[Shauny Life Quote – #1] I think a lot, many reasons why. Often I think so deeply I AMAZE myself at what I can think about. I think I annoy people by talking about them 😀 So from now on, EVERY DAY!! I am doing this. This is Number 1. Every day I will share another. Why not? 🙂 And it might show people how my stupid brain works!! lol – I can be a science experiment for someone studying the human mind? #BeIn as we say here in Scotland 😀 I suffer from M.E, PTSD, Psychosis and Fibromyalgia, 2 are SEVERE pain, 1 makes you sleep all the time, the other 2 confuse the mind. I am medicated, so this should be a fairly fun experiment here. I want to push my limited mind to it’s obvious limit, even with my mind having limits.
Today like most days I awaken to the World around me. Taking less Dr’s Medication is almost killing me in terms of pain, but when I was taking huge amounts of Dihydrocodeine. Anatriptaline, Diazepam, Tramadol and Morphine I was living, life was just going too fast, between 4 hours of each medication I was so doped up it was untrue, these days my World has slowed down so much, but in a good way, moments last longer. Today I take 10% of the medication I used to take, 90% gone, and to say I have woken up is an understatement. I was lucky my partner and two sons, friends and some family were as decent as they were for sure. I desire to be a better partner, Dad, son, brother and friend, but on my terms. Someone said a while back “Why did these people stop talking to you” my reply today is “Through my choices” I remembered a World where families spoke to each other, people cared, people spoke, debate happened, a different World. I remember that World where people took effort to come and visit each other, it still happens in my life but only through choices I want to make, around me I see many families so torn it almost upsets me. My sons are 20+ early 20’s and the World they see around them has been their always, their life, a World they were born into. Today as a 42 year old adult I know so many people of my generation lost, alone or sad. Some are in pain, in-fact too many are in pain. But I have to understand because I reached out to understand my pain, amazing people reached back and my circle of choice has become in my control. People in my life, people I give time of day, people I see every day, every week, people I see always are people I want in my life. Nobody walked away from me, my disability made me see a different World, a World where love actually exists; there are no arguments, no sadness and no pain. I live in pain so what I say above may seem ‘strange’ to the reader but I made my pain me and I it. I allowed my pain to be me, I became the pain and the pain tries to control me. Medicated I lost many people, but if they walked from me what have I lost? 😀 Really is that simple right? I know a World of people in pain, but a World where laughter and happy is. When I say I have no hate nor fear I mean it, not a lot scares me and I say ‘no to hate. If we live in hate, I am certain hate will kill us or we will die in hate only ever knowing hate. I seen so much hate in my life I just said “No more hate” and it worked, I don’t feel hate or fear, I smile through the pain because it’s my only option. Some didn’t believe I was so badly disabled and medicated but I have to say to myself “They had their own thoughts and own lives to life” So this is when I realized ‘choice’ was mine, and life got easier. I now see my two sons live with their partners and it’s a joy every day watching two young lads who were once my wee boys, the same age as my Daughter’s are now, just wee boys, both loved football and life was football for us all, my two son’s and partner, we did football for 10/11 years together and looking back it was amazing times. Sure I miss that life, but they are in a new life and so am I, with my 3 girls So now fast forward to today and I am about to have so much amazing times with two little girls, both around 5 years old. I am seeing two babies turn from toddlers into little girls, soon they become young ladies, they will have questions, fears, difficulty understanding life around them. This is where we all step in. Grandparents, Uncles & Aunts and more so my partner and I and their two big brothers and their partners. We, you the reader and I, are by-products of our parents and upbringing, my two sons have happy and I smile as they are happy because my partner and I helped them become the happy they are today, now it’s time to help two wee girls grow into people who can decide and make their own life, because now they are totally dependent on all the people I mentioned above. I don’t know if this is the circle of life or what but I am loving my life these days. Always the pain knocks me down, every day I fall, but every day love picks me up. These days I am helping others to learn to walk in a direction too, but for now it’s knowing my son’s are good and if they need guidance when it comes, we will be here, my partner and I. We never stop being parents. Today as I font out loud in what is often a personal diary to the World to read. Always I am trying to become better, today I am imperfect but I aim to be as near to perfect as I can, but I won’t be perfect, nobody is in the cold realityMany tell me “Shaun you give away too much on-line” The reality is I give nothing away online. What I am, who I am is for others to decide and define, they will do it regardless and I won’t. I stopped trying to define people, to understand hate is a tool to an unhappy life. All the bad things and good things brought us all too where we are in this moment. If you are smiling reading this, then you made it this far and you will go far. Life is so VERY EASY it is untrue. I don’t have it all figured out but through making every mistake a young lad and now an adult can make, I understand my World more. These were just my 4am thoughts to myself to read in 5 years from now, looking back smiling at reading how I was becoming a part of the World again. I must say the journey so far has been amazing and I have so much good and happy to come it is untrue. Often I wish I hadn’t walked away from some family but I look around my World and I see why I did walk away. We have no gossip, hate, shit, crap. Just a disability to understand and medication we can point to and say “Never again”. When I say we, I mean my partner and I.
More love. Less hate
Lately as I am coming off medication my mind has been re-wiring and opening up again. Now an average human uses 10% only of our brain, or do we? I think the ‘10%’ is a myth. So I went on a research hunt and found that this myth of 10% was actually created in 1890 by William James and Boris Sidis both from Harvard University. It is said!! But trying to find documentation of this is very tricky; there are so many stories and opinions. The facts are the human mind uses all its 100 billion neurons
So why do I talk to you dear reader today about our Brain? In the early 1900’s Scientists ripped open brains to see what parts did what and it was a gray area, no pun intended. So what is the real percentage of the Human brain function? One thing science has proven through my research is the brain can self heal when it’s been damaged, as far as research goes we only have 2 organs that self heal, our brain and liver can regenerate, unless it has become cirrhotic from poison like alcohol. Other organs can only recover slightly, after a little bit of harm. Our brain uses a huge 20% of our body’s energy so this point’s to the human mind being fully active. Some parts do more and some less, bones heal also, so other parts to heal. The recent movie ‘Lucy’ showed a girl with 100% power of mind, here is the trailer:
Lucy – TRAILER (2014)
So we see Hollywood as usual not lying to us, but giving us false representation of the inner workings of the human mind. Why is it some people are smarter than others is the real question I pose here. The human brain helps the whole body. Skin regenerates. Some nerve cells can regenerate. Fractured bones can fuse. Massage of the abdomen is the best way to help the health of gastro-intestinal organs, since ordinary exercise only increases blood flow to the voluntary muscles, heart and lungs. To do good for the abdominal organs, you have to take your hands and massage the outer skin, with your hands. Use circular motion, both clockwise and counter-clockwise. Liver and pancreas can be helped by rubbing the heels of your hands just under the rib cage, from your sides toward the middle (solar plexus) when we do this, we help our body.
“Mind over matter” is a saying I think most have heard in their lives and one I am thinking about just now. So I am sharing something with you here. I have had scans, x-rays, Blood work up and I am ok. I have fibromyalgia, chronic pain syndrome and M.E but this is not the issue, the issue is the medication that suppressed my mind. So I match my mind to the research I did that told me 75% of the 1st World are medication via their Dr. 3/4 of the developed World are medicated.
Do We Really Use Only 10% Of Our Brain?
Video Via DNews on You Tube
So this poses more questions. See coming off my medication I am starting to see more, feel more and I can’t find words to describe that wouldn’t cause men in white coats to come and take me away. The last 2 mornings have been, well strange. Yesterday morning I was awoken by my partner, I stood up, turned around and she was laying on the bed sound asleep. Today I woke up on my own, looked behind me and my partner wasn’t in bed, I roamed the house shouting for her then I realized I was home alone. I sent my partner a text asking “Where are you at 9:20 am” Because we always tell each other if we have plans. I then felt cold so went back to my bedroom for my house coat and my partner was asleep in our bed. Yeah, I freaked out a little. 2 mornings in a row. Last week when I was dozing off I seen what was an orange red opening on my wall, this was when I was moments from falling asleep, it didn’t scare me, I just fell asleep. At no other times has my mind played tricks on me. This is either me coming of medication or it’s something completely different. I will journal my thoughts as I go and maybe one day real soon I can have answers to many questions I need the answer for. I believe because my mind was oppressed for so long with Dehydrocodone, Tramadol, Diazepam and Morphine, my mind is opening up.
So my curious nature is now asking “How much is my mind opening” I am using words like ‘Exponentially’ in every day chat. That word means In this question, exponentially is an adverb that means in a manner of rapid growth. Use exponentially when you want to say that something’s increasing quickly by large amounts. Your friends and colleagues will be pleased to hear that your vocabulary is growing exponentially. This is what I am feeling today. The human mind is still a mystery to our Scientific World and I would go as far as to say “We know NOTHING about the Human Brain” I want to know, so I am learning fast these days, I am consuming information and saving it, I am remembering more, time has slowed down, days feel longer and my mind is talking to me, demanding I learn. Because the internet is fun, I look forward to what I find…
For now, Shauny 🙂
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