The Human Chaos Theory

The Human Chaos Theory is something I noted last year sometime and today in a rare moment of half clarity I can spend a few hours listening to music while watching both our Worlds go by from my view and add words to a though that we all think. I woke up from a bad dream if I remember or maybe a confusing dream and I left myself a little note called ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. Back then all I could think was the title, this morning on a cold Scottish morning again I woke up after a dream and I now have the words to place here, or least enough words to start, maybe you can add more?. I will try and put my point across as quickly as I can, because I know the human condition, it has little time in its hour of boredom to be awoken, it is self serving, egotistical, wanting for things they already have, we believe money will cure us, when in-fact money harms us, but we also have the capacity for love and a level of caring we claim to behold on each other, yet we lie, I have lied, so have you. Money harms us in our day to day, and it harms our World through many means on a daily basis. We see it on the TV News or any medium of information giving and gathering, we give it a name in a moment, then we want the very thing we see destroying our World, but this is not all about money, it’s about HOW YOU THINK AND WHY

“Shaun, why do think so deeply?” is a question I personally as a human have had to answer too many times to too many people, but today I answer back with love, the ONLY emotion I can bring to any table these days. What makes us unhappy? What makes you unhappy as you read this? What makes you unhappy today, what made you unhappy yesterday and all the yesterdays before it? What will make you unhappy tonight and tomorrow and all the tomorrows to come? That is the question, the only question I can ask. And I again, I ask the World, not just you, no, please! Don’t be so selfish to think this is ABOUT YOU. There is your first lesson on the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’, but please keep in mind, in this moment you might be happy, I am trying to understand what makes me happy and unhappy and I am starting to think in most cases I bring it all onto myself, the same as you do, the same as our species do, but why? We can be happy or sad, yet the emotion I see most is hate and anger in our World, this confuses me and I know I am not alone

I see people as I sit here slowly typing away, I can look out 2 windows, I just seen an old woman from around the corner with walking sticks happily walking her two dogs and I looked up, smiled and gave her a little wave, she smiled and waved back. THAT WAS A HUMAN MOMENT, it was free as it was honest and these are the moments I personally look for every day. I am not the same person as I was last week, never mind 20 years ago or a year ago, but neither are any of us the same person we were in any yesterday we care to look back at.

A old wise man tells me often “Shaun, I cry for humanity” and he does on his level, when I was younger he would say this and I would just take it as a passing comment, today I feel it too, so whoever this old wise man is, thank you from the bottom of my soul for forcing me to look around myself and my own soul. The ability to just sit back with utter clarity of mind and see a butterfly is something money can’t buy you or anyone you know. I wish I could be better enough in my soul to see more of these moments, and I used butterfly as 1 example from an endless list of examples including of course things I will never see or feel, but this should not stop me or you from striving to feel that moment again or try and ask “Can you feel these small moments we often miss because our mind was elsewhere”, if your mind is elsewhere, then ask why? You are in a good place, if you can read this you are one of the lucky ones. I could share hell on Earth with you, but we get scared of it, not till hell or bad comes to our doors do we question the suffering our World places on us all, by each other and by lifes forces, that I don’t think we as a species have figured out, we are a young species, we are growing so fast yet so slowly at the same time, can you see it or feel it? Or don’t you care? Whatever the answer is, that is ok, just don’t harm others in your logical conclusions

We are nasty to each other, I have been nasty to people. We are egotistical against each other’s and the reason I can admit this and say this is I have been ego myself. My God! Writing this blog alone will pull the human ego in and I WILL BE JUDGED. But why? What makes others judge what is not theirs when there is no need to judge? I see people with kids who focus on only their own kids, but I also see people with kids who focus on other people’s kids with many emotions attached. This confuses me a lot. I have two little girls who call me Daddy 100 times a day, you may have people who call you Mum or Dad too or maybe they are too young to name the love they have for you yet? It doesn’t matter however, just accept that love and own it, keep it and call it your own, but please World, don’t deny others this same love or freedom of spirit to evolve forward for a better them, aimed at a better World

Our World is evil, and I don’t add God or the Devil or the bible or scripture written by other humans many hundreds of years ago, but I do 100% respect others who will apply God to this and think of him as I did the butterfly. Am I making any sense to your soul yet? I don’t ask to be named, tagger or labelled, but I will be, but so will you be, you have been and you always will be by our ‘Human Chaos Theory’ that is destructive in our face as we see it on our TVs and Internet. I observe in the same way a comedian does, the same way a musical does, the same as any art form looking for inspiration to write or think freely to imagine a better World with better people. I am no saint, but I am aiming to become one. It took me 43 years of living with Humans to understand, or at least start to understand the flaws and imbalance in our species that loves to place hard emotions on each other but are selfish with our feelings too and deny others the freedom of love. I am a medicated man so what you read here today is from a Disabled person from 2017 trying to figure out a World not of my making, a species not of my doing, emotions thrown at me from birth the same as you, I try to think past them, I think sideways because I refuse to go back or forward, we live RIGHT NOW and nowhere else. Right this moment you are alive! Yesterday is a memory and tomorrow is a wish or a guess, realise it and accept it, and I promise you the fruits of the World can be yours TO SHARE

I KNOW ANGRY, BECAUSE I WAS ANGRY

I KNOW SUFFERING, BECAUSE I HAVE SUFFERED

I KNOW PAIN BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN

I KNOW HATE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEEN HATEFUL

I KNOW MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD NONE

I HATE MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD SOME

I LOVE MY KIDS BECAUSE I KNOW MY PARENTS LOVE

I UNDERSTAND THE DEPTHS OF HELL BECAUSE I HAVE DINED WITH THE DEVIL

I UNDERSTAND GODS LOVE BECAUSE I HAVE DECIDED TO FEEL HIS LOVE

I NEVER ASK GOD FOR ‘ANYTHING’, I THANK GOD, EVERY DAY, HAVE DONE SINCE I WAS A WEE BOY

I SEE A SPECIES SO LOST, BECAUSE I WAS ONCE LOST

I SEE PEOPLE CRAVE THINGS THEY ALREADY HAVE IF THEY JUST LOOK AROUND

I SEE EMPTY PEOPLE READY TO BE FILLED WITH LIFE, BECAUSE I HAVE BE BEEN LIFELESS

I SEE SHALLOW PEOPLE BECAUSE I WAS ONCE AN EMPTY VESEL OF A PERSON

BUT I SEE THE HOPE WE ALL SHARE FOR A BETTER WORLD BECAUSE I HAVE FELT ITS HOPE

I SEE WHAT WE CAN BECOME BECAUSE I HAVE SEEN WHAT WE ARE

I SEE THE BEAUTY IN A PERSON BECAUSE I HAVE FELT UGLY

I HAVE FELT UGLY BECAUSE OF MY BEATY, I HAVE FELT BY BEAUTY BECAUSE I FELT UGLY

I CHOOSE TO TRY BECAUSE I HAVE GIVEN UP, I CHOOSE TO SMILE BECAUSE I HAVE CRIED

I CHOOSE TO BE HUMAN AND CARING, BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN NASTY AND HURT PEOPLE

Now keep repeating these lines over and over, till they stick in your mind for life. Or keep doing as you are doing and hope you get a life you want. Either way you have a choice, you have a final say in this World. Many say “I can’t change the World”, I have said it myself, but I have changed MY WORLD many times, have you? And right there you felt the emotion of ‘boasting’, yet I was not boasting, I was sharing what we all can be. And that is a better human for you, your loves ones and also our fragile Earth. You can add more or you can mock my Worlds, all I know is I am now ready to face what the final chapters of my life have for me, but I have some say in what I will become. I am a very fragile man, but I ask for no help because I have taught myself I can be anyone, be anything. I can lay down and listen to a song and own it as my own, I can watch a movie that moved me and play the part. Why should we all stop doing these things now? It’s all we have ever been doing for the love of God. Unique is my goal, I can’t blend in to my World, but I do blend into The World. I am becoming the best version of Shaun I can be for other people, what about you? Whatever you choose to do, please don’t make others suffer while you do it because this emotion will one day drag you down to levels you have taken others. Choose to lift people up because one day you may need lifted, don’t leave yourself alone as I have. I may be too late to bring people I love back but I am at one with what I done, my door has a bell and you can also knock it, you can call me, you don’t have to be alone, alone is choice sadly. But when we have no choices, how can we choose? It is all hard to take in isnt it? But this is living I am told. So how do you judge your own actions as a person, or do you even judge yourself, the first person we should judge each day is ourselves, yet we throw our own selves away and cast our emotions on others. And that is the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT IS ALL WE HAVE, lets choose to live today and accept the future as we build it together. Forget Politicians as they lie, Religion is your own call, if your heart has fear who am I to stop you connecting to God in your way? The very things that divide us are there for all to see, but the only thing left that can unite us is below in a song, and to the right hand side of this as you read it, I plant seeds in my own mind before I can even try and help another. Define away, but first define your own. The only emotion used in this 3 hours typing marathon was LOVE. But I ask, what did you feel? Only you can cause chaos and fit another emotion, or just feel love, YOU HAVE THE CHOICE. Start to apply and then you can never again deny

MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

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BLOGGERS FOR PEACE AND SANITY

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

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THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS - THIS REPRESENTS 'BETTER' FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS – THIS REPRESENTS ‘BETTER’ FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

 

♪ WOULD YOU ALMOST KILL YOURSELF TO STAY ALIVE?♫

It's a fake gun, relax

It’s a fake gun, relax. It’s the eyes I am going for

Above my blog are 3 pages, one is Living with CPS/Fibro and M.E. – 3 Disabilities I hope I can help others, that is all. When we have to put ourselves in a bubble and ignore almost everyone, it’s for good reason usually. Sadly others see it different, because some STILL want to name me and put a name on me as well as define me, this is the only way I can try and speak back. I can’t do ‘Going out’ much these days. I am making myself a monster so I can get into THAT ROOM, the room in the 3 links below. I just spent another hard morning doing Boxing work with a hairline fracture on my right ankle and damage to my left hand. Always I look to be inspired by things be them images or music, these are the only two things boxing will help you with. A famous fighter once said “Boxing is the Loneliest training or sport on Earth” I have that on my wall with other images to help me, and boy was he correct. I was a boxer as a kid, not allowed to fight by my Dad who maybe didn’t want me to go that road? I have no idea, he said “You can’t protect yourself” and I thought I did, this was 30 years ago now, so we laugh about it today my Dad and I as he calls me asking how I am doing with this fight for lifequote-Frank-Bruno-boxing-is-the-toughest-and-loneliest-sport-82019

The video below sadly I couldn’t find the lyrics video for so hit play on the video then scroll down to the lyrics. Who can identify with these lyrics? I can for sure, they make utter sense. Today I went into THAT ROOM for many people, the list is long and I am at the bottom, I can’t do this for myself, it has to be for others. I have added more pictures to my wall, and when I am screaming in pain, dulled by the music I have blasting out I know I am not alone. Many of us have a battle right? Mine is to live longer, that is it man, I can’t define it any better. I do feel lonely, I am having to decline offers to be places or go places because what I am doing I have to FIND HATE! And I don’t do hate, in my mind I MUST find a reason to keep doing what I am doing in a pain I have never felt before. The pain is dull, very deep and doesn’t go away. So when I am in that room I change my thinking to where I need to put it, then I have to start thinking about my Daughters and others before I finish and leave THAT ROOM. 7 weeks in and my body is starting to tighten, I feel the effects. I have to beat this, the rest is just BULLSHIT # The Reality Of Blogging. We shout over each other, it’s 8ull$h1t <# My thoughts on Blogging at the end of 2015

A Song To My Family

1st Report for my Gym/Boxing work. As I fight for life

2nd Report for my Gym/Boxing work. As I fight for life in agony

March 5th 2013: When we place ourselves in a private bubble, turn to love

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DeNauN-This Corner
Via ShadyRecords on You Tube – LYRICS BELOW

[Intro]

Hey look let me tell y'all somethin' alright?
What I do, I do
Straight like that
So ain't no sense in y'all troublin' yourselves over that
'Cause man the way I feel right now today

I came up on the wrong side of the fence
I gave my family pain and strife and asked them all for strength
But hell in my defence
And I got too much way too fast
My mama told me it won't last
Now I'm back down on the bottom
Wishin' that I took another path
I should've listened
But my mind was gone
My temper too quick so when my fuse get lit so when it's on, it's on
Yeah, everybody wrong
Yeah, and I'm always right
Yeah, ain't nobody to blame now
It's me vs. Me, man, this my fight

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

Yeah I put that on my family, all you gotta do is give me the chance
And I can show you that I'm worthy of the trust that you require
Put it all on my shoulders, I'm a fighter, I won't get tired
When I'm back up in this corner, back up in this corner, tryna get out
Back up in this corner, back up in this corner, gotta get out

You think I got none but I got all kind of sense
Stop judgin' my book by the cover
Maybe you should do a little recounting since
I ain't tryna vent, this ain't what was me
It's nothing owed to me
Get the swan song, I don't need an ode to me
Shit hopefully holdin' this rosary'll keep me out of close calls with 
the O police
I said I'm tryna be a whole new me
I ain't tryna do the same old thing
I'm tryna prove to my family that I will not bring
No more trouble around, I ain't gotta do nothing
But stay out of shit, I ain't gotta be up in the chaotic
Prolly 'cause it's my redemption that I'm entrenched in
And I won't let anybody deny my vision, it's my decision
But y'all ain't listenin'

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

Yeah I put that on my family, all you gotta do is give me the chance
And I can show you that I'm worthy of the trust that you require
Put it all on my shoulders, I'm a fighter, I won't get tired
When I'm back up in this corner, back up in this corner, tryna get out
Back up in this corner, back up in this corner, gotta get out

It's my gameplan now
To get in this ring and show that I'm a changed man and how
I won't blow another chance to make you proud
Even though you got the right to hate me now
I know you lost your hope in me
But hopefully I can restore it back where it's supposed to be
I just want my daughter back, this fight means much more than that
I'm tryna think before I react, I ain't get the message at first
I tried to ignore the facts
But I'm much older, she's my soldier, I told you
I'd go to war for that
I said your boy is the truth and it's no lie in him
All he needs is his family with him
Y'all want him 'til it's no room given
I'ma hit him 'til the ref come and get him

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

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If Jesus, the Son of God was to return. What form would he take?

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This is a subject I will talk about in real terms but also a fun side, Religion, God and Jesus we can mention and smile right? Often these days “Don’t take my name in vein” is said, without actually being said. Hope that made sense, people are always looking to be offended or loved, often it’s hard to see middle ground, but all aside, I think I am the middle ground, you may be also, Millions might be, just so you know I don’t mean just me. God, Jesus and Religion have been a constant in my life thus far, from a kid going to Catholic School on Sundays to growing older and dropping Religion but not God. I pray every day to MY GOD. I believe we can do this. Religion is man made, or in 2016 ‘Human made’, we got to speak and write correctly these days don’t you know? A black board at school is now a white board and I could mention another 100 things that are politically uncorrect to say these days, I am not racist, but like apartheid in South Africa, the whole thing did a 360 and the people who were in charge are no longer in charge. I have friends who moved to South Africa and came back because the good of what happened seemed to backfire (So I am told) and the White man got nothing, listen, this is all I know. Song below by Gary Barlow is one I actually like 😀 YEAH! I was surprised also 😀

Gary Barlow – God (lyrics)
Via Candy Thatter on You Tube

12645184_210078512673163_5370334492929198950_nBack on point however. Often I will share fun images of God or Jesus and most will laugh or just get it and smile, strange as it is many think it’s real and I am talking a truth, the image to the left is the point I am making. I shared it around a few places, 90% laughed and 10% thought it was serious 😀 I am not laughing at them, I am just laughing at ‘Human Nature’ and what we as a species do. The World war’s over God’s, Religion gets the blame and it’s been an ever present in our species known historical records. See I go with Science always. I don’t know if I believe in ‘evolution’ because if we came from apes, why are there still apes and where is the line from apes going back the way? Yeah! The missing link right there. I think ‘creationism’ is more likely, but not in a Religious way or Religious teachings way. There are many in Religion, now when I say Religion, please don’t apply God for now. Many in Religion don’t believe dinosaurs existed at all, they put aside the 10’s of thousands of skeletal remains to one side and deny science. The gap between dinosaurs and man as Religion will tell us is like BILLIONS OF YEARS. This makes many ask “What was God doing all this time”, this leads to the repeated answer of “God has no time, to God time is all times, and all years” If that is the case why did he put dinosaurs on Earth? Non sensual, non thinking and lacking in logical thinking creatures. Imagine 3 dinosaurs talking about God or a higher power, yeah you can’t, neither can I. Because I am Science I can only look at what traces of proof we have, what we can see and prove. The Black Knight Satellite is in our Orbit and was first theorised in the 1800’s by the famous and clever Nikola Tesla, then heard by ham radio operators World wide. Not 1 Country took credit for this Satellite when it was finally acknowledged by our World. It was first heard almost 80 years before the first human made object was put into space, way way before sputnik was even a drawing or a thought in someone’s mind. I wrote about this here ‘Mysterious Black Knight Satellite’- very latest info from 8th July 2015 and I then thought about the Adam and Eve story. What if an Alien race was dying or their planet was dying and 2 billion years ago they found our Earth? What if they came from a dying Mars we all know factually now that was once alive? The Black Knight Satellite is so well known it is beyond a conspiracy theory, it is there, NASA have shown us, European Space agency, Russia, China and Japan have all talked about, even the Vatican City (VVTT) have even heard and seen it if we believe certain Priests who let slip.

I have no idea what the game is, who started it, who will finish, if it will ever finish or why we are here. Is it design or a jesus-dinosaurfluke? Think science or think Religious teachings and only 1 can give more than the other in terms of proven facts, and that is the part I will lose Religious people because the answer is Science. Science can prove small things like why does our eyes water themselves to how far away is the Moon from the Earth. Religious teachings are speculative and need HUGE commitment and faith to believe. Some were born into this faith so it came easy for them, some like me were not born strong into a Religion really, so we look for other ways. At early ages many of us don’t have Religion so our minds do the natural thing and THINK. When a person is born they are a white canvas, just a blank baby, what we feed that baby is like drawing a canvas painting, it just takes it’s own form and picture as the person grows up. My partner and I had two amazing little girls 6 years ago now, two little blank canvases. I have talked to them about God, they are so confused. Apply Santa logic and you get close when trying to speak to a 5 or 6 year old kid about a superior being that we can love and trust to make our lives all good and fuzzy. In the end all I offer is speculation but I do ask “If Jesus came to Earth today, what way would he use to talk to us all?” For me the answer is so very simple, MUSIC! I don’t think if there is a Jesus and he did come back he would appear in all the clouds around our round Earth and speak to us. I think maybe he would be a singer, he would try and show us right from wrong in his lyrics. In today’s World we MUST ask if that was the case, would the World accept? If there is a Jesus and God then there is Satan, the Devil and his workers. What if they are at play and we as a species must choose the man with amazing lyrics or people who say the man with good lyrics is a bad man? Seriously, try and think about it that way and I will leave you 3 songs as a hint of what I am trying to say here. I do not ever try to make people lower nor above myself, I just have a curious nature and it’s a good thing to have, it’s served me well in my Journey, a journey I am still on and I have no idea where it will take me as I type today. I pray to God when bad things happen, but I also pray to my God when GOOD THINGS HAPPEN. Bob Marley on love and musicJohn Lennon said “We measure God by our Pain” and I must be honest, I do see this happening. People praying to God when the unthinkable happens in their life and they are in pain or need help. People reading this who do pray should maybe now go and pray and smile and thank God you were here to read this and do whatever you are going to do today…. For now x PS: I am not saying Michael Jackson was Jesus. But what if he was, what if Evil destroyed him and we fell for it? It is 1 possibility from BILLIONS of possibilities. Today this story fits for me, I harm nobody. Thoughts? And please, no hate! I don’t do hate and if you are Religion you are taught to not throw stones. Why do Religious people turn away from questions? Because it’s easier? Why did I write this? See, we all have things we write and talk about. We are all EQUAL! Why did Michael have the World in his hands, always hid from it, yet was chastised so badly? Just look at these lyrics and think. Please

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Michael Jackson – Man In The Mirror (lyrics) 
Via Rose Martin on You Tube

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Michael Jackson Human Nature (Lyrics)
Via JJ01310 on You Tube

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Michael Jackson Heal The World (Lyrics)
Via JJ01310 on You Tube

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What Dreams May Come – Robin Williams

flowersI lay in bed in the wee hours this morning and watched this movie. In the Movie Robin dies, he is in heaven, his wife commits suicide and he has to go to hell to get her. If you have not seen it I won’t ruin it. I seen myself crying near the end of this movie this morning. It is about one man’s struggle to over come what it is he has to.

If you have not seen it, please watch it. It is mind blowing, it is now.. x