Dying Inside

After doing this blog here “Suicide is not always a ‘One-off-Act’ – It’s a living thought for People “ I got a few ‘Gossips’ from people who ‘should know better’, but also nothing from people I expect to be at our side, our being ‘Me and mine’ – When someone lives with Suicidal thoughts and a whole host of other issues like M.E. (Myalgic Mencephalomyelitis) + Fibromyalgia + PTSD and Psychosis, like I do, they want to die, I want to die, but I have reasons to live more important than myself, but I would love HELP to take the burden away from loved ones who watch me suffer, we don’t want sympathy or ‘What a shame’ and I hate this I get a lot ‘I feel sorry for you Shaun, you been through too much for someone so young”, yeah that tires your soul out that one. Sadly people I know say things like “That stupid fucking blog that Shaun does” But that’s it, they DON’T HELP THE PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO SUFFER BECAUSE OF MY ILLNESS. This is not about me. Think who hurts when one is watching another die, slowly or fast, it makes no fucking difference. This World is horrible, I am suicidal, but I will MAN UP as people say about me. But it is fucking hard to take the next step, the next breath. 5am, been up for a day and a half, pain is like death, my mind is scrambled and tied to the moon. Yet people who claim to ‘Love me’ are reading SOMETHING ELSE HERE, or wishing they had a voice? #NEWSFLASH, you do have a voice. Use it or shut the fuck up. I am aware there are people FAR WORSE than myself, but this is hard, every moment is ‘How can I kill myself’, but here I am, for now anyway. Regret is ONLY regret AFTER the event ❤ Peace

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♫ Dying Inside ♫
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Suicide is not always a ‘One-off-Act’ – It’s a living thought for People

When you start reading, keep reading, THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME, YOU WILL SEE! Today is and all across Social Media today I am reading people debate it, some are talking about the way they think they understand Suicide, some are mocking the WEAKNESS of Suicide. Many say “Suicide is the Cowards way out” I disagree personally, for me the thought of Suicide is a thought of ‘Release’ but not for me, for everyone who cares for me. I can’t just get in my car and GO LIVE, I have two little girls here age 8 and 7 years old, THEY ARE MY REASON, when Suicide becomes an option. What are your reasons? Suicide is so very Taboo, some see anger, hate, depression, some just see something else. Today I come out of my closet and say “I live with Suicide every waking moment” and for me this is a small victory or release.

Leroy Sanchez; People Help The People
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I have lost too many people to suicide, I have nearly lost loved ones to Suicide, only to see other loved ones MOCK the person who tried it. Saying “How dare they” and other pathetic sayings. I say “IF YOU REALLY CARE FOR SOMEONE, THEN GO HELP THEM” Suicide comes at you with a smile, fun, funny people are suicidal. Think of anyone you know who has committed Suicide or tried, more times than not we think “WOW, I DID NOT EXPECT IT FROM THEM, THEY ARE STRONG” So I say it again, Suicide comes at you with a smile, in fun. The funniest people I know, the strongest people I know are the ones who are Suicidal, tried or dead. I see a World of people just too busy to see each other, too busy chasing the wrong emotions. Are they selfish? Hell no! How can they be if they don’t know, yet many of us do look at everyone and think “Are they Suicidal” Suicide rates have tripled in just a generation, does it matter if it is men or woman, young or old? No, life is life, it’s precious, love it and start noticing it. Or you WILL live in Regret for life. This message isn’t for me, it’s for the World, my World too. I am at one with who I am, what I do and why. I tire of trying to meet people in the middle, I tire of people chasing the wrong things. I am TRYING to chase life and happy, and I will do my best. It’s all ANY of us can do. If anyone reads this and feels ‘THIS IS AIMED AT ME’, then that emotion is yours, so do something about it, I BEG

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I spent a LOT of time with Suicidal people, we talk, exchange ‘WHY’ and then we find solace in others. We find a way to talk about Suicide and thus giving it a voice and reason. We can’t as a species keep saying, thinking nor presuming “They want pity” or “They want Sympathy” No, we need to get our priorities in order and SEE THE TRUTH STARING AT US IN THE FACE. Regret is only regret when we allow it. I am Suicidal! Are you? Do you know anyone who is? If you know a Suicidal person, think of them, who they live with, how it impacts others the Suicidal person and those around them. Our World just looks and judges, it is now time to help, or we live LIFE in regret. Please start to help, please start to notice. The ability to talk Suicide is STRENGTH, and don’t let anyone tell you different. As always, thank you to another who helped me write this, and as always I end this blog with the same message

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Treating ‘Parkinsons disease’ – Patient walks better with MUSIC!

December 20th 2014 when my mind was being owned by a few horrible drugs via the Dr and Medical industry, somewhere at the back of my mind I started to think “Music is all we have”. Music speaks to us, speaks to our heart, sould and minds. With respect, TOTAL RESPECT, I say ‘Politics, Religion, Sport and a LOT MORE Divide us’ and sadly it does. Back in 2014 when Suicide was a thought in my confused mind and hurting body, I discovered laying down and listenning to music I wrote this > THE UNIVERSAL SPIRIT THAT IS MUSIC – Of course it was just an IDEA in my mind all these years ago, but I said to ANYONE who would listen to me “MUSIC WILL SAVE YOU”. I can’t say Music saved me from mental pain or body pain I can’t put a word too, but it stopped me taking my own life. Below is LIVING PROOF that my own thought, just mine, was one that had something more than just a word attached to it. I hope  this helps 1 person, because it helped the guy in the video below.

#ParkinsonsDisease This is truely brilliant this video below. Is this some sort of ‘Placebo’ at play here? I have 2 brain illnesses (as well as 2 issues that cause severe pain) and I say always that ‘Music is all we have’, and I say with RESPECT that Politics, Sport, Religion and MORE divide us all. Music is the ONLY THING we all have we can agree that works, AND HERE IS LIVING, WALKING PROOF. I been saying this for a few years now. Music can take a hurting mind and a confused mind to somewhere better. This guy walks better with music being played. He #GotRhythm

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Johnny Cash – Get Rhythm – Live in Ireland

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FUCK BEING DISABLED – FUCK THE REASONS IT PUT ME HERE

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About 17 years ago I was signed off work by the LAWYERS for LIFE with a ‘SORE FUCKING KNEE’ then put on a mixture of medication that made me a fucking paranoid schizophrenic living in pain so bad I wouldn’t feel a kick in the balls from the fucking Hulk due to pain medication that does fuck all. Fuck the pain, fuck the mind games, fuck people, fuck life, and fuck it all. I am fucking tired of a World where people just judge, moan and complain when they have fuck all to complain about. Sitting in a fucking bed listening how bad cunts lives are because someone at work is a prick, fuck the medication, fuck this pain and FUCK THE PROCESS OVER MONEY FORCING MY DR AT THE TIME BEING FORCED TO SIGN ME OFF FOR LIFE DUE TO MONEY HUNGRY FUCKING LAWYERS. Not saying there is a connection but my Dr who was FORCED to sign me off for life thanks to wank lawyers died soon after signing me off work, and to be fair he tried like fuck to not sign me off work as he too knew at the time I only had a fucking sore knee, or “Housemaids fucking knee” as it was called at the time. What I was put through back then, being FORCED to be signed off for work to protect MONEY!! Today makes me want to go kill cunts. Today it isn’t about the Disability, it’s about quality of life, I have fucking none. 24/7 pain, never stops, and yeah boo, fucking hoo me, what a fucking shame!!! Legally “I CAN’T FUCKING TELL THIS STORY” but I fucking want to. It took LIFE, FAMILY, FRIENDS, IT LOOK EVERY-FUCKING-THING. Next time some cunt looks at me like I am making this shit up I swear to fucking Christ I will map the cunts up. I am TIRED, tired of being a pathetic fucking cunt. Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, M.E and Psychosis are just a few things I need to suck up, sleeping all the time or awake all the time, always pain is crushing down, and I don’t have a DATE for it to end, it’s hard, very hard. When I want to end my life I have to think about my kids, when I want to hurt people I need to understand life in jail is probably a better deal than I have now, least in jail I could just go for it. The life I have today is because of lawyers protecting fucking money all these years ago.index

6e610a1a5a307f3f8afb792f024e15bbFuck the system that is there to serve ONLY money. Fuck the actual cheats who sit at home all day in happy-town with a free fucking life when they could actually go and fucking work, at least when I was signed off I did volunteer work with kids who needed help till the pain and my mind just took it all away. For me this has fuck all to do with either ‘Ability to work’ nor ‘Money’. It’s about NOT typing shit like this on the fucking internet. Jekyll and Hyde have fuck all on me, 1 minute I am smiling, the next in bed screaming like a wee girl, but I do hide it from life, NEVER do I speak like this to ANYONE, no, just bottle my shit up and smile like the rest of you. I got 2 little girls here and I have to fucking hide my life from them, and don’t talk to me about lonely. Not a dig at anyone I like being around, but pain is just fucking lonely, day after fucking day of bed and Morphine mixed with other meaningless shitty drugs I hate yet need to take, in-fact I need more but fuck it, I need a small part of my mind to keep me alive, I don’t even know if it helps the pain any more. ALWAYS when we are about to open a door to something good does some wanker close it for you. The story of ‘Why’ I was signed off for work for life I can’t tell for ‘Legal Reasons’ but I am >.< that close to getting a lawyer and suing some cunt for half a million pounds. All about money, all about ‘Protecting Interests’ The Government actually do help some people and I like to see people being helped, but what about all the fucking cheaters STILL claiming benefits at the cost of people who actually fucking need it.

wpid-picsart_1440622904154My partner didn’t sign up for this bullshit she has to care for me every waking fucking moment. I need help to eat, wash, shit, piss, I can hardly walk up my own hallway some days, and probably need help to breathe too, I will get back to you on that one. Fuck my Childhood and fuck every grown fucking man who stood back and watched what was happening and I will call every fucking one of them fucking cowards. Everyone fucking bailed and I had to take care of things, I think I was about 18 when that shit happened. Yeah I am fucked off, family only care about their own needs, I remember a World where family actually fucking helped each other, I remember times people cared, when people were not so fucking scared to talk. And this “Don’t be real on the internet bullshit” really fucks me off too. This is my blog, I EVEN NEED FUCKING HELP to do this shit, and it is fucking shit, people think because I have 1.5 Million views I think I am fucking special. Here is a deal, for the next month I will trade lives with any wank-face who thinks their life is hard because they have shit internet or someone said something on-line that upset them, because that is what the fucking World has came to. I try my best to just TRY,  but it’s too fucking hard, I have to restrain myself DAILY from punching strangers in the face, how I stop myself must be magic or some other shit. YEAH I AM FUCKING PISSED OFF….

And I am glad we can type it on the FUCKING STUPID, FULL OF SERIOUS CUNTS internet and not have to sit b0bc5772fab7c84b57f9ba74dc2594a1and speak like this to people. Not that people give a fuck anyway, they are too worried about what shoes to wear the next again fucking day. So why do I blog? Why do I ask my partner to sit (Not just now) and write all this blogging shit for me? Because if it wasn’t for this blog I would be in jail or dead, shit to 1 side, this blog gave me a voice, it gave me purpose to TRY and change things that need changed, but you realize after a while that no matter what you say, no matter what you claim you can or can’t prove, NO-CUNT IS LISTING ANYWAY, fools will be fools regardless. Someone (Decent Person) said to me a few days ago “Shaun, you really don’t hold fucking back do you?” and they said it with a smile on their face, a face I wanted to fucking punch may I add. Facts are I do care, I have reason to care, 2 wee girls and 2 sons to help grow up and older, that is my job so I will do it, happily, it’s the ONLY thing I actually enjoy in this pitiful fucking SHIT-HOLE we call Earth. Our World is full of fucking idiots, gossips, Religious fucking screw-balls and people so fucking dumb I would rather sit and speak to my fucking dog for a chin-wag. Seriously people are boring, tedious, narrow minded, 2 faced cunts in the main. But for all the good people, keep doing what you do, be yourself, don’t bow to the the pressures life places on us via all these scary things that are thrown at us every fucking day. I live in pain and utter confusion because of whatever the fuck is wrong with me, and I must do all that and smile and love 2 wee girls because I want them to have a Childhood or ‘NORMAL’, because my life is fucked I must still show my girls what a healthy relationship is, what is right from wrong. They saved me. I pray every day, not to Religion, Jesus or Scripture, no fuck that shit, I have praying to MY GOD since I was a wee boy, if nobody is listening, then nobody is listening, if it is just a stupid placebo to get me through each moment, hour or day then so be it. But truly, IT IS WEARING FUCKING THIN

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How my mind feels

Fuck it!!! And thank fuck for this blog!! 

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Prescription painkiller Tramadol ‘claiming more lives than any other drug’

I was on this 5 years!!

I was on this 5 years!!

People need to watch the video in this link as well as the You Tube video below. People being prescirbed and also people selling/buying on the streets are dying through Tramadol use. I was prescribed this for 5 years, and as I think more I am becoming to realise that this drug may, or probably was the drug that made me a Dr’s Heroin patient. For years I was taking this and other really dangerous drugs. Today I am on a few drugs (Lot less) but more powerful. One is a cancer pain drug called MST Continus and you can feel it, like feel it in your head, your mind. I know people NEED drugs for certain things, but I think it’s safe to ask the question “Do you know anyone on Tramadol” Because in the video in the link above, when people on tramadol fall asleep, they are actually in a mini-coma!!! This SERIOUSLY defines my experience with Tramadol. Why do people buy this shit to get high? It doesn’t make you high, it just makes you fall asleep. You know someone on tramadol? PLEASE Show them the link below and this video. You might save a life. I myself NEED strong pain medicine, I am glad I am off this drug today, but what damage did this drug to to my body and mind in the 5 years I was on it? I am VERY THANKFUL I live in a Country where Medication is free, the medication I am on today is strong, makes me sleep a lot and plays with my mind, but it does work a little, took me years to find the right drugs that allow me to think for myself, all be it just a little. PS: Thanks to the person who helps me type all this, they have the patience of a saint!! 

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Prescription painkiller Tramadol, taken by thousands of people every day, is claiming more lives than any other drug – including heroin and cocaine – according to Northern Ireland’s top pathologist. The painkiller doesn’t cause harm if taken correctly, but the danger rises when users mix it with other drugs or alcohol. Last year, 33 deaths in Northern Ireland were linked to Tramadol. Among them were a 16-year-old girl and a pensioner in his 70s.

I don’t think that people realise how potentially risky taking Tramadol is.

I think it’s because it’s a prescription drug – people assume it’s safe.

– Professor Jack Crane, State Pathologist for NI
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Tramadol / Ultram – Side Effects, Drug Interactions, And Natural Anti Inflammatory Alternatives
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The opiate-based drug used to treat moderate or severe pain should only be available on prescription – it was reclassified in 2014 making it an illegal Class C drug without prescription.

But anti-drug campaigners say more and more people are turning to the black market. Professor Jack Crane has spoken out to say he fears more people will die unless urgent action is taken and he is calling for a crackdown on the illegal market. He wants Tramadol to be upgraded again, this time to Class A. Professor Crane is now set to meet Northern Ireland’s Chief Medical Officer later this month to push for change.

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♪ Second chance ♪

second_chance-posterClosing one door can be hard, but I am learning quicky that for every door that closed, a new one can open, but we must understand 2nd Chances are only there should we see the possibility of the 2nd chance. We all share quotes and images of ‘BETTER’ and ‘EASIER LIFE’ meanings and almost instructions. We share all these things about how we can ‘Make Life Better’, yet how many actually put into practice what they preach or say? My view is not many, we can all share GOOD THINGS all day, but if we don’t apply them then we are sharing for no other reason than sharing a myth to ourselves. Enjoy this song, hope it helps someone

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Shinedown – Second Chance ( lyrics )
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♪ Wasn’t Expecting That ♪

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These days as people in my life, also friends online understand how badly my mind has become, they are also helping me by sending me songs, and I love this. Like I said in a few blogs it is my belief that Music is almost a Religion. Why? Well Music is the ONLY conduit of where our souls can connect. Again I am not dismissing other means of ‘Connecting with our World’ don’t exist, neither am I suggesting other ways of connecting our species exist in individual people. This is just my way of thinking and seeing things. But with a disabled mind and disabled body I can only grab hold to what helps me. Sure I pray every day still, something I have done since I was a wee boy here in Scotland. No Religious groups can I connect with, Scripture I can’t totally dismiss but it’s hard to tell if it’s words have meaning. But the real issue of me trying to connect to ‘WHATEVER IT IS’ is held back by people in Relgion who just cast stones at people trying to understand more. This song was given to me by a lad I love to bits, helped the kid grow up. He knew it would touch my soul, and it did. I have said a million times over 4 years of blogging crap that I find it very hard to understand written font, music on the other hand, I get in an instant. Enjoy. It might have some meaning to you

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Jamie Lawson – Wasn’t Expecting That (Lyrics)
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♫ Keep Singing ♫

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Amazing song below. These days I am TOTALLY understanding Music and its power. As a species NOTHING conventional like Politics, Religion, Sport, the list is endless, can keep us together nor keep us agreeing, we disagree on ALL THINGS, well apart from 1 thing, MUSIC! I am trying to fight past 4 HUGE disabilities that effect my mind and body. I can sit and listen to UB40, I can sit and listen to Lionel Richie, just an example. I close my eyes and pretend to sing to my partner, or my family in a room or venue. In my mind’s eye I am laying in my bed, or my spare room sofa, wherever, and I can let the music take me over. I visualise myself singing songs, I know this sounds crazy but I have to control the disabilities that control my mind, so I am fighting back. If I can play a song into my headset or ear-buds and sing it till the end, I feel liberated in my mind, but often in my thoughts of singing any song, whatever I like in that moment, a demon from my past can creep into my performance, the performance in my mind, so my fight is so big, so visible, yet so small and un-noticed, and I write this not for me, I write this so others can TRY. I hope you can. Love this song below, his album went right to number 1!!. Its lyrics are powerful to me, again it applies to me, if you struggle with pain or mind confusion like I do, pick 1 song and don’t stop till you can imagine, feel, and OWN THE MOMENT, in your mind. Strange yes, disabled yes. 😀 But Disabled people can live, breath and try and NOT BE A BURDEN TO OUR LOVED ONES OR/NOR SOCIETY!!! We deserve this, well most of us, I know people HAPPY on disability benefits and drugs from Drs [YEAH, CHEATERS TAKING MONEY OTHERS NEED].

imagesDisabled or not, see how much you own your mind, good fun for some, real for others. Also I have two little girls in this house, I tell them ‘Daddy has a sore knee’, that will do for now, but they MUST see a real man, a man who loves, tries, shows them a healthy relationship with Mummy, make them know fun and laughter and also plant seeds for the bad things. One day they will see boys, I have a job to do so when they see boys they can see a man in there, not a stupid boy. That is my job, well 1 of them, I have to get this right, for them, it’s that simple. Life kills me, but they reward me with something else, I don’t know what yet. Maybe Angels do exist? Till next time, not really in a ‘Bloggy’ place these days, but Music and THE SIGN below can save many people, I just know I need to help. I am told ‘Help yourself 1st’ But I just can’t, I need to help because I know what it’s like to need help in this often amazing or horrible World we all share. Thanks again for a friend helping me construct this share here

Rick Astley – Keep Singing
Via: RickAstleyVEVO on You Tube

When I was a boy
I saw my daddy crying at the steering wheel
And oh, it made me feel so scared

Then there was joy
Found my religion, swimming in a chour of voices
And oh, I knew that I’d been spared

That I’d be saved some sunny day
Saved from throwing my life away
That I’d be saved some sunny day
From throwing my life, throwing my life away

Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Praising to the heavens with my voice ringing
Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Clap to the beat ’till my hands are stinging
And I’d be saved some sunny day
From throwing my life (throwing my life)
Throwing my life (throwing my life) away

And now I understand
I’m a wide eyed father, blessed are the children
Oh our greatest reward
And with these hands
I’ll move a mountain, build a castle to keep you safe
Of this, you know you can be sure

And you’ll be saved some sunny day
Saved from throwing your life away
And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life, throwing your life away

Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Praising to the heavens with your voices ringing
Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Clap to the beat ’till your hands are stinging
And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life (throwing your life)
Throwing your life (throwing your life) away

Who do you love
When it all comes down to truth
Who do you love
When it all comes back to you
Who do you love
When you’re lying in your bed
Who do you love
Who do you love

Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray

And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life (throwing your life),
Throwing your life (throwing your life) away

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Angels On My Side

My 2 Daughters are making me live again

My 2 Daughters are making me live again

I am not re-blogging again, more just a ‘Hey, how are you doing’ – I am done with my Gym work as it just got too hard, but the weight is gone. I sleep most of the day these days, but I am daring to show the World that ”Disabled People’ or any people cannot just dream, they can act, they can do, become, create and make moments others can feel also. I am about to ROAR again as losing my voice, or ability to be a ‘Team Player’ in life shattered my soul. I have 3 offers from Publishers to tell my story, my life story. I said ‘Yeah’ on 1 condition, that any money I make is placed into a pot where it can help people who are needing help, that is a promise I make, life is not about me, News isn’t even what I want to write anymore, I want to create and live in moments where smiling is what I do even when I am in agony in bed. I always have only ever had 2 choices, live or die, I am going to live. But my quest now is to change this image here that DOES NOT REPRESENT all disabled people. For me personally, well I will not be judged by one more person, the next person to judge me by the 1st image below will be told to go forth and multiply!! I mean this, no hate, no anger, just LETS CHANGE THIS SIGN so people can be respected and allowed to be part of a World that looks and see’s no wheelchair. This is my goal now. I was signed off by the Government in 1999 against my wishes and it nearly got nasty and hard with court cases, in the end I took the easy option of money and free drugs from the Government, that was my choice, but the pain was bad and I was young. Now older the reason for being signed off Work are no longer applicable, I was signed off for LIFE, DUE TO A BAD KNEE!!! Today I have Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain, M.E and another stupid brain condition; I flat out am refusing to be judged BADLY by anyone today. These things restrict my body and mind, but I live in agony, so how much more pain can I give myself today with a clearer mind? I am going to tell myself to ‘Keep on Keeping on’ because ‘Everything will be alright’ and ‘I have angels on my side’ – Please check the amazing song below!!

 

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Rick Astley – Angels On My Side
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“Angels On My Side”

Sometimes I just don’t feel like waking up
wanna stay inside my dreams
sometimes I feel like I am breaking up
do you know just how that feels

Hope is for the hopeful
it’s a dream that never dies
faith is for the faithful
I see it in your eyes

And I got angels on my side
I got angels flying high
and everything gon’ be alright
’cause I got angels on my side

I need the people that I really love
to only give me truth
don’t fake it, I can’t take it
my heart is close to breaking
it reminds me of my youth

Hope is for the hopeful
it’s a dream that never fades
faith is for the faithful
And I will not be swayed

‘Cause I got angels on my side
I got angels flying high
and everything gon’ be alright
’cause I got angels on my side

Everything gon’ be alright,
everything gon’ be alright,
everything gon’ be alright,
everything gon’ be alright

Everything gon’ be alright,
’cause I got angels on my side.
Oh, yeah.

Can you see them?
Can you see them?

I got angels on my side
angels flying high
and everything gon’ be alright,
’cause I got angels on my side.

I got angels, you got angels,
everybody got their angels on their side,
everything’s gonna be alright
You got angels, I got angels
everybody got their angels by their side,
it’s alright, it’s alright.
I got angels, you got angels,
everybody got an angel by their side,
we got angels on my side.
I got angels, you got angels,
everybody got their angels by their side,
oh, yeah.

~~~

MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

Shauny

Today I stop blogging – For real! – Thank You!! & Goodbye

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imagesWell this REALLY is my last blog for ShanyNews ANYTHING. I only have Twitter left and I will re-name that. This blog and the ability to share my thoughts probably saved my life if I am being fair and honest. See when you lose your voice or ability to just be seen as normal, never mind be normal, you need an outlet, this blog gave me the only voice I could have, so I am thankful to a MILLION people and WordPress for being here when my mind was CRAVING something I had no idea what craving. I will share 1 blog only, it was done way back in November 20th 2014 called ‘Finding Nirvana’ I wrote it at a time my mind was aware of the poison destroying it and it was a shout from the back of my mind onto this page for help probably, sadly when you get like I am it’s hard to connect anything to anyone sometimes, I see one thing, others see different, I am talking in real life terms here, not online. I met a ton of amazing people Blogging and on Facebook and a number of Social Media outlets, but I met some nut jobs also, I came into Social Media with not 1 enemy and I leave Social Media with no enemies. See people might see that different but to have an enemy implies that you yourself dislike or hate someone or some people, I hate or dislike nobody, people are either nice or not nice, and it really is that simple. Religion, Colour, Race Creed or whatever, people are the same. The people we see in Wars are like you and I, but we can’t feel the fear they do. Blogging taught me this, we share a LOT on these blogs but how many actually step away from the Internet and actually try and make things better? Answer is easy, not many. I learn about our World on here as I have never left the British Isles, so when I stopping doing football and DJ party hosing and other things I sat here and tried to understand a World I had never seen before, I wanted to see it, feel it, know cultures and religions and find answers. We are all told “Don’t talk Religion or Politics” I think it’s fair to say I did cross that line yeah? But it was just questions, nothing more. All the bad stuff I shared was re-sharing what was already out there, all the blogs about the big bad World were 2nd hand news had people looked. The personal blogs about me or my pain and now Gym gave me a platform to lay my mind HERE and not to my amazing partner and family. So today I stop Social Media for good. I came off a few places in the last week, Facebook I left with a thought of “I BET I GO BACK” 😀 I never, I resisted. If people in my life want to talk to me they can still do so, I have a phone and a front door for them to come and talk. For every GOOD PERSON I met on My Amazing Journey Shared And Documented I can only say ‘Thank you’ for helping me. Many people helped me and they maybe didn’t know. Now I have a story to tell, but it won’t be told here. Deliberate Donkey to the right and what I have been doing since January the 1st, the Gym and all the Images and diary entries I have been keeping are the story. I will say ‘WordPress helped’ but the people in WordPress. This is a pretty amazing place when we get the good people beside us, sadly I lost a LOT of good people through the medication I was given. So if I ever upset you or offended you, truly, I am sorry ok, it was never my intention. I am now ready to try and fly, the pain is still horror but I am learning to breathe through it. I need to sing, shout, speak, talk, act, I have so many dreams I am aiming for now and I want to try them all. 1st I need to come away from Social Media and keep re-connecting with reality. But I again thank you all for being part of my story. I wish you well in your story, we all have a story and let me tell you, it’s better out than in. See I kept mine in for a VERY LONG TIME, and it hurt, so I used this blog to get it out. You can do the same you know!

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Be good, be happy, smile, you are alive today so just smile, the inevitable is coming no matter what we do or how we choose to live as individuals, but just enjoy life, it’s a gift, it’s amazing, smile and enjoy it if you can. If you are struggling, open a blog, use a different name, and anything, but just get what is stopping you from living stop, so you can start to live. What I did and what I am doing I was told was IMPOSSIBLE, so I am now going to prove to the World that disabled people, in mind and body can BECOME, or just become. I have dreams, I have my two little princesses’, I have my partner, my sons and all who love me ready to reconnect with. So that is what I am going to do 🙂 Please, I hope you are all good, don’t let the bad bits into your mind, own your mind and just refuse the bad things in, you can do that!! Live well friends. PS: Should anyone want to stay in contact and I know some will, add me to Skype. My username is shaunyg1973 feel free to keep in touch SKYPE IS TYPE OR AUDIO OR VIDEO, TYPE ONLY IF THAT IS HOW YOU WANT TO TALK, PEOPLE THINK IT IS AUDIO/VIDEO ONLY. I will keep this open till the weekend then close it or hibernate it as I paid for it 😀 I am Scottish, we are strange with money, there is no myth here

More Love, Less Hate

Over and out

Shauny

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