) + Fibromyalgia + PTSD and Psychosis, like I do, they want to die, I want to die, but I have reasons to live more important than myself, but I would love HELP to take the burden away from loved ones who watch me suffer, we don’t want sympathy or ‘What a shame’ and I hate this I get a lot ‘I feel sorry for you Shaun, you been through too much for someone so young”, yeah that tires your soul out that one. Sadly people I know say things like “That stupid fucking blog that Shaun does” But that’s it, they DON’T HELP THE PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO SUFFER BECAUSE OF MY ILLNESS. This is not about me. Think who hurts when one is watching another die, slowly or fast, it makes no fucking difference. This World is horrible, I am suicidal, but I will MAN UP as people say about me. But it is fucking hard to take the next step, the next breath. 5am, been up for a day and a half, pain is like death, my mind is scrambled and tied to the moon. Yet people who claim to ‘Love me’ are reading SOMETHING ELSE HERE, or wishing they had a voice? #NEWSFLASH, you do have a voice. Use it or shut the fuck up. I am aware there are people FAR WORSE than myself, but this is hard, every moment is ‘How can I kill myself’, but here I am, for now anyway. Regret is ONLY regret AFTER the event ❤ Peace

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♫ Dying Inside ♫
Via Shaun Gibson on You Tube

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Why Do Popular, Attractive, and Talented People Commit Suicide? – Chester Bennington

Chester Bennington

At the foot of this blog are more blogs about Suicide I used to cover when I blogged, this is not me starting to blog again, I needed help to write most of this. But it’s a subject that needs talked about. Remember everyone ‘Regret is only regret when we allow regret to be the ever-lasting emotion’. The reality of Suicide and the recent death of Linkin Park lead singer Chester Bennington is he was RICH, FAMOUS, FUNNY! Everything most people want to be, yet here he is SPEAKING ABOUT HIS MIND, something he did a lot. In the interview in the video at the foot of this page the TRIGGERS of suicide were there for all to see, yet here we are again asking “Could we have done more”, and this leads to the question “Why is this still so Taboo”? Never is there an intervention, always regret and that is so sad. One song from MANY done by Linking Park and sung by Chester was ‘Rolling in the Deep’ a cover song done by Adele, not a song you would ever expect Chester to take on, yet he did and he nailed it. I will share 4 videos here, 2 songs and 2 videos of Chester as the man we knew away from being rich, famous, liked, loved more

Rolling In The Deep Cover Chester Bennington
Via Numael Roldan on You Tube

Behind all the sadness we MUST see the fun side of people. Chester said in the video at the top “When I am alone with my mind “It is like I should not be there, and Music is my ONLY escape” And I say these exact words about Music to ANYONE who will listen to my ranting. Chester found his stage to OUT his demons, but sadly it wasn’t enough. So I leave you with the good memory of another person LEFT ALONE with people guessing before and after he killed himself. Celebrate the life, but ask “How can we get this Taboo gone and help people” I myself think “Suicide” from time to time as it’s part of my ongoing circumstances that WE ALL HAVE, but in me saying this, does it help? Answer, no! I would be called pathetic and weak and bad as I have kids and loved ones. But Chester was a fun lad, here is the proof

Chester Bennington – Unforgettable Funny Moments
Via Sarah_Lia on You Tube

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Below is what Linkin Park did, this is the type of songs they sung, they were amazing

In The End (Official Video) – Linkin Park
Via Linkin Park on You Tube

In this video from an interview in Feb ’17 shows Chester Bennington expressing his cries for help. Hindsight is 20/20. At the time the interviewer and fans alike joked at his comments. Looking back, it’s clearly not a joking matter. Mental illness is a very serious issue, that is not to be over looked. It can take all forms. People you know may be going through similar situations. So next time you have someone pour their heart out to you, really listen to what they are saying. It may be a cry for help….. This is not a promo for WakingUpDad or WakingUpDad.net …. I am simply posting this as a long time fan of Chester and the group Linkin Park. I am just as shocked as everyone else and searching for answers as to why. In the video he clearly is telling us. We just didn’t listen. RIP Chester Bennington. You will be missed. Prayers to his family, wife and kids.

Chester Bennington’s cry for HELP! Linkin Park
Via Waking Up Dad on You Tube

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From your past – Hello – I love you – From the Grave – To my Future

I don’t write much these days, I don’t know why, it gave me a voice, an opinion, made me feel human just for a little while. Many say even today “Shaun and that stupid blog of his”, yet they have not read one line of this or any others. So today I explain to my future what I did in your past. See, this blog is here forever, I paid for a lifetime URL, and this will be here when I die, hopefully in my sleep age 94 or something 😀 Many people say “I would love to leave something behind” It could be a song, a poem, a saying, anything really. I will leave you some images and songs for you to look back on too, why not? Music is all I can see in 2017 that does not divide our species, everything else keeps us hating or just not liking. I may be right, I may be wrong, but I AM GOING TO BE HONEST WITH YOU. How can I lie to our future when I can only tell the truth of today?

♫ Bob Marley ♪ Redemption Song + Lyrics ♫

I was thinking about this tonight, I am in an ‘awake all night, sleep all day’ sleeping pattern, or stuck in one again, they come and go, I have 4 life changing disabilites, click HERE to know them, they might still exist for you, if not, I give you a look into a 2017 disabled mind, use it well 😀 Back in 2017 the medicine you read about in your time are awful, but that good medicine was withheld from us, you have the truth and free healthcare I hope.The proof and the means to look back to all versions of Earths past and ask ‘WHY’ are hard to do today, you might be just as confused, so I am going to give you my stupid version of why, a try.

It is very simple, back in 2017, or right now, 20th April 2017 at around 03:30am on a cold Scottish Thursday morning, we are a species so asleep, so oppressed we don’t even know it or why. As you might just have read, some of us are fully aware of the World back in 2017. We know its hell, its heaven, of course if Religion is still alive whoever you are, in whatever time in my future you read this. Religion KILLED our species in my time, I am CERTAIN if you are reading this 100 years or 500 years from now, you will be asking “How could our species be so dumb and easy to control” I and MILLIONS of others ask this today, 20th April 2017.

They [Do you know why THEY are?] <Click) used Religion, Politics, Sport, TV, Internet like this (Ironic huh, lol) and much more to keep us distracted and in fear, or happy and blissfully unaware or uncaring of what is around us. A Religious mind is a very selfish mind in my time. They call it “The fear of God”, I call it “The Fear of the unknown”, see I have disabilities, are they were called back in 2017, as you will see with the images I left at the foot of this blog. I am medicated and alone, probably through unconscious un-deliberate ways I have no idea why I do it? I don’t know, I am just trying to stay alive for those who need me. Technology was and is our biggest enemy, it controlled our EVERY DAY in 2017 and a decade before, God (Ironic to mention him, I know) knows what the future will become due to technology!

As I type, 1/7th of our Species use just this 1 technological device, but there is MUCH more

I envy you, be you reading this in 50 years or 5,000 years from now or anywhere in-between or after. I envy the World you will live in, free from invisible oppression and fear, or the deliberate trick that money or the need or want of money gives people in my time, people THINK money will cure Cancer and all other bad things in 2017, people crave something they don’t even understand. I have been poor and rich, all I can tell you in the future or anyone reading today is “Money won’t cure you if you have issues, no it will only make them worse”. You are from the future, use whatever search function you may have to look for things like “Man wastes £10 Million lottery win in a year” or whatever the story, because most people who win money, sadly end up losing not money always, but they lose, mostly. Yet money rules my World in 2017, Religion is Tax free and Religion has the most money, if I told you the ‘Wealth of the Church<Click) in 2017, you probably already know, if you don’t just click that link, if it is still live. If it isn’t, all I can say is The Wealth of Religion could wipe out Global Debt and make every man, woman and child rich. That is the DAMNING statement of 2017 Human species, ironic too

The UTTER IRONY, people like myself must battle for life and love

I could go on and on to you, reading this from whatever future my selfish 2017 gives you, but it’s all here, you can still search anything on my blog from this time period that may interest you about our shared World we live or lived in. Also I speak for our species when I say “Sorry for leaving you such a horrible World” PLEASE understand many of us tried to help, tried to awaken the ‘Sheeple; as we called them, those so asleep through oppression of any kind, religion or money of any taking or bad health, people living in War zones, sadly as I type this around 18% of people on this Earth are living in a War Zone. Kids are murdered every day, but TV, Internet, Pizza delivery to watch a movie, self debt, self doubt, selfish minds, rich minds, religious minds, I could AGAIN, go on and on as to WHY. Imagine a World so pure, that the RIGHT THING was just seen as natural and the thing we JUST DID, someone left a message for that too, people like me kept listening

♫ John Lennon ♪ Imagine ♫

There. I just left a message to the future, and NOBODY can erase it. But all over my ‘Social Media’ I have used this image here below. It is an image of Good Vs Bad, Hate Vs Love, about our fragile World, from a movie called ‘I am Legend’ <Click) where the Human Race has killed itself, 1 man remains in this movie. In the image below he is quoting ‘Bob Marley’ , <Click) the amazing singer and songwriter who died when I was a very young child, whos songs where this movies soundtrack. But he too left something for the future. I JUST realised in a moment of boredom tonight “I too can leave something for the future” – And I just said it all, well as much as I could 😉 Also, or PS: I may have just annoyed, angered half our species here, or made half smile, I might never know, you on the other hand, will know. If God is real, find a way to tell me please 😀 I am being funny and facetious and light hearted here, but I WILL be judged today. What about your Day? Am I being judged or loved? I only EVER asked for love, but Human EGO got in the way. Sad but true I am afraid 🙂

If anyone I love happens to stop judging this blog and are reading it? Hey, and thank you, and I love you ❤

OUR battle between God and Devil, good or bad, or for me, opinion Vrs oppression

From 2017….

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Treating ‘Parkinsons disease’ – Patient walks better with MUSIC!

December 20th 2014 when my mind was being owned by a few horrible drugs via the Dr and Medical industry, somewhere at the back of my mind I started to think “Music is all we have”. Music speaks to us, speaks to our heart, sould and minds. With respect, TOTAL RESPECT, I say ‘Politics, Religion, Sport and a LOT MORE Divide us’ and sadly it does. Back in 2014 when Suicide was a thought in my confused mind and hurting body, I discovered laying down and listenning to music I wrote this > THE UNIVERSAL SPIRIT THAT IS MUSIC – Of course it was just an IDEA in my mind all these years ago, but I said to ANYONE who would listen to me “MUSIC WILL SAVE YOU”. I can’t say Music saved me from mental pain or body pain I can’t put a word too, but it stopped me taking my own life. Below is LIVING PROOF that my own thought, just mine, was one that had something more than just a word attached to it. I hope  this helps 1 person, because it helped the guy in the video below.

#ParkinsonsDisease This is truely brilliant this video below. Is this some sort of ‘Placebo’ at play here? I have 2 brain illnesses (as well as 2 issues that cause severe pain) and I say always that ‘Music is all we have’, and I say with RESPECT that Politics, Sport, Religion and MORE divide us all. Music is the ONLY THING we all have we can agree that works, AND HERE IS LIVING, WALKING PROOF. I been saying this for a few years now. Music can take a hurting mind and a confused mind to somewhere better. This guy walks better with music being played. He #GotRhythm

~~He got Rhythm for sure 🙂 ~~

Johnny Cash – Get Rhythm – Live in Ireland

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Hospital Parking: NHS Lothian drop planned increase amid staff protests – LETS GET THEM SCRAPPED!

Edinburgh Royal Infirmary

All NHS Scotland staff have to pay to park; to work I had to go to the Royal Infirmary (Little France, Edinbugh) at about 3AM last month. I was sitting talking to the reception woman, the staff and Drs about how there was no-where to park for Disabled drivers. Then they told me, Drs too, “We have to pay £7 to park our cars, a day to work here” I kind of smiled thinking they were making it up, then the reception woman said “Shaun, seriously, I pay nearly £50 a WEEK, £200 a MONTH to work here” And she looked really upset!! Then I asked the Dr “Do you pay too?” He replied “Yeah Shaun” I then said “But you save people’s lives!?” I couldn’t believe NHS Staff were paying to help people like you and I and millions more people live better, saving lives every day and paying to do so. So this is a good step this story below in the right direction, BUT LETS KEEP THE PRESSURE ON, I signed the petition to help this same as many, let’s make it so STAFF PARK FREE!! It tells us the SNP are doing EVERYTHING THEY CAN to deliver small details that many won’t notice. So next time ANYONE is in a Hospital, and any of us hear people moaning “I have been here nearly a half hour waiting”..WE SHOULD ALL EXPLAIN THIS STORY TO THEM, No voters, YOU FUCKING CAUSED THIS SHIT. And this is 1 small story from many THAT THE SNP ARE TRYING TO FIX AND ARE FIXING. Oh this shit boils ma blood peeps. Who the FUCK!! Thinks we are ‘Better Together’. These English Royal Servants be them Tory or Labour who are Scottish born, are the EXACT same as the people who grassed William Wallace in exchange for land!! AND THEIR FAMILIES STILL OWN IN SCOTLAND TODAY!! If you voted no, understand the small detail AND STOP BEING SELFISH. I want a better Scotland for you, for our kids, for our future! These are the charges at present for being ill, even having a baby, dying, rushed to hospital, having to visit people in hospital. KNOW THE STAFF HELPING YOU ALL THE WAY PAY WAY MORE, AND THEY HELP YOU AND I. Lets up the game Scotland and drop these ERI charges 1st for the staff, 2nd for being ill. We may get everything free in Scottish Healthcare, but charging staff to save lives? Come on!! Who thinks we are better together? If anyone reading this thinks we are better together, DO NOT SAY IT TO MY FACE! (Thank you 1 person for helping me build this blog)

Parking is free at all our sites with the exception of the Royal Infirmary of Edinburgh.  These are as follows:

  • 0-1 hour £1.30
  • 1-2 hours £2.30
  • 2-3 hours £3.30
  • 3-4 hours £4.30
  • 4-5 hours £5.30
  • 5-6 hours £6.50
  • Over 6 hours £7.00
  • Part day thereafter £7.00 < All staff pay this!

Via: http://www.edinburghnews.scotsman.com/

Car parking charges at the Edinburgh Royal Infirmary will remain frozen after NHS Lothian dropped plans to increase them amid staff protests.One of the proposed increases would have seen hospital staff being charged £15 for parking in the visitors and patients car parks – a staggering 114 per cent increase from the current £7 a day tariff.
The Evening News told last week how staff were planning to boycott shops and catering facilities at the flagship hospital in a bid to overturn the planned increases which were to take effect from August. Jim Crombie, Deputy Chief Executive, NHS Lothian said: “We have discussed with staff the proposal to increase parking charges and we have listened to the concerns they have raised. We have fed this back to our private sector partners and have agreed that charges will remain at the current level for this financial year.
“We understand the impact that travel to and from work can have on staff but also the frustration patients and visitors experience when trying to park to attend an appointment or visit a patient. We will use the review to explore these issues in detail.” NHS Lothian does not own or operate the car park at the Royal Infirmary of Edinburgh. The charges for the car park are set by Consort Healthcare in line with the PFI agreement.
First Minister Nicola Sturgeon had previously said she thought the proposed charges were not “fair”. Lothian Tory MSP Miles Briggs, who raised the matter with the First Minister Nicola Sturgeon, at First Minister’s Questions said: “This is very welcome news for all the staff, patients and visitors who use the RIE car parks.
“The Evening News is to be congratulated for leading the campaign against the price hikes and as a Lothian MSP who has also been trying to fight these increases I am delighted that I have been able to work alongside the Evening News and constituents who have collected thousands of signatures in online petitions and have successfully forced a u-turn from NHS Lothian.
“Although people will be relieved, NHS Lothian have suggested that the charges will only not be increased this financial year for people who use the car parks. It would be totally unacceptable if we were to face an annual battle against draconian and unacceptable parking charge increases and therefore I will be continuing to urge SNP Ministers and NHS Lothian to work to develop a long term solution that provides affordable parking for staff and patients and increases the capacity of the car parks at the RIE.”

Read more at: http://www.edinburghnews.scotsman.com/our-region/edinburgh/eri-parking-nhs-lothian-drop-planned-increase-amid-staff-protests-1-4413547

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