Suicide is not always a ‘One-off-Act’ – It’s a living thought for People

When you start reading, keep reading, THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME, YOU WILL SEE! Today is and all across Social Media today I am reading people debate it, some are talking about the way they think they understand Suicide, some are mocking the WEAKNESS of Suicide. Many say “Suicide is the Cowards way out” I disagree personally, for me the thought of Suicide is a thought of ‘Release’ but not for me, for everyone who cares for me. I can’t just get in my car and GO LIVE, I have two little girls here age 8 and 7 years old, THEY ARE MY REASON, when Suicide becomes an option. What are your reasons? Suicide is so very Taboo, some see anger, hate, depression, some just see something else. Today I come out of my closet and say “I live with Suicide every waking moment” and for me this is a small victory or release.

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I have lost too many people to suicide, I have nearly lost loved ones to Suicide, only to see other loved ones MOCK the person who tried it. Saying “How dare they” and other pathetic sayings. I say “IF YOU REALLY CARE FOR SOMEONE, THEN GO HELP THEM” Suicide comes at you with a smile, fun, funny people are suicidal. Think of anyone you know who has committed Suicide or tried, more times than not we think “WOW, I DID NOT EXPECT IT FROM THEM, THEY ARE STRONG” So I say it again, Suicide comes at you with a smile, in fun. The funniest people I know, the strongest people I know are the ones who are Suicidal, tried or dead. I see a World of people just too busy to see each other, too busy chasing the wrong emotions. Are they selfish? Hell no! How can they be if they don’t know, yet many of us do look at everyone and think “Are they Suicidal” Suicide rates have tripled in just a generation, does it matter if it is men or woman, young or old? No, life is life, it’s precious, love it and start noticing it. Or you WILL live in Regret for life. This message isn’t for me, it’s for the World, my World too. I am at one with who I am, what I do and why. I tire of trying to meet people in the middle, I tire of people chasing the wrong things. I am TRYING to chase life and happy, and I will do my best. It’s all ANY of us can do. If anyone reads this and feels ‘THIS IS AIMED AT ME’, then that emotion is yours, so do something about it, I BEG

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I spent a LOT of time with Suicidal people, we talk, exchange ‘WHY’ and then we find solace in others. We find a way to talk about Suicide and thus giving it a voice and reason. We can’t as a species keep saying, thinking nor presuming “They want pity” or “They want Sympathy” No, we need to get our priorities in order and SEE THE TRUTH STARING AT US IN THE FACE. Regret is only regret when we allow it. I am Suicidal! Are you? Do you know anyone who is? If you know a Suicidal person, think of them, who they live with, how it impacts others the Suicidal person and those around them. Our World just looks and judges, it is now time to help, or we live LIFE in regret. Please start to help, please start to notice. The ability to talk Suicide is STRENGTH, and don’t let anyone tell you different. As always, thank you to another who helped me write this, and as always I end this blog with the same message

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I WANT, I NEED, I WANT, I DEMAND – MONEY IS ROOT OF ‘ALL’ EVIL

My whole life I have seen Money, worse yet I have seen what money does to people, what money will make people do, people PRETENDING to love you for your money. I walked away many years ago from the ‘Money Chasers’ There is a HUGE difference between ‘Needing Money’ and ‘Chasing the illusion of Money’. I have seen blood spilled, woman hurt, families torn apart and worse because of ‘Money’. I have been poor and rich and all in-between, but I #ChooseHappy

Imagine you are poor, living in a flat somewhere with very little, struggling to pay the rent, struggling to feed your family, unable to have a big TV or fancy furnishings, unable to have a car nor pay for it’s upkeep. Well I know many like what I have just described there and they are happy, very happy. Yet I know people who make £100,000 a year or close to that amount, they are not happy. I have seen poor people get money only for it to destroy the happy they had, I have seen unhappy rich people lose it all and commit suicide, cause #Hate #Anger and #Fear in themselves and others, all over money.

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Money can buy MOMENTS, money can buy you a Wedding, a Holiday a new car, new TV, new sofa, Cable TV, Internet, you name what you want and money can buy you this, but the effects wear off, the honeymoon period ends and you are STUCK with the brain you had at the start with everything you thought you needed. I am not rich, but I am not poor, I am just happy with my lot I guess.  I have had people I love, and will keep loving actually visit people for MONEY or money reasons, people lie about it and all for money, it’s disgusting. My problem is I suffer from M.E. (Myalgic Mencephalomyelitis) + Fibromyalgia + PTSD and Psychosis and this may be the drugs or/and illness talking, or maybe I am having a moment of self-reflection, I can never tell, BUT MONEY CAN’T MAKE ME BETTER. But if you are reading this and you know me, and I know you, and we don’t talk to people because of Money or can’t admit WHAT YOU DO OR DID FOR MONEY, I ask you stay away from me and mine, because I actually know the harm money can do to everyone. I know people who won the lottery BIG!! Over £10 Million, they are now poor. I know people who won £1 Million and again they are again poor. They thought ‘Money’ could change the life they had, in most cases people came running to them when they knew they had money, only to leave them when the money was gone, I could share MANY stories, we all could if we were honest enough. I used to chase money, but I should have known better, I hate people who chase money, but AGAIN, the NEED for Money is different from Chasing Money

Love and happy can’t be bought for life, happy can be bought for a moment, short moment or long moment, but money can’t buy the joy of having Children, can’t buy love, can’t heal people with bad health. I had a sibling who had Cancer when I was a kid, there was a LOT of Money there yet no amount of money could save this person from Cancer, but they are still here, the drugs worked, the money was useless, I could share 100 stories. Look at what our Governments do for money and we all agree ‘It’s Sickening’, yet how many reading this chase money or know others who chase money? I found ‘Happy’ and be me poor or rich today or tomorrow, I stay happy. I was taught by both my parents to lose 3 emotions, I don’t know if they meant it, but they sure did, #Hate, #Fear and #Anger, when we lose these 3 emotions, WE LIVE, WE ARE FREE FROM EMOTIONS THAT CAUSE DISFUNCTION IN ALL AND ANY WAY. That is all. As always thank you to the person who helped me do this blog, typing is difficult, clarity of mind is very hard, so having the right people around YOU is key to Happy

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For us Daddys watching our little girls grow up…..

[Parent thing here] HUGE EVENT happening here [Well it is for me] 😦 One of my two Daughters is having a 1st EVER sleep-ever at a friends house 🙂 One moment we are holding a little baby, before you know it, they are going to stay with friends and we also have two sons who are now Parents themselves, THEY GROW UP TOO QUICK! I demand my Daughters stop growing up 😀 But I am selfish if I do this, lol – And me being the Dad I am, I am all worried and concerned 😀 People mock me for this, but it’s who I am, I fear no person, yet small details can hit my heart so hard. Ever since I was like 8 years old, as long as I can remember I been like this, always HATE saying goodbye to people I love, is it a flaw? is it a bad thing? or is it just love? And why is ‘Love’ so Taboo? I think I know what it is, you will feel like all as you do. She stayed with Family many times, but this is her first sleep-over with friends. Some poor woman has about 8 kids sleeping over, all from the same class-room 😀 Good luck to her I say. So she about to go for the night, I can see the house she is going to stay the night in, from my house, ish. Yet still I am getting all upset and worried. But hiding it well for her. She is a wee bag of emotions too. Totally nothing to worry about, let alone write about it on Social Media. But I don’t wear my ‘Heart on my sleeve’. I wear my everything for all to see on my sleeve. I hide NO EMOTIONS, I never have been able to, so I stopped. What I will say is. What would people rather? [A] A big angry bastard of a man/woman, or [B] A man/woman who cares? All parents and all men and woman, what emotion could you live with, what emotions do you hold true to you. WHEN WE THINK “WHAT WILL PEOPLE THINK’, WE ARE NOT OURSELVES, no! we are becoming what society EXPECTS from us. I say feck Society. I got a heart and I use it best I can. I love my Daughters more than a word can explain, and the small things hurt so hard. Crazy thing right? lol – The thing I think people close or near me can’t understand about me is, on 1 side, in the right moment, a bad moment, I will protect what is mine, who I love, with MY LIFE, I am scared of nobody and nothing. Yet flip that old coin over, and like most, if not all parents with kids, be them young or old, WE NEVER LOSE THAT PROTECTIVE FEELING. When they are not in our sight we all act and feel different. If I am anything, I am just frickin real, lol – So tell me Friends. How are people like me judged? I am interested 😀

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The Human Chaos Theory

The Human Chaos Theory is something I noted last year sometime and today in a rare moment of half clarity I can spend a few hours listening to music while watching both our Worlds go by from my view and add words to a though that we all think. I woke up from a bad dream if I remember or maybe a confusing dream and I left myself a little note called ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. Back then all I could think was the title, this morning on a cold Scottish morning again I woke up after a dream and I now have the words to place here, or least enough words to start, maybe you can add more?. I will try and put my point across as quickly as I can, because I know the human condition, it has little time in its hour of boredom to be awoken, it is self serving, egotistical, wanting for things they already have, we believe money will cure us, when in-fact money harms us, but we also have the capacity for love and a level of caring we claim to behold on each other, yet we lie, I have lied, so have you. Money harms us in our day to day, and it harms our World through many means on a daily basis. We see it on the TV News or any medium of information giving and gathering, we give it a name in a moment, then we want the very thing we see destroying our World, but this is not all about money, it’s about HOW YOU THINK AND WHY

“Shaun, why do think so deeply?” is a question I personally as a human have had to answer too many times to too many people, but today I answer back with love, the ONLY emotion I can bring to any table these days. What makes us unhappy? What makes you unhappy as you read this? What makes you unhappy today, what made you unhappy yesterday and all the yesterdays before it? What will make you unhappy tonight and tomorrow and all the tomorrows to come? That is the question, the only question I can ask. And I again, I ask the World, not just you, no, please! Don’t be so selfish to think this is ABOUT YOU. There is your first lesson on the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’, but please keep in mind, in this moment you might be happy, I am trying to understand what makes me happy and unhappy and I am starting to think in most cases I bring it all onto myself, the same as you do, the same as our species do, but why? We can be happy or sad, yet the emotion I see most is hate and anger in our World, this confuses me and I know I am not alone

I see people as I sit here slowly typing away, I can look out 2 windows, I just seen an old woman from around the corner with walking sticks happily walking her two dogs and I looked up, smiled and gave her a little wave, she smiled and waved back. THAT WAS A HUMAN MOMENT, it was free as it was honest and these are the moments I personally look for every day. I am not the same person as I was last week, never mind 20 years ago or a year ago, but neither are any of us the same person we were in any yesterday we care to look back at.

A old wise man tells me often “Shaun, I cry for humanity” and he does on his level, when I was younger he would say this and I would just take it as a passing comment, today I feel it too, so whoever this old wise man is, thank you from the bottom of my soul for forcing me to look around myself and my own soul. The ability to just sit back with utter clarity of mind and see a butterfly is something money can’t buy you or anyone you know. I wish I could be better enough in my soul to see more of these moments, and I used butterfly as 1 example from an endless list of examples including of course things I will never see or feel, but this should not stop me or you from striving to feel that moment again or try and ask “Can you feel these small moments we often miss because our mind was elsewhere”, if your mind is elsewhere, then ask why? You are in a good place, if you can read this you are one of the lucky ones. I could share hell on Earth with you, but we get scared of it, not till hell or bad comes to our doors do we question the suffering our World places on us all, by each other and by lifes forces, that I don’t think we as a species have figured out, we are a young species, we are growing so fast yet so slowly at the same time, can you see it or feel it? Or don’t you care? Whatever the answer is, that is ok, just don’t harm others in your logical conclusions

We are nasty to each other, I have been nasty to people. We are egotistical against each other’s and the reason I can admit this and say this is I have been ego myself. My God! Writing this blog alone will pull the human ego in and I WILL BE JUDGED. But why? What makes others judge what is not theirs when there is no need to judge? I see people with kids who focus on only their own kids, but I also see people with kids who focus on other people’s kids with many emotions attached. This confuses me a lot. I have two little girls who call me Daddy 100 times a day, you may have people who call you Mum or Dad too or maybe they are too young to name the love they have for you yet? It doesn’t matter however, just accept that love and own it, keep it and call it your own, but please World, don’t deny others this same love or freedom of spirit to evolve forward for a better them, aimed at a better World

Our World is evil, and I don’t add God or the Devil or the bible or scripture written by other humans many hundreds of years ago, but I do 100% respect others who will apply God to this and think of him as I did the butterfly. Am I making any sense to your soul yet? I don’t ask to be named, tagger or labelled, but I will be, but so will you be, you have been and you always will be by our ‘Human Chaos Theory’ that is destructive in our face as we see it on our TVs and Internet. I observe in the same way a comedian does, the same way a musical does, the same as any art form looking for inspiration to write or think freely to imagine a better World with better people. I am no saint, but I am aiming to become one. It took me 43 years of living with Humans to understand, or at least start to understand the flaws and imbalance in our species that loves to place hard emotions on each other but are selfish with our feelings too and deny others the freedom of love. I am a medicated man so what you read here today is from a Disabled person from 2017 trying to figure out a World not of my making, a species not of my doing, emotions thrown at me from birth the same as you, I try to think past them, I think sideways because I refuse to go back or forward, we live RIGHT NOW and nowhere else. Right this moment you are alive! Yesterday is a memory and tomorrow is a wish or a guess, realise it and accept it, and I promise you the fruits of the World can be yours TO SHARE

I KNOW ANGRY, BECAUSE I WAS ANGRY

I KNOW SUFFERING, BECAUSE I HAVE SUFFERED

I KNOW PAIN BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN

I KNOW HATE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEEN HATEFUL

I KNOW MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD NONE

I HATE MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD SOME

I LOVE MY KIDS BECAUSE I KNOW MY PARENTS LOVE

I UNDERSTAND THE DEPTHS OF HELL BECAUSE I HAVE DINED WITH THE DEVIL

I UNDERSTAND GODS LOVE BECAUSE I HAVE DECIDED TO FEEL HIS LOVE

I NEVER ASK GOD FOR ‘ANYTHING’, I THANK GOD, EVERY DAY, HAVE DONE SINCE I WAS A WEE BOY

I SEE A SPECIES SO LOST, BECAUSE I WAS ONCE LOST

I SEE PEOPLE CRAVE THINGS THEY ALREADY HAVE IF THEY JUST LOOK AROUND

I SEE EMPTY PEOPLE READY TO BE FILLED WITH LIFE, BECAUSE I HAVE BE BEEN LIFELESS

I SEE SHALLOW PEOPLE BECAUSE I WAS ONCE AN EMPTY VESEL OF A PERSON

BUT I SEE THE HOPE WE ALL SHARE FOR A BETTER WORLD BECAUSE I HAVE FELT ITS HOPE

I SEE WHAT WE CAN BECOME BECAUSE I HAVE SEEN WHAT WE ARE

I SEE THE BEAUTY IN A PERSON BECAUSE I HAVE FELT UGLY

I HAVE FELT UGLY BECAUSE OF MY BEATY, I HAVE FELT BY BEAUTY BECAUSE I FELT UGLY

I CHOOSE TO TRY BECAUSE I HAVE GIVEN UP, I CHOOSE TO SMILE BECAUSE I HAVE CRIED

I CHOOSE TO BE HUMAN AND CARING, BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN NASTY AND HURT PEOPLE

Now keep repeating these lines over and over, till they stick in your mind for life. Or keep doing as you are doing and hope you get a life you want. Either way you have a choice, you have a final say in this World. Many say “I can’t change the World”, I have said it myself, but I have changed MY WORLD many times, have you? And right there you felt the emotion of ‘boasting’, yet I was not boasting, I was sharing what we all can be. And that is a better human for you, your loves ones and also our fragile Earth. You can add more or you can mock my Worlds, all I know is I am now ready to face what the final chapters of my life have for me, but I have some say in what I will become. I am a very fragile man, but I ask for no help because I have taught myself I can be anyone, be anything. I can lay down and listen to a song and own it as my own, I can watch a movie that moved me and play the part. Why should we all stop doing these things now? It’s all we have ever been doing for the love of God. Unique is my goal, I can’t blend in to my World, but I do blend into The World. I am becoming the best version of Shaun I can be for other people, what about you? Whatever you choose to do, please don’t make others suffer while you do it because this emotion will one day drag you down to levels you have taken others. Choose to lift people up because one day you may need lifted, don’t leave yourself alone as I have. I may be too late to bring people I love back but I am at one with what I done, my door has a bell and you can also knock it, you can call me, you don’t have to be alone, alone is choice sadly. But when we have no choices, how can we choose? It is all hard to take in isnt it? But this is living I am told. So how do you judge your own actions as a person, or do you even judge yourself, the first person we should judge each day is ourselves, yet we throw our own selves away and cast our emotions on others. And that is the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT IS ALL WE HAVE, lets choose to live today and accept the future as we build it together. Forget Politicians as they lie, Religion is your own call, if your heart has fear who am I to stop you connecting to God in your way? The very things that divide us are there for all to see, but the only thing left that can unite us is below in a song, and to the right hand side of this as you read it, I plant seeds in my own mind before I can even try and help another. Define away, but first define your own. The only emotion used in this 3 hours typing marathon was LOVE. But I ask, what did you feel? Only you can cause chaos and fit another emotion, or just feel love, YOU HAVE THE CHOICE. Start to apply and then you can never again deny

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Treating ‘Parkinsons disease’ – Patient walks better with MUSIC!

December 20th 2014 when my mind was being owned by a few horrible drugs via the Dr and Medical industry, somewhere at the back of my mind I started to think “Music is all we have”. Music speaks to us, speaks to our heart, sould and minds. With respect, TOTAL RESPECT, I say ‘Politics, Religion, Sport and a LOT MORE Divide us’ and sadly it does. Back in 2014 when Suicide was a thought in my confused mind and hurting body, I discovered laying down and listenning to music I wrote this > THE UNIVERSAL SPIRIT THAT IS MUSIC – Of course it was just an IDEA in my mind all these years ago, but I said to ANYONE who would listen to me “MUSIC WILL SAVE YOU”. I can’t say Music saved me from mental pain or body pain I can’t put a word too, but it stopped me taking my own life. Below is LIVING PROOF that my own thought, just mine, was one that had something more than just a word attached to it. I hope  this helps 1 person, because it helped the guy in the video below.

#ParkinsonsDisease This is truely brilliant this video below. Is this some sort of ‘Placebo’ at play here? I have 2 brain illnesses (as well as 2 issues that cause severe pain) and I say always that ‘Music is all we have’, and I say with RESPECT that Politics, Sport, Religion and MORE divide us all. Music is the ONLY THING we all have we can agree that works, AND HERE IS LIVING, WALKING PROOF. I been saying this for a few years now. Music can take a hurting mind and a confused mind to somewhere better. This guy walks better with music being played. He #GotRhythm

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Johnny Cash – Get Rhythm – Live in Ireland

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[Shauny Life Quote – #1]

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[Shauny Life Quote – #1] I think a lot, many reasons why. Often I think so deeply I AMAZE myself at what I can think about. I think I annoy people by talking about them 😀 So from now on, EVERY DAY!! I am doing this. This is Number 1. Every day I will share another. Why not?  🙂 And it might show people how my stupid brain works!! lol – I can be a science experiment for someone studying the human mind? #BeIn as we say here in Scotland 😀 I suffer from M.E, PTSD, Psychosis and Fibromyalgia, 2 are SEVERE pain, 1 makes you sleep all the time, the other 2 confuse the mind. I am medicated, so this should be a fairly fun experiment here. I want to push my limited mind to it’s obvious limit, even with my mind having limits.

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FUCK BEING DISABLED – FUCK THE REASONS IT PUT ME HERE

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About 17 years ago I was signed off work by the LAWYERS for LIFE with a ‘SORE FUCKING KNEE’ then put on a mixture of medication that made me a fucking paranoid schizophrenic living in pain so bad I wouldn’t feel a kick in the balls from the fucking Hulk due to pain medication that does fuck all. Fuck the pain, fuck the mind games, fuck people, fuck life, and fuck it all. I am fucking tired of a World where people just judge, moan and complain when they have fuck all to complain about. Sitting in a fucking bed listening how bad cunts lives are because someone at work is a prick, fuck the medication, fuck this pain and FUCK THE PROCESS OVER MONEY FORCING MY DR AT THE TIME BEING FORCED TO SIGN ME OFF FOR LIFE DUE TO MONEY HUNGRY FUCKING LAWYERS. Not saying there is a connection but my Dr who was FORCED to sign me off for life thanks to wank lawyers died soon after signing me off work, and to be fair he tried like fuck to not sign me off work as he too knew at the time I only had a fucking sore knee, or “Housemaids fucking knee” as it was called at the time. What I was put through back then, being FORCED to be signed off for work to protect MONEY!! Today makes me want to go kill cunts. Today it isn’t about the Disability, it’s about quality of life, I have fucking none. 24/7 pain, never stops, and yeah boo, fucking hoo me, what a fucking shame!!! Legally “I CAN’T FUCKING TELL THIS STORY” but I fucking want to. It took LIFE, FAMILY, FRIENDS, IT LOOK EVERY-FUCKING-THING. Next time some cunt looks at me like I am making this shit up I swear to fucking Christ I will map the cunts up. I am TIRED, tired of being a pathetic fucking cunt. Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, M.E and Psychosis are just a few things I need to suck up, sleeping all the time or awake all the time, always pain is crushing down, and I don’t have a DATE for it to end, it’s hard, very hard. When I want to end my life I have to think about my kids, when I want to hurt people I need to understand life in jail is probably a better deal than I have now, least in jail I could just go for it. The life I have today is because of lawyers protecting fucking money all these years ago.index

6e610a1a5a307f3f8afb792f024e15bbFuck the system that is there to serve ONLY money. Fuck the actual cheats who sit at home all day in happy-town with a free fucking life when they could actually go and fucking work, at least when I was signed off I did volunteer work with kids who needed help till the pain and my mind just took it all away. For me this has fuck all to do with either ‘Ability to work’ nor ‘Money’. It’s about NOT typing shit like this on the fucking internet. Jekyll and Hyde have fuck all on me, 1 minute I am smiling, the next in bed screaming like a wee girl, but I do hide it from life, NEVER do I speak like this to ANYONE, no, just bottle my shit up and smile like the rest of you. I got 2 little girls here and I have to fucking hide my life from them, and don’t talk to me about lonely. Not a dig at anyone I like being around, but pain is just fucking lonely, day after fucking day of bed and Morphine mixed with other meaningless shitty drugs I hate yet need to take, in-fact I need more but fuck it, I need a small part of my mind to keep me alive, I don’t even know if it helps the pain any more. ALWAYS when we are about to open a door to something good does some wanker close it for you. The story of ‘Why’ I was signed off for work for life I can’t tell for ‘Legal Reasons’ but I am >.< that close to getting a lawyer and suing some cunt for half a million pounds. All about money, all about ‘Protecting Interests’ The Government actually do help some people and I like to see people being helped, but what about all the fucking cheaters STILL claiming benefits at the cost of people who actually fucking need it.

wpid-picsart_1440622904154My partner didn’t sign up for this bullshit she has to care for me every waking fucking moment. I need help to eat, wash, shit, piss, I can hardly walk up my own hallway some days, and probably need help to breathe too, I will get back to you on that one. Fuck my Childhood and fuck every grown fucking man who stood back and watched what was happening and I will call every fucking one of them fucking cowards. Everyone fucking bailed and I had to take care of things, I think I was about 18 when that shit happened. Yeah I am fucked off, family only care about their own needs, I remember a World where family actually fucking helped each other, I remember times people cared, when people were not so fucking scared to talk. And this “Don’t be real on the internet bullshit” really fucks me off too. This is my blog, I EVEN NEED FUCKING HELP to do this shit, and it is fucking shit, people think because I have 1.5 Million views I think I am fucking special. Here is a deal, for the next month I will trade lives with any wank-face who thinks their life is hard because they have shit internet or someone said something on-line that upset them, because that is what the fucking World has came to. I try my best to just TRY,  but it’s too fucking hard, I have to restrain myself DAILY from punching strangers in the face, how I stop myself must be magic or some other shit. YEAH I AM FUCKING PISSED OFF….

And I am glad we can type it on the FUCKING STUPID, FULL OF SERIOUS CUNTS internet and not have to sit b0bc5772fab7c84b57f9ba74dc2594a1and speak like this to people. Not that people give a fuck anyway, they are too worried about what shoes to wear the next again fucking day. So why do I blog? Why do I ask my partner to sit (Not just now) and write all this blogging shit for me? Because if it wasn’t for this blog I would be in jail or dead, shit to 1 side, this blog gave me a voice, it gave me purpose to TRY and change things that need changed, but you realize after a while that no matter what you say, no matter what you claim you can or can’t prove, NO-CUNT IS LISTING ANYWAY, fools will be fools regardless. Someone (Decent Person) said to me a few days ago “Shaun, you really don’t hold fucking back do you?” and they said it with a smile on their face, a face I wanted to fucking punch may I add. Facts are I do care, I have reason to care, 2 wee girls and 2 sons to help grow up and older, that is my job so I will do it, happily, it’s the ONLY thing I actually enjoy in this pitiful fucking SHIT-HOLE we call Earth. Our World is full of fucking idiots, gossips, Religious fucking screw-balls and people so fucking dumb I would rather sit and speak to my fucking dog for a chin-wag. Seriously people are boring, tedious, narrow minded, 2 faced cunts in the main. But for all the good people, keep doing what you do, be yourself, don’t bow to the the pressures life places on us via all these scary things that are thrown at us every fucking day. I live in pain and utter confusion because of whatever the fuck is wrong with me, and I must do all that and smile and love 2 wee girls because I want them to have a Childhood or ‘NORMAL’, because my life is fucked I must still show my girls what a healthy relationship is, what is right from wrong. They saved me. I pray every day, not to Religion, Jesus or Scripture, no fuck that shit, I have praying to MY GOD since I was a wee boy, if nobody is listening, then nobody is listening, if it is just a stupid placebo to get me through each moment, hour or day then so be it. But truly, IT IS WEARING FUCKING THIN

fuck-off

How my mind feels

Fuck it!!! And thank fuck for this blog!! 

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The Poem Of Disability

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Surrounded by love, but feeling alone

Surrounded by Childs laughter, trying to connect

Surrounded by light, stuck in the darkness

Surrounded by sadness, but it’s really madness

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Covered in pain, it’s not a shame

Covered in love, I can’t feel it

Covered with life, feeling lifeless

Covered in money, feeling so poor

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Hearing laughter, feelings hatred

Hearing anger, wanting to kill it

Hearing Sadness, want to silence it

Hearing hatred, unable to connect

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Fearing alone, nobody can reach me

Fearing nothing, fearing nothing

Fearing sad, can’t reach happy

Feeling angry, hate that feeling

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Staring into nowhere, wishing I was there

Staring at my kids, wishing I wasn’t me

Staring into loves eyes, can’t connect it

Staring into the abyss, wishing I could touch it

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Standing at the junction, left or right?

Standing in a crowd, but standing alone

Standing on my own, feeling sad, feeling angry

Standing at the precipice, hoping it all ends

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Pain so hard it’s just a matter of fact

Pain that speaks for you, acts for you

Pain wanting to sympathy, no understanding

Pain that takes you away, leaving love alone

Pain, alone, sad, angry, wishing it away

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Shaun Gibson

2nd October 2016

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Celtic 5-1 Rangers – Brown on ‘Joey Barton’ And Rangers Fans DESTROY Celtic toilets. [PICS-VIDEOS]

Via SNS

Via SNS

Thanks to a friend for helping me with this. Well that was SOME GAME! We UTTERLY DESTROYED THEM! I mean we gave them no hope but they did cheat all these years ago, they are lucky they can actually come to Paradise to get beat. What they did to our toilets looks like 10’s of Thousands of pounds worth of damage. Scotland’s Shame, the evil and anger that keeps given. Old man Weir sent off and a red card for Senderos, but the game, the score, the humiliation we inflicted on them was never in doubt. Moussa Dembele came of age at the tender age of 19 years old and scored the first hat-trick against this new still angry version of Rangers. From goalkeeper right through to the attackers we were head and shoulders above this new blue version of SCOTLANDS SHAME FROM THE START. Great 3 points, 2 videos and images that will probably not make Main Stream Media of Blue fans destroying our property, will they pay for it? As Rodgers said after the game, and he was the calmest man in Paradise today “IT COULD HAVE BEEN MORE”

Never in hate, ALWAYS in debate

Dunbelle and Brown “Men Vs Boys” and “Are you ok Joey”
Via: Sky Sports on You Tube

 

Rangers fans DESTROY toilets, thousands of pounds of Damage!!

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Images from the game

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Outsung, outplayed, WE DESTROYED THEM

Outsung, outplayed, WE DESTROYED THEM

THE NEW 'CHOSEN ONE'

THE NEW ‘CHOSEN ONE’

Didn't cry today :D

Didn’t cry today 😀

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3-1

Hurt, Much?

Hurt, Much?

He caught this

He caught this

BANG 1-0

BANG 1-0

Shame...Scotlands shame!

Shame…Scotlands shame!

JUST YASSSS!!

JUST YASSSS!!

Shame...Scotlands shame

Shame…Scotlands shame

GREEN BLOOD FLOWING

GREEN BLOOD FLOWING

As usual, went the wrong way ...Red card today

As usual, went the wrong way …Red card today

5-1

5-1

OWNED. IN WHOS LEAGUE?

OWNED. IN WHOS LEAGUE?

Even Brown won this!

Even Brown won this!

Eric and Armstrong

Eric and Armstrong

Fair red card

Fair red card

10/10....1st Hat-Trick against a blue team since 1966!!!

10/10….1st Hat-Trick against a blue team since 1966!!!

I might sleep tonight....

I might sleep tonight….

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Thousands die after being declared ‘fit for work’ – no wonder Tories didn’t want anyone to know

Reluctant: Iain Duncan Smith didn't want to release the figures

Reluctant: Iain Duncan Smith didn’t want to release the figures

As a severally disabled person myself living with the cloud of #Suicide because I think I am too much for my loved ones all I can do is try and stand up and live any life my body and mind will allow, also I am trying to #ChangeTheDisabledSign I find this news awful but sadly I am not surprised. I blogged for 2 years with the help of my partner and copy and paste like below to give news to this. The title and story below tell the story but I will leave blogs I did as far back as 2 or 3 years ago regarding the Tory party having £Billions of pounds for Trident and War, but not enough to look after people who need looked after, and also the family of those struggling to help the people they care for. Below are also #Suicide numbers for people who really need help as well as previous blogs I have done. Also I may add, I can be contacted via the Twitter and Skype at the foot of the page. I must thank the same person who sits here and types for me and helps me do these blogs also caring for me 24/7, giving me my Medication, 1 being a controlled drug, helping be shower in a seat, dress, cook for me, basically everything, many people depend on help and it must be given. I know I said I stopped but for this I can’t and won’t look away, no matter the cost. Sadly many videos I have shared have been deleted by someone. Also at the foot of each blog there are 3 more pointing at the same story. All this aside, CATCH THE THIEVES WHO STEAL DISABLED PEOPLE MONEY, WHOEVER THEY ARE!!

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I agree with this, but our Government WE PAY FOR must do better

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CHANGE THE DISABLED SIGN – FOR ALL DISABLED PEOPLE!!

As Ian Duncan Smith causes ATOS Suicides, MP’s spend Millions on Ipad’s and Laptops

How Benefit Sanctions Have Driven UK to Suicide

Politicians Greed Vs Benefit slashing Suicides – Wake up, vote them out! -Suicide Contact Numbers

Scottish – Disabled Bloggers – Give us peace! – We this sad Scotland?

Does being Disabled make you see others in a bad light?

UK Government decision to close fund helping disabled people live independently ruled lawful

Britain ‘blindly violating disabled people’s human rights’

For those who need help! Personal Independence Payment (PIP) – GOV.UK

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Via: http://www.mirror.co.uk/

Mirror

Thanks to the Freedom of Information act, Iain Duncan Smith has been forced to release figures showing how many ­people declared fit for work by his department dropped dead.

More than 4,000 people died within six weeks of being found “fit for work”, the Department for Work and Pensions has admitted.

The figures cover the period between December 2011 to February 2014. All were told they should find a job following a “Work Capability Assessment”.

Of the total, 1,360 died after losing an appeal against the decision. Apparently 80 people a week are dying after being assessed as fit for work. Now we know why Mr Duncan Smith and the Government were so reluctant to release these figures.

It will shock nobody to hear the Iain Duncan Smith response to this shaming revelation is to adapt the famous line from the Bruce Willis film The Sixth Sense – “I don’t see dead people”.

"I see dead people": But Iain Duncan Smith doesn't, apparently

“I see dead people”: But Iain Duncan Smith doesn’t, apparently

So, in ­addition to throwing the disabled out of their adapted homes under the hated Bedroom Tax , wasting billions of public money on a complete turkey of a ­computer system for universal credit, we can now add hounding the sick to death to the charge sheet.

This was all supposedly to save the taxpayers money and weed out the shirkers and scammers. As for the people doing the work placement assessing, from what I know they are not given time or resources enough to carry out the ­assessments fairly.

They are paid per ­assessment, so they try to carry out as many as possible, making random conclusions based on interviews in which they don’t listen properly ­because they are too busy working out the route to the next ­assessment.

As of 22:48 0n the 3rd September 2016 - How Britain is dealing with this

As of 22:48 0n the 3rd September 2016 – How Britain is dealing with this

Of course, those disabled and sick have to appeal and the majority of them are successful. But then comes more expense as the appeals process costs money. Also the stress to people suffering multiple illnesses because they are ­basically being treated as con merchants can lead to serious deteriorations in their health.

I wonder how many of them had to be ­hospitalised and needed expensive ­aftercare.

How much money did we as taxpayers save with these callous tests – and was it enough to pay for the extra NHS care necessary?

One wonders what Mr Duncan Smith and his fellow travellers in cruelty will come up with next.

I have no inside track on this – but my fiver would be on something like “pay as you go“ wheelchairs, to save money and incentivise the paraplegic to walk. Watch this space and despair.

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