[Shauny Life Quote – #1]

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[Shauny Life Quote – #1] I think a lot, many reasons why. Often I think so deeply I AMAZE myself at what I can think about. I think I annoy people by talking about them 😀 So from now on, EVERY DAY!! I am doing this. This is Number 1. Every day I will share another. Why not?  🙂 And it might show people how my stupid brain works!! lol – I can be a science experiment for someone studying the human mind? #BeIn as we say here in Scotland 😀 I suffer from M.E, PTSD, Psychosis and Fibromyalgia, 2 are SEVERE pain, 1 makes you sleep all the time, the other 2 confuse the mind. I am medicated, so this should be a fairly fun experiment here. I want to push my limited mind to it’s obvious limit, even with my mind having limits.

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FUCK BEING DISABLED – FUCK THE REASONS IT PUT ME HERE

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About 17 years ago I was signed off work by the LAWYERS for LIFE with a ‘SORE FUCKING KNEE’ then put on a mixture of medication that made me a fucking paranoid schizophrenic living in pain so bad I wouldn’t feel a kick in the balls from the fucking Hulk due to pain medication that does fuck all. Fuck the pain, fuck the mind games, fuck people, fuck life, and fuck it all. I am fucking tired of a World where people just judge, moan and complain when they have fuck all to complain about. Sitting in a fucking bed listening how bad cunts lives are because someone at work is a prick, fuck the medication, fuck this pain and FUCK THE PROCESS OVER MONEY FORCING MY DR AT THE TIME BEING FORCED TO SIGN ME OFF FOR LIFE DUE TO MONEY HUNGRY FUCKING LAWYERS. Not saying there is a connection but my Dr who was FORCED to sign me off for life thanks to wank lawyers died soon after signing me off work, and to be fair he tried like fuck to not sign me off work as he too knew at the time I only had a fucking sore knee, or “Housemaids fucking knee” as it was called at the time. What I was put through back then, being FORCED to be signed off for work to protect MONEY!! Today makes me want to go kill cunts. Today it isn’t about the Disability, it’s about quality of life, I have fucking none. 24/7 pain, never stops, and yeah boo, fucking hoo me, what a fucking shame!!! Legally “I CAN’T FUCKING TELL THIS STORY” but I fucking want to. It took LIFE, FAMILY, FRIENDS, IT LOOK EVERY-FUCKING-THING. Next time some cunt looks at me like I am making this shit up I swear to fucking Christ I will map the cunts up. I am TIRED, tired of being a pathetic fucking cunt. Chronic Pain, Fibromyalgia, M.E and Psychosis are just a few things I need to suck up, sleeping all the time or awake all the time, always pain is crushing down, and I don’t have a DATE for it to end, it’s hard, very hard. When I want to end my life I have to think about my kids, when I want to hurt people I need to understand life in jail is probably a better deal than I have now, least in jail I could just go for it. The life I have today is because of lawyers protecting fucking money all these years ago.index

6e610a1a5a307f3f8afb792f024e15bbFuck the system that is there to serve ONLY money. Fuck the actual cheats who sit at home all day in happy-town with a free fucking life when they could actually go and fucking work, at least when I was signed off I did volunteer work with kids who needed help till the pain and my mind just took it all away. For me this has fuck all to do with either ‘Ability to work’ nor ‘Money’. It’s about NOT typing shit like this on the fucking internet. Jekyll and Hyde have fuck all on me, 1 minute I am smiling, the next in bed screaming like a wee girl, but I do hide it from life, NEVER do I speak like this to ANYONE, no, just bottle my shit up and smile like the rest of you. I got 2 little girls here and I have to fucking hide my life from them, and don’t talk to me about lonely. Not a dig at anyone I like being around, but pain is just fucking lonely, day after fucking day of bed and Morphine mixed with other meaningless shitty drugs I hate yet need to take, in-fact I need more but fuck it, I need a small part of my mind to keep me alive, I don’t even know if it helps the pain any more. ALWAYS when we are about to open a door to something good does some wanker close it for you. The story of ‘Why’ I was signed off for work for life I can’t tell for ‘Legal Reasons’ but I am >.< that close to getting a lawyer and suing some cunt for half a million pounds. All about money, all about ‘Protecting Interests’ The Government actually do help some people and I like to see people being helped, but what about all the fucking cheaters STILL claiming benefits at the cost of people who actually fucking need it.

wpid-picsart_1440622904154My partner didn’t sign up for this bullshit she has to care for me every waking fucking moment. I need help to eat, wash, shit, piss, I can hardly walk up my own hallway some days, and probably need help to breathe too, I will get back to you on that one. Fuck my Childhood and fuck every grown fucking man who stood back and watched what was happening and I will call every fucking one of them fucking cowards. Everyone fucking bailed and I had to take care of things, I think I was about 18 when that shit happened. Yeah I am fucked off, family only care about their own needs, I remember a World where family actually fucking helped each other, I remember times people cared, when people were not so fucking scared to talk. And this “Don’t be real on the internet bullshit” really fucks me off too. This is my blog, I EVEN NEED FUCKING HELP to do this shit, and it is fucking shit, people think because I have 1.5 Million views I think I am fucking special. Here is a deal, for the next month I will trade lives with any wank-face who thinks their life is hard because they have shit internet or someone said something on-line that upset them, because that is what the fucking World has came to. I try my best to just TRY,  but it’s too fucking hard, I have to restrain myself DAILY from punching strangers in the face, how I stop myself must be magic or some other shit. YEAH I AM FUCKING PISSED OFF….

And I am glad we can type it on the FUCKING STUPID, FULL OF SERIOUS CUNTS internet and not have to sit b0bc5772fab7c84b57f9ba74dc2594a1and speak like this to people. Not that people give a fuck anyway, they are too worried about what shoes to wear the next again fucking day. So why do I blog? Why do I ask my partner to sit (Not just now) and write all this blogging shit for me? Because if it wasn’t for this blog I would be in jail or dead, shit to 1 side, this blog gave me a voice, it gave me purpose to TRY and change things that need changed, but you realize after a while that no matter what you say, no matter what you claim you can or can’t prove, NO-CUNT IS LISTING ANYWAY, fools will be fools regardless. Someone (Decent Person) said to me a few days ago “Shaun, you really don’t hold fucking back do you?” and they said it with a smile on their face, a face I wanted to fucking punch may I add. Facts are I do care, I have reason to care, 2 wee girls and 2 sons to help grow up and older, that is my job so I will do it, happily, it’s the ONLY thing I actually enjoy in this pitiful fucking SHIT-HOLE we call Earth. Our World is full of fucking idiots, gossips, Religious fucking screw-balls and people so fucking dumb I would rather sit and speak to my fucking dog for a chin-wag. Seriously people are boring, tedious, narrow minded, 2 faced cunts in the main. But for all the good people, keep doing what you do, be yourself, don’t bow to the the pressures life places on us via all these scary things that are thrown at us every fucking day. I live in pain and utter confusion because of whatever the fuck is wrong with me, and I must do all that and smile and love 2 wee girls because I want them to have a Childhood or ‘NORMAL’, because my life is fucked I must still show my girls what a healthy relationship is, what is right from wrong. They saved me. I pray every day, not to Religion, Jesus or Scripture, no fuck that shit, I have praying to MY GOD since I was a wee boy, if nobody is listening, then nobody is listening, if it is just a stupid placebo to get me through each moment, hour or day then so be it. But truly, IT IS WEARING FUCKING THIN

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How my mind feels

Fuck it!!! And thank fuck for this blog!! 

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Prescription painkiller Tramadol ‘claiming more lives than any other drug’

I was on this 5 years!!

I was on this 5 years!!

People need to watch the video in this link as well as the You Tube video below. People being prescirbed and also people selling/buying on the streets are dying through Tramadol use. I was prescribed this for 5 years, and as I think more I am becoming to realise that this drug may, or probably was the drug that made me a Dr’s Heroin patient. For years I was taking this and other really dangerous drugs. Today I am on a few drugs (Lot less) but more powerful. One is a cancer pain drug called MST Continus and you can feel it, like feel it in your head, your mind. I know people NEED drugs for certain things, but I think it’s safe to ask the question “Do you know anyone on Tramadol” Because in the video in the link above, when people on tramadol fall asleep, they are actually in a mini-coma!!! This SERIOUSLY defines my experience with Tramadol. Why do people buy this shit to get high? It doesn’t make you high, it just makes you fall asleep. You know someone on tramadol? PLEASE Show them the link below and this video. You might save a life. I myself NEED strong pain medicine, I am glad I am off this drug today, but what damage did this drug to to my body and mind in the 5 years I was on it? I am VERY THANKFUL I live in a Country where Medication is free, the medication I am on today is strong, makes me sleep a lot and plays with my mind, but it does work a little, took me years to find the right drugs that allow me to think for myself, all be it just a little. PS: Thanks to the person who helps me type all this, they have the patience of a saint!! 

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Prescription painkiller Tramadol, taken by thousands of people every day, is claiming more lives than any other drug – including heroin and cocaine – according to Northern Ireland’s top pathologist. The painkiller doesn’t cause harm if taken correctly, but the danger rises when users mix it with other drugs or alcohol. Last year, 33 deaths in Northern Ireland were linked to Tramadol. Among them were a 16-year-old girl and a pensioner in his 70s.

I don’t think that people realise how potentially risky taking Tramadol is.

I think it’s because it’s a prescription drug – people assume it’s safe.

– Professor Jack Crane, State Pathologist for NI
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Tramadol / Ultram – Side Effects, Drug Interactions, And Natural Anti Inflammatory Alternatives
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The opiate-based drug used to treat moderate or severe pain should only be available on prescription – it was reclassified in 2014 making it an illegal Class C drug without prescription.

But anti-drug campaigners say more and more people are turning to the black market. Professor Jack Crane has spoken out to say he fears more people will die unless urgent action is taken and he is calling for a crackdown on the illegal market. He wants Tramadol to be upgraded again, this time to Class A. Professor Crane is now set to meet Northern Ireland’s Chief Medical Officer later this month to push for change.

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Thousands die after being declared ‘fit for work’ – no wonder Tories didn’t want anyone to know

Reluctant: Iain Duncan Smith didn't want to release the figures

Reluctant: Iain Duncan Smith didn’t want to release the figures

As a severally disabled person myself living with the cloud of #Suicide because I think I am too much for my loved ones all I can do is try and stand up and live any life my body and mind will allow, also I am trying to #ChangeTheDisabledSign I find this news awful but sadly I am not surprised. I blogged for 2 years with the help of my partner and copy and paste like below to give news to this. The title and story below tell the story but I will leave blogs I did as far back as 2 or 3 years ago regarding the Tory party having £Billions of pounds for Trident and War, but not enough to look after people who need looked after, and also the family of those struggling to help the people they care for. Below are also #Suicide numbers for people who really need help as well as previous blogs I have done. Also I may add, I can be contacted via the Twitter and Skype at the foot of the page. I must thank the same person who sits here and types for me and helps me do these blogs also caring for me 24/7, giving me my Medication, 1 being a controlled drug, helping be shower in a seat, dress, cook for me, basically everything, many people depend on help and it must be given. I know I said I stopped but for this I can’t and won’t look away, no matter the cost. Sadly many videos I have shared have been deleted by someone. Also at the foot of each blog there are 3 more pointing at the same story. All this aside, CATCH THE THIEVES WHO STEAL DISABLED PEOPLE MONEY, WHOEVER THEY ARE!!

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I agree with this, but our Government WE PAY FOR must do better

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CHANGE THE DISABLED SIGN – FOR ALL DISABLED PEOPLE!!

As Ian Duncan Smith causes ATOS Suicides, MP’s spend Millions on Ipad’s and Laptops

How Benefit Sanctions Have Driven UK to Suicide

Politicians Greed Vs Benefit slashing Suicides – Wake up, vote them out! -Suicide Contact Numbers

Scottish – Disabled Bloggers – Give us peace! – We this sad Scotland?

Does being Disabled make you see others in a bad light?

UK Government decision to close fund helping disabled people live independently ruled lawful

Britain ‘blindly violating disabled people’s human rights’

For those who need help! Personal Independence Payment (PIP) – GOV.UK

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Via: http://www.mirror.co.uk/

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Thanks to the Freedom of Information act, Iain Duncan Smith has been forced to release figures showing how many ­people declared fit for work by his department dropped dead.

More than 4,000 people died within six weeks of being found “fit for work”, the Department for Work and Pensions has admitted.

The figures cover the period between December 2011 to February 2014. All were told they should find a job following a “Work Capability Assessment”.

Of the total, 1,360 died after losing an appeal against the decision. Apparently 80 people a week are dying after being assessed as fit for work. Now we know why Mr Duncan Smith and the Government were so reluctant to release these figures.

It will shock nobody to hear the Iain Duncan Smith response to this shaming revelation is to adapt the famous line from the Bruce Willis film The Sixth Sense – “I don’t see dead people”.

"I see dead people": But Iain Duncan Smith doesn't, apparently

“I see dead people”: But Iain Duncan Smith doesn’t, apparently

So, in ­addition to throwing the disabled out of their adapted homes under the hated Bedroom Tax , wasting billions of public money on a complete turkey of a ­computer system for universal credit, we can now add hounding the sick to death to the charge sheet.

This was all supposedly to save the taxpayers money and weed out the shirkers and scammers. As for the people doing the work placement assessing, from what I know they are not given time or resources enough to carry out the ­assessments fairly.

They are paid per ­assessment, so they try to carry out as many as possible, making random conclusions based on interviews in which they don’t listen properly ­because they are too busy working out the route to the next ­assessment.

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As of 22:48 0n the 3rd September 2016 – How Britain is dealing with this

Of course, those disabled and sick have to appeal and the majority of them are successful. But then comes more expense as the appeals process costs money. Also the stress to people suffering multiple illnesses because they are ­basically being treated as con merchants can lead to serious deteriorations in their health.

I wonder how many of them had to be ­hospitalised and needed expensive ­aftercare.

How much money did we as taxpayers save with these callous tests – and was it enough to pay for the extra NHS care necessary?

One wonders what Mr Duncan Smith and his fellow travellers in cruelty will come up with next.

I have no inside track on this – but my fiver would be on something like “pay as you go“ wheelchairs, to save money and incentivise the paraplegic to walk. Watch this space and despair.

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♫ Keep Singing ♫

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Amazing song below. These days I am TOTALLY understanding Music and its power. As a species NOTHING conventional like Politics, Religion, Sport, the list is endless, can keep us together nor keep us agreeing, we disagree on ALL THINGS, well apart from 1 thing, MUSIC! I am trying to fight past 4 HUGE disabilities that effect my mind and body. I can sit and listen to UB40, I can sit and listen to Lionel Richie, just an example. I close my eyes and pretend to sing to my partner, or my family in a room or venue. In my mind’s eye I am laying in my bed, or my spare room sofa, wherever, and I can let the music take me over. I visualise myself singing songs, I know this sounds crazy but I have to control the disabilities that control my mind, so I am fighting back. If I can play a song into my headset or ear-buds and sing it till the end, I feel liberated in my mind, but often in my thoughts of singing any song, whatever I like in that moment, a demon from my past can creep into my performance, the performance in my mind, so my fight is so big, so visible, yet so small and un-noticed, and I write this not for me, I write this so others can TRY. I hope you can. Love this song below, his album went right to number 1!!. Its lyrics are powerful to me, again it applies to me, if you struggle with pain or mind confusion like I do, pick 1 song and don’t stop till you can imagine, feel, and OWN THE MOMENT, in your mind. Strange yes, disabled yes. 😀 But Disabled people can live, breath and try and NOT BE A BURDEN TO OUR LOVED ONES OR/NOR SOCIETY!!! We deserve this, well most of us, I know people HAPPY on disability benefits and drugs from Drs [YEAH, CHEATERS TAKING MONEY OTHERS NEED].

imagesDisabled or not, see how much you own your mind, good fun for some, real for others. Also I have two little girls in this house, I tell them ‘Daddy has a sore knee’, that will do for now, but they MUST see a real man, a man who loves, tries, shows them a healthy relationship with Mummy, make them know fun and laughter and also plant seeds for the bad things. One day they will see boys, I have a job to do so when they see boys they can see a man in there, not a stupid boy. That is my job, well 1 of them, I have to get this right, for them, it’s that simple. Life kills me, but they reward me with something else, I don’t know what yet. Maybe Angels do exist? Till next time, not really in a ‘Bloggy’ place these days, but Music and THE SIGN below can save many people, I just know I need to help. I am told ‘Help yourself 1st’ But I just can’t, I need to help because I know what it’s like to need help in this often amazing or horrible World we all share. Thanks again for a friend helping me construct this share here

Rick Astley – Keep Singing
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When I was a boy
I saw my daddy crying at the steering wheel
And oh, it made me feel so scared

Then there was joy
Found my religion, swimming in a chour of voices
And oh, I knew that I’d been spared

That I’d be saved some sunny day
Saved from throwing my life away
That I’d be saved some sunny day
From throwing my life, throwing my life away

Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Praising to the heavens with my voice ringing
Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Clap to the beat ’till my hands are stinging
And I’d be saved some sunny day
From throwing my life (throwing my life)
Throwing my life (throwing my life) away

And now I understand
I’m a wide eyed father, blessed are the children
Oh our greatest reward
And with these hands
I’ll move a mountain, build a castle to keep you safe
Of this, you know you can be sure

And you’ll be saved some sunny day
Saved from throwing your life away
And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life, throwing your life away

Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Praising to the heavens with your voices ringing
Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Clap to the beat ’till your hands are stinging
And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life (throwing your life)
Throwing your life (throwing your life) away

Who do you love
When it all comes down to truth
Who do you love
When it all comes back to you
Who do you love
When you’re lying in your bed
Who do you love
Who do you love

Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray

And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life (throwing your life),
Throwing your life (throwing your life) away

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CHANGE THESE SIGNS!!! This sign represents more disabled people than not!

CHANGE THE DISABLED SIGN – FOR ALL DISABLED PEOPLE!!

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~~HERE ARE SIGNS THAT ‘DO’ REPRESENT ‘THINGS~~

THESE SIGNS REPRESENT AND TELL A TRUTH, THE 2 ABOVE DON’T! CHANGE THE SIGN!!

I see this a lot where I live, who decided to build Edinburgh on top of 3 dormant volcanoes?

I see this a lot where I live, who decided to build Edinburgh on top of 3 dormant volcanoes?

Easy to understand

Easy to understand

Sometimes it gets silly

Sometimes it gets silly

Don't drop litter, EASY

Don’t drop litter, EASY

Walking over a road

Walking over a road

Traffic Lights, easy to see right?

Traffic Lights, easy to see right?

Bike Lane or Bike users yeah?

Bike Lane or Bike users yeah?

Petrol/Gas for your car, easy to understand

Petrol/Gas for your car, easy to understand

Radioactive - DANGEROUS

Radioactive – DANGEROUS

These are ALL very easy to understand

These are ALL very easy to understand

Bus - easy

Bus – easy

Fire - Run!!

Fire – Run!!

Easy

Easy

Recycle

Recycle

Do I have to explain?

Do I have to explain?

I see this a lot where I live, who decided to build Edinburgh on top of 3 dormant volcanoes?

I see this a lot where I live, who decided to build Edinburgh on top of 3 dormant volcanoes?

Don't drive faster than this

Don’t drive faster than this

Go back the other way

Go back the other way

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Signs that MAKE SENSE!

You might crash into this guy

You might crash into this guy

Living in pain with a brain illness – I am starting to understand things and people

7d8e410624cc96efade256b0d5aaf563I removed my stupid self from Facebook and a lot of other things in the last week, but I had good reason. Just now a family member is being annoyed by some idiot next door, pissing on my family members door mat, tapping the door then running away, threatening them, basically being a coward. I wanted to go to this person’s door and just have it dealt with, but family thought it WISE to call the police, and that is not how I deal with a ‘LIBERTY TAKER’ Someone who will do things to try and alter the mind of another to any given emotion. I think these ‘Liberty takers’ are cowards, real men just say to face or just jog on, that is all I know, so the restraint needed to not just go to this person’s door and finish this is very difficult for me, but over the last week in holding back seeing a family member suffer at the hands of a Coward it made me see something in myself, through my 4 disabilities

I am a person who can sleep like a happy baby with ANY emotion in my mind, I have the ability to sleep after someone says “I am going to kill you” or whatever crap people say. See real people just kill you, cowards give you the time and date so I just say “OK, we will be out, thanks for the heads up arsehole” 😀

d1660f22dbf09af7823b7ddcf50088eaThis new drug I am on MST Continus is a bit strong, but it is taken morning and night and is slow release, it differs from my old medication I was on in the way it doesn’t give you one big hit of pain relief at once, no, this just slowly enters your mind and body and you feel it, I can feel it in my mind. Strange thing the mind, I always want to be in full control of my mind, I never allow any person to enter my mind and try and own it, never going to happen. People have tried to play childish games with me in the past and always I slept well and didn’t give them thought. For me as a disabled guy living in agony and a mind that is hard to keep in check as it can be confusing with Fibromyalgia and M.E/CFS. Because I am in the Gym hitting leather and PVC every day I am needing flesh to hit, and the person annoying my family member was a target for my mind for a day or 2, but I managed to get rid of the idea of tying the prick to a chair and keeping him alive. I don’t mean that, it’s just a thought. I don’t play well with cowards, I tend to just deal with them and move on, I refuse to allow another to own my mind. But as I am off 5 different medications and now on 2 new ones I am trying to find my centre again, trying to re-establish where I am and what is around me. Always as a young kid my Dad would say to me “Know who is around you son, in-front, behind and at each side” and as a kid I never really got it, but I do now, I taught my own son’s this and I think they may struggle to understand it 😀 Life is very, VERY easy, and I prefer to live with a quiet mind, I own my thought and nobody can ever take that from me. They can mock, hit, play, do what they will, but not one person can control or own my mind, and that is what I am learning again. The man I used to be would just go and finish the story, get it over with and just go home as if nothing happened. Today I have two wee girls to help grow up, so I needed to grow up. This is why I came off Dr’s Heroin and am killing myself in the Gym every day. My mind, my entire being is for my family, I come 2nd because I can control my World, but I am noticing others can’t. It is what it is right?

11416159_10207009625624143_6777975463268398855_nBe good World, life can hit us from any side, in-front, behind or either side at any moment and we are left regretting we didn’t look to see what was around us. Don’t be paranoid with this, just understand EVERYTHING and EVERYONE around you, then you own your World. People say “But I can’t change the World” I say back “So go and change your own World” If we all did this, our World would be a better place I believe. Also, denying what and who we are, becoming something else or different because life said so can make us all very ill and unwell. I think we must always be ourselves and never deny who we are. Trust me, I seen it, made it, cleaned it, made the mess, you name it I done it, and got the preverbial T-Shirt to say so. Be yourself, don’t be someone else. Or life will hit you like a ton of bricks because you were not looking at what is around you, your mind was in a state of NOWHERE. Know who, what, whoever, whatever is around you, and the bricks miss you

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Holly Johnson Love Train
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Denaun – This Corner
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LYRICS

[Intro]
Hey look let me tell y’all somethin’ alright? What I do, I do. Straight like that. So ain’t no sense in y’all troublin’ yourselves over that, cause man the way I feel right now today

[Verse 1]
I came up on the wrong side of the fence
I gave my family pain and strife and asked them all for strength
But hell in my defense
And I got too much way too fast
My mama told me it won’t last
Now I’m back down on the bottom
Wishin’ that I took another path
I should’ve listened, but my mind was gone
My temper too quick so when my fuse get lit
So when it’s on, it’s on
Yeah, everybody wrong
Yeah, and I’m always right
Yeah, ain’t nobody to blame now
It’s me vs. me, man, this my fight

[Hook]
So don’t look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I’m better

[Post-Hook]
Yeah I put that on my family, all you gotta do is give me the chance
And I can show you that I’m worthy of the trust that you require
Put it all on my shoulders, I’m a fighter, I won’t get tired
When I’m back up in this corner, back up in this corner, tryna get out
Back up in this corner, back up in this corner, gotta get out

[Verse 2]
You think I got none but I got all kind of sense
Stop judgin’ my book by the cover
Maybe you should do a little reconnaissance
I ain’t tryna vent, this ain’t woe is me
It’s nothing owed to me
Get the swan song, I don’t need an ode to me
Shit hopefully holdin’ this rosary’ll keep me out of close calls with the O police
I said I’m tryna be a whole new me
I ain’t tryna do the same old thing
I’m tryna prove to my family that I will not bring
No more trouble around, I ain’t gotta do nothing
But stay out of shit, I ain’t gotta be up in the chaotic
Prolly cause it’s my redemption that I’m entrenched in
And I won’t let anybody deny my vision, it’s my decision
But y’all ain’t listenin’

[Hook]
So don’t look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I’m better

[Post-Hook]
Yeah I put that on my family, all you gotta do is give me the chance
And I can show you that I’m worthy of the trust that you require
Put it all on my shoulders, I’m a fighter, I won’t get tired
When I’m back up in this corner, back up in this corner, tryna get out
Back up in this corner, back up in this corner, gotta get out

[Verse 3]
It’s my gameplan now
To get in this ring and show that I’m a changed man and how
I won’t blow another chance to make you proud
Even though you got the right to hate me now
I know you lost your hope in me
But hopefully I can restore it back where it’s supposed to be
I just want my daughter back, this fight means much more than that
I’m tryna think before I react, I ain’t get the message at first
I tried to ignore the facts
But I’m much older, she’s my soldier, I told you I’d go to war for that
I said your boy is the truth and it’s no lie in him
All he needs is his family with him
Y’all want him ’til it’s no room given
I’ma hit him ’til the ref come and get him

[Hook]
So don’t look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I’m better

~~~


Iain Duncan Smith Resignation Letter – Nicola Reacts to it

And here was me thinking he loved killing the Disabled

And here was me thinking he loved killing the Disabled

Forgive me with the late news, was not online at all Friday, but to see this was a relief. Was it all an act? I am thinking probably, I don’t think the Tory would stick a dagger into another Tory, so what is the REAL REASON for Ian Duncan Smith walking away? And having a go at the Chancellor of the UK George Osborne on his way out. I am only sharing the letter (Alleged at this point) and the tweet from Nicola Sturgeon for now. This is good news on the face of it. Scottish and English people power did this if it is ‘what it is’ We kept at it, we kept poking and proding and asking, we never stopped, we petitioned and we really just never stopped. Great effort from everyone who made this happen. Do know this means we are more Democratic than we maybe though. Our voices, collective voices did this. Maybe we have saved peoples lives while doing so. Well done ALL who kept on this guy and the Tory for their Austerity against the Disabled mainly. Well done everyone in the UK, well done Scotland!!

 

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And Nicola Sturgeon was not slow in asking the OBVIOUS

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Right on it with the real question!

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Now 1 evil is gone, who can we get rid of next?

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♪ WOULD YOU ALMOST KILL YOURSELF TO STAY ALIVE?♫

It's a fake gun, relax

It’s a fake gun, relax. It’s the eyes I am going for

Above my blog are 3 pages, one is Living with CPS/Fibro and M.E. – 3 Disabilities I hope I can help others, that is all. When we have to put ourselves in a bubble and ignore almost everyone, it’s for good reason usually. Sadly others see it different, because some STILL want to name me and put a name on me as well as define me, this is the only way I can try and speak back. I can’t do ‘Going out’ much these days. I am making myself a monster so I can get into THAT ROOM, the room in the 3 links below. I just spent another hard morning doing Boxing work with a hairline fracture on my right ankle and damage to my left hand. Always I look to be inspired by things be them images or music, these are the only two things boxing will help you with. A famous fighter once said “Boxing is the Loneliest training or sport on Earth” I have that on my wall with other images to help me, and boy was he correct. I was a boxer as a kid, not allowed to fight by my Dad who maybe didn’t want me to go that road? I have no idea, he said “You can’t protect yourself” and I thought I did, this was 30 years ago now, so we laugh about it today my Dad and I as he calls me asking how I am doing with this fight for lifequote-Frank-Bruno-boxing-is-the-toughest-and-loneliest-sport-82019

The video below sadly I couldn’t find the lyrics video for so hit play on the video then scroll down to the lyrics. Who can identify with these lyrics? I can for sure, they make utter sense. Today I went into THAT ROOM for many people, the list is long and I am at the bottom, I can’t do this for myself, it has to be for others. I have added more pictures to my wall, and when I am screaming in pain, dulled by the music I have blasting out I know I am not alone. Many of us have a battle right? Mine is to live longer, that is it man, I can’t define it any better. I do feel lonely, I am having to decline offers to be places or go places because what I am doing I have to FIND HATE! And I don’t do hate, in my mind I MUST find a reason to keep doing what I am doing in a pain I have never felt before. The pain is dull, very deep and doesn’t go away. So when I am in that room I change my thinking to where I need to put it, then I have to start thinking about my Daughters and others before I finish and leave THAT ROOM. 7 weeks in and my body is starting to tighten, I feel the effects. I have to beat this, the rest is just BULLSHIT # The Reality Of Blogging. We shout over each other, it’s 8ull$h1t <# My thoughts on Blogging at the end of 2015

A Song To My Family

1st Report for my Gym/Boxing work. As I fight for life

2nd Report for my Gym/Boxing work. As I fight for life in agony

March 5th 2013: When we place ourselves in a private bubble, turn to love

~~~

DeNauN-This Corner
Via ShadyRecords on You Tube – LYRICS BELOW

[Intro]

Hey look let me tell y'all somethin' alright?
What I do, I do
Straight like that
So ain't no sense in y'all troublin' yourselves over that
'Cause man the way I feel right now today

I came up on the wrong side of the fence
I gave my family pain and strife and asked them all for strength
But hell in my defence
And I got too much way too fast
My mama told me it won't last
Now I'm back down on the bottom
Wishin' that I took another path
I should've listened
But my mind was gone
My temper too quick so when my fuse get lit so when it's on, it's on
Yeah, everybody wrong
Yeah, and I'm always right
Yeah, ain't nobody to blame now
It's me vs. Me, man, this my fight

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

Yeah I put that on my family, all you gotta do is give me the chance
And I can show you that I'm worthy of the trust that you require
Put it all on my shoulders, I'm a fighter, I won't get tired
When I'm back up in this corner, back up in this corner, tryna get out
Back up in this corner, back up in this corner, gotta get out

You think I got none but I got all kind of sense
Stop judgin' my book by the cover
Maybe you should do a little recounting since
I ain't tryna vent, this ain't what was me
It's nothing owed to me
Get the swan song, I don't need an ode to me
Shit hopefully holdin' this rosary'll keep me out of close calls with 
the O police
I said I'm tryna be a whole new me
I ain't tryna do the same old thing
I'm tryna prove to my family that I will not bring
No more trouble around, I ain't gotta do nothing
But stay out of shit, I ain't gotta be up in the chaotic
Prolly 'cause it's my redemption that I'm entrenched in
And I won't let anybody deny my vision, it's my decision
But y'all ain't listenin'

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

Yeah I put that on my family, all you gotta do is give me the chance
And I can show you that I'm worthy of the trust that you require
Put it all on my shoulders, I'm a fighter, I won't get tired
When I'm back up in this corner, back up in this corner, tryna get out
Back up in this corner, back up in this corner, gotta get out

It's my gameplan now
To get in this ring and show that I'm a changed man and how
I won't blow another chance to make you proud
Even though you got the right to hate me now
I know you lost your hope in me
But hopefully I can restore it back where it's supposed to be
I just want my daughter back, this fight means much more than that
I'm tryna think before I react, I ain't get the message at first
I tried to ignore the facts
But I'm much older, she's my soldier, I told you
I'd go to war for that
I said your boy is the truth and it's no lie in him
All he needs is his family with him
Y'all want him 'til it's no room given
I'ma hit him 'til the ref come and get him

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

~~End~~

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