The Human Chaos Theory

The Human Chaos Theory is something I noted last year sometime and today in a rare moment of half clarity I can spend a few hours listening to music while watching both our Worlds go by from my view and add words to a though that we all think. I woke up from a bad dream if I remember or maybe a confusing dream and I left myself a little note called ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. Back then all I could think was the title, this morning on a cold Scottish morning again I woke up after a dream and I now have the words to place here, or least enough words to start, maybe you can add more?. I will try and put my point across as quickly as I can, because I know the human condition, it has little time in its hour of boredom to be awoken, it is self serving, egotistical, wanting for things they already have, we believe money will cure us, when in-fact money harms us, but we also have the capacity for love and a level of caring we claim to behold on each other, yet we lie, I have lied, so have you. Money harms us in our day to day, and it harms our World through many means on a daily basis. We see it on the TV News or any medium of information giving and gathering, we give it a name in a moment, then we want the very thing we see destroying our World, but this is not all about money, it’s about HOW YOU THINK AND WHY

“Shaun, why do think so deeply?” is a question I personally as a human have had to answer too many times to too many people, but today I answer back with love, the ONLY emotion I can bring to any table these days. What makes us unhappy? What makes you unhappy as you read this? What makes you unhappy today, what made you unhappy yesterday and all the yesterdays before it? What will make you unhappy tonight and tomorrow and all the tomorrows to come? That is the question, the only question I can ask. And I again, I ask the World, not just you, no, please! Don’t be so selfish to think this is ABOUT YOU. There is your first lesson on the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’, but please keep in mind, in this moment you might be happy, I am trying to understand what makes me happy and unhappy and I am starting to think in most cases I bring it all onto myself, the same as you do, the same as our species do, but why? We can be happy or sad, yet the emotion I see most is hate and anger in our World, this confuses me and I know I am not alone

I see people as I sit here slowly typing away, I can look out 2 windows, I just seen an old woman from around the corner with walking sticks happily walking her two dogs and I looked up, smiled and gave her a little wave, she smiled and waved back. THAT WAS A HUMAN MOMENT, it was free as it was honest and these are the moments I personally look for every day. I am not the same person as I was last week, never mind 20 years ago or a year ago, but neither are any of us the same person we were in any yesterday we care to look back at.

A old wise man tells me often “Shaun, I cry for humanity” and he does on his level, when I was younger he would say this and I would just take it as a passing comment, today I feel it too, so whoever this old wise man is, thank you from the bottom of my soul for forcing me to look around myself and my own soul. The ability to just sit back with utter clarity of mind and see a butterfly is something money can’t buy you or anyone you know. I wish I could be better enough in my soul to see more of these moments, and I used butterfly as 1 example from an endless list of examples including of course things I will never see or feel, but this should not stop me or you from striving to feel that moment again or try and ask “Can you feel these small moments we often miss because our mind was elsewhere”, if your mind is elsewhere, then ask why? You are in a good place, if you can read this you are one of the lucky ones. I could share hell on Earth with you, but we get scared of it, not till hell or bad comes to our doors do we question the suffering our World places on us all, by each other and by lifes forces, that I don’t think we as a species have figured out, we are a young species, we are growing so fast yet so slowly at the same time, can you see it or feel it? Or don’t you care? Whatever the answer is, that is ok, just don’t harm others in your logical conclusions

We are nasty to each other, I have been nasty to people. We are egotistical against each other’s and the reason I can admit this and say this is I have been ego myself. My God! Writing this blog alone will pull the human ego in and I WILL BE JUDGED. But why? What makes others judge what is not theirs when there is no need to judge? I see people with kids who focus on only their own kids, but I also see people with kids who focus on other people’s kids with many emotions attached. This confuses me a lot. I have two little girls who call me Daddy 100 times a day, you may have people who call you Mum or Dad too or maybe they are too young to name the love they have for you yet? It doesn’t matter however, just accept that love and own it, keep it and call it your own, but please World, don’t deny others this same love or freedom of spirit to evolve forward for a better them, aimed at a better World

Our World is evil, and I don’t add God or the Devil or the bible or scripture written by other humans many hundreds of years ago, but I do 100% respect others who will apply God to this and think of him as I did the butterfly. Am I making any sense to your soul yet? I don’t ask to be named, tagger or labelled, but I will be, but so will you be, you have been and you always will be by our ‘Human Chaos Theory’ that is destructive in our face as we see it on our TVs and Internet. I observe in the same way a comedian does, the same way a musical does, the same as any art form looking for inspiration to write or think freely to imagine a better World with better people. I am no saint, but I am aiming to become one. It took me 43 years of living with Humans to understand, or at least start to understand the flaws and imbalance in our species that loves to place hard emotions on each other but are selfish with our feelings too and deny others the freedom of love. I am a medicated man so what you read here today is from a Disabled person from 2017 trying to figure out a World not of my making, a species not of my doing, emotions thrown at me from birth the same as you, I try to think past them, I think sideways because I refuse to go back or forward, we live RIGHT NOW and nowhere else. Right this moment you are alive! Yesterday is a memory and tomorrow is a wish or a guess, realise it and accept it, and I promise you the fruits of the World can be yours TO SHARE

I KNOW ANGRY, BECAUSE I WAS ANGRY

I KNOW SUFFERING, BECAUSE I HAVE SUFFERED

I KNOW PAIN BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN

I KNOW HATE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEEN HATEFUL

I KNOW MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD NONE

I HATE MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD SOME

I LOVE MY KIDS BECAUSE I KNOW MY PARENTS LOVE

I UNDERSTAND THE DEPTHS OF HELL BECAUSE I HAVE DINED WITH THE DEVIL

I UNDERSTAND GODS LOVE BECAUSE I HAVE DECIDED TO FEEL HIS LOVE

I NEVER ASK GOD FOR ‘ANYTHING’, I THANK GOD, EVERY DAY, HAVE DONE SINCE I WAS A WEE BOY

I SEE A SPECIES SO LOST, BECAUSE I WAS ONCE LOST

I SEE PEOPLE CRAVE THINGS THEY ALREADY HAVE IF THEY JUST LOOK AROUND

I SEE EMPTY PEOPLE READY TO BE FILLED WITH LIFE, BECAUSE I HAVE BE BEEN LIFELESS

I SEE SHALLOW PEOPLE BECAUSE I WAS ONCE AN EMPTY VESEL OF A PERSON

BUT I SEE THE HOPE WE ALL SHARE FOR A BETTER WORLD BECAUSE I HAVE FELT ITS HOPE

I SEE WHAT WE CAN BECOME BECAUSE I HAVE SEEN WHAT WE ARE

I SEE THE BEAUTY IN A PERSON BECAUSE I HAVE FELT UGLY

I HAVE FELT UGLY BECAUSE OF MY BEATY, I HAVE FELT BY BEAUTY BECAUSE I FELT UGLY

I CHOOSE TO TRY BECAUSE I HAVE GIVEN UP, I CHOOSE TO SMILE BECAUSE I HAVE CRIED

I CHOOSE TO BE HUMAN AND CARING, BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN NASTY AND HURT PEOPLE

Now keep repeating these lines over and over, till they stick in your mind for life. Or keep doing as you are doing and hope you get a life you want. Either way you have a choice, you have a final say in this World. Many say “I can’t change the World”, I have said it myself, but I have changed MY WORLD many times, have you? And right there you felt the emotion of ‘boasting’, yet I was not boasting, I was sharing what we all can be. And that is a better human for you, your loves ones and also our fragile Earth. You can add more or you can mock my Worlds, all I know is I am now ready to face what the final chapters of my life have for me, but I have some say in what I will become. I am a very fragile man, but I ask for no help because I have taught myself I can be anyone, be anything. I can lay down and listen to a song and own it as my own, I can watch a movie that moved me and play the part. Why should we all stop doing these things now? It’s all we have ever been doing for the love of God. Unique is my goal, I can’t blend in to my World, but I do blend into The World. I am becoming the best version of Shaun I can be for other people, what about you? Whatever you choose to do, please don’t make others suffer while you do it because this emotion will one day drag you down to levels you have taken others. Choose to lift people up because one day you may need lifted, don’t leave yourself alone as I have. I may be too late to bring people I love back but I am at one with what I done, my door has a bell and you can also knock it, you can call me, you don’t have to be alone, alone is choice sadly. But when we have no choices, how can we choose? It is all hard to take in isnt it? But this is living I am told. So how do you judge your own actions as a person, or do you even judge yourself, the first person we should judge each day is ourselves, yet we throw our own selves away and cast our emotions on others. And that is the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT IS ALL WE HAVE, lets choose to live today and accept the future as we build it together. Forget Politicians as they lie, Religion is your own call, if your heart has fear who am I to stop you connecting to God in your way? The very things that divide us are there for all to see, but the only thing left that can unite us is below in a song, and to the right hand side of this as you read it, I plant seeds in my own mind before I can even try and help another. Define away, but first define your own. The only emotion used in this 3 hours typing marathon was LOVE. But I ask, what did you feel? Only you can cause chaos and fit another emotion, or just feel love, YOU HAVE THE CHOICE. Start to apply and then you can never again deny

MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

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From your past – Hello – I love you – From the Grave – To my Future

I don’t write much these days, I don’t know why, it gave me a voice, an opinion, made me feel human just for a little while. Many say even today “Shaun and that stupid blog of his”, yet they have not read one line of this or any others. So today I explain to my future what I did in your past. See, this blog is here forever, I paid for a lifetime URL, and this will be here when I die, hopefully in my sleep age 94 or something 😀 Many people say “I would love to leave something behind” It could be a song, a poem, a saying, anything really. I will leave you some images and songs for you to look back on too, why not? Music is all I can see in 2017 that does not divide our species, everything else keeps us hating or just not liking. I may be right, I may be wrong, but I AM GOING TO BE HONEST WITH YOU. How can I lie to our future when I can only tell the truth of today?

♫ Bob Marley ♪ Redemption Song + Lyrics ♫

I was thinking about this tonight, I am in an ‘awake all night, sleep all day’ sleeping pattern, or stuck in one again, they come and go, I have 4 life changing disabilites, click HERE to know them, they might still exist for you, if not, I give you a look into a 2017 disabled mind, use it well 😀 Back in 2017 the medicine you read about in your time are awful, but that good medicine was withheld from us, you have the truth and free healthcare I hope.The proof and the means to look back to all versions of Earths past and ask ‘WHY’ are hard to do today, you might be just as confused, so I am going to give you my stupid version of why, a try.

It is very simple, back in 2017, or right now, 20th April 2017 at around 03:30am on a cold Scottish Thursday morning, we are a species so asleep, so oppressed we don’t even know it or why. As you might just have read, some of us are fully aware of the World back in 2017. We know its hell, its heaven, of course if Religion is still alive whoever you are, in whatever time in my future you read this. Religion KILLED our species in my time, I am CERTAIN if you are reading this 100 years or 500 years from now, you will be asking “How could our species be so dumb and easy to control” I and MILLIONS of others ask this today, 20th April 2017.

They [Do you know why THEY are?] <Click) used Religion, Politics, Sport, TV, Internet like this (Ironic huh, lol) and much more to keep us distracted and in fear, or happy and blissfully unaware or uncaring of what is around us. A Religious mind is a very selfish mind in my time. They call it “The fear of God”, I call it “The Fear of the unknown”, see I have disabilities, are they were called back in 2017, as you will see with the images I left at the foot of this blog. I am medicated and alone, probably through unconscious un-deliberate ways I have no idea why I do it? I don’t know, I am just trying to stay alive for those who need me. Technology was and is our biggest enemy, it controlled our EVERY DAY in 2017 and a decade before, God (Ironic to mention him, I know) knows what the future will become due to technology!

As I type, 1/7th of our Species use just this 1 technological device, but there is MUCH more

I envy you, be you reading this in 50 years or 5,000 years from now or anywhere in-between or after. I envy the World you will live in, free from invisible oppression and fear, or the deliberate trick that money or the need or want of money gives people in my time, people THINK money will cure Cancer and all other bad things in 2017, people crave something they don’t even understand. I have been poor and rich, all I can tell you in the future or anyone reading today is “Money won’t cure you if you have issues, no it will only make them worse”. You are from the future, use whatever search function you may have to look for things like “Man wastes £10 Million lottery win in a year” or whatever the story, because most people who win money, sadly end up losing not money always, but they lose, mostly. Yet money rules my World in 2017, Religion is Tax free and Religion has the most money, if I told you the ‘Wealth of the Church<Click) in 2017, you probably already know, if you don’t just click that link, if it is still live. If it isn’t, all I can say is The Wealth of Religion could wipe out Global Debt and make every man, woman and child rich. That is the DAMNING statement of 2017 Human species, ironic too

The UTTER IRONY, people like myself must battle for life and love

I could go on and on to you, reading this from whatever future my selfish 2017 gives you, but it’s all here, you can still search anything on my blog from this time period that may interest you about our shared World we live or lived in. Also I speak for our species when I say “Sorry for leaving you such a horrible World” PLEASE understand many of us tried to help, tried to awaken the ‘Sheeple; as we called them, those so asleep through oppression of any kind, religion or money of any taking or bad health, people living in War zones, sadly as I type this around 18% of people on this Earth are living in a War Zone. Kids are murdered every day, but TV, Internet, Pizza delivery to watch a movie, self debt, self doubt, selfish minds, rich minds, religious minds, I could AGAIN, go on and on as to WHY. Imagine a World so pure, that the RIGHT THING was just seen as natural and the thing we JUST DID, someone left a message for that too, people like me kept listening

♫ John Lennon ♪ Imagine ♫

There. I just left a message to the future, and NOBODY can erase it. But all over my ‘Social Media’ I have used this image here below. It is an image of Good Vs Bad, Hate Vs Love, about our fragile World, from a movie called ‘I am Legend’ <Click) where the Human Race has killed itself, 1 man remains in this movie. In the image below he is quoting ‘Bob Marley’ , <Click) the amazing singer and songwriter who died when I was a very young child, whos songs where this movies soundtrack. But he too left something for the future. I JUST realised in a moment of boredom tonight “I too can leave something for the future” – And I just said it all, well as much as I could 😉 Also, or PS: I may have just annoyed, angered half our species here, or made half smile, I might never know, you on the other hand, will know. If God is real, find a way to tell me please 😀 I am being funny and facetious and light hearted here, but I WILL be judged today. What about your Day? Am I being judged or loved? I only EVER asked for love, but Human EGO got in the way. Sad but true I am afraid 🙂

If anyone I love happens to stop judging this blog and are reading it? Hey, and thank you, and I love you ❤

OUR battle between God and Devil, good or bad, or for me, opinion Vrs oppression

From 2017….

MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

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THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

Shaun Gibson Twitter: @ShaunyScot
Skype Username: shaunyg1973
Shaun Celtic FC Twitter: @ShaunyCeltic

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