The Human Chaos Theory

The Human Chaos Theory is something I noted last year sometime and today in a rare moment of half clarity I can spend a few hours listening to music while watching both our Worlds go by from my view and add words to a though that we all think. I woke up from a bad dream if I remember or maybe a confusing dream and I left myself a little note called ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. Back then all I could think was the title, this morning on a cold Scottish morning again I woke up after a dream and I now have the words to place here, or least enough words to start, maybe you can add more?. I will try and put my point across as quickly as I can, because I know the human condition, it has little time in its hour of boredom to be awoken, it is self serving, egotistical, wanting for things they already have, we believe money will cure us, when in-fact money harms us, but we also have the capacity for love and a level of caring we claim to behold on each other, yet we lie, I have lied, so have you. Money harms us in our day to day, and it harms our World through many means on a daily basis. We see it on the TV News or any medium of information giving and gathering, we give it a name in a moment, then we want the very thing we see destroying our World, but this is not all about money, it’s about HOW YOU THINK AND WHY

“Shaun, why do think so deeply?” is a question I personally as a human have had to answer too many times to too many people, but today I answer back with love, the ONLY emotion I can bring to any table these days. What makes us unhappy? What makes you unhappy as you read this? What makes you unhappy today, what made you unhappy yesterday and all the yesterdays before it? What will make you unhappy tonight and tomorrow and all the tomorrows to come? That is the question, the only question I can ask. And I again, I ask the World, not just you, no, please! Don’t be so selfish to think this is ABOUT YOU. There is your first lesson on the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’, but please keep in mind, in this moment you might be happy, I am trying to understand what makes me happy and unhappy and I am starting to think in most cases I bring it all onto myself, the same as you do, the same as our species do, but why? We can be happy or sad, yet the emotion I see most is hate and anger in our World, this confuses me and I know I am not alone

I see people as I sit here slowly typing away, I can look out 2 windows, I just seen an old woman from around the corner with walking sticks happily walking her two dogs and I looked up, smiled and gave her a little wave, she smiled and waved back. THAT WAS A HUMAN MOMENT, it was free as it was honest and these are the moments I personally look for every day. I am not the same person as I was last week, never mind 20 years ago or a year ago, but neither are any of us the same person we were in any yesterday we care to look back at.

A old wise man tells me often “Shaun, I cry for humanity” and he does on his level, when I was younger he would say this and I would just take it as a passing comment, today I feel it too, so whoever this old wise man is, thank you from the bottom of my soul for forcing me to look around myself and my own soul. The ability to just sit back with utter clarity of mind and see a butterfly is something money can’t buy you or anyone you know. I wish I could be better enough in my soul to see more of these moments, and I used butterfly as 1 example from an endless list of examples including of course things I will never see or feel, but this should not stop me or you from striving to feel that moment again or try and ask “Can you feel these small moments we often miss because our mind was elsewhere”, if your mind is elsewhere, then ask why? You are in a good place, if you can read this you are one of the lucky ones. I could share hell on Earth with you, but we get scared of it, not till hell or bad comes to our doors do we question the suffering our World places on us all, by each other and by lifes forces, that I don’t think we as a species have figured out, we are a young species, we are growing so fast yet so slowly at the same time, can you see it or feel it? Or don’t you care? Whatever the answer is, that is ok, just don’t harm others in your logical conclusions

We are nasty to each other, I have been nasty to people. We are egotistical against each other’s and the reason I can admit this and say this is I have been ego myself. My God! Writing this blog alone will pull the human ego in and I WILL BE JUDGED. But why? What makes others judge what is not theirs when there is no need to judge? I see people with kids who focus on only their own kids, but I also see people with kids who focus on other people’s kids with many emotions attached. This confuses me a lot. I have two little girls who call me Daddy 100 times a day, you may have people who call you Mum or Dad too or maybe they are too young to name the love they have for you yet? It doesn’t matter however, just accept that love and own it, keep it and call it your own, but please World, don’t deny others this same love or freedom of spirit to evolve forward for a better them, aimed at a better World

Our World is evil, and I don’t add God or the Devil or the bible or scripture written by other humans many hundreds of years ago, but I do 100% respect others who will apply God to this and think of him as I did the butterfly. Am I making any sense to your soul yet? I don’t ask to be named, tagger or labelled, but I will be, but so will you be, you have been and you always will be by our ‘Human Chaos Theory’ that is destructive in our face as we see it on our TVs and Internet. I observe in the same way a comedian does, the same way a musical does, the same as any art form looking for inspiration to write or think freely to imagine a better World with better people. I am no saint, but I am aiming to become one. It took me 43 years of living with Humans to understand, or at least start to understand the flaws and imbalance in our species that loves to place hard emotions on each other but are selfish with our feelings too and deny others the freedom of love. I am a medicated man so what you read here today is from a Disabled person from 2017 trying to figure out a World not of my making, a species not of my doing, emotions thrown at me from birth the same as you, I try to think past them, I think sideways because I refuse to go back or forward, we live RIGHT NOW and nowhere else. Right this moment you are alive! Yesterday is a memory and tomorrow is a wish or a guess, realise it and accept it, and I promise you the fruits of the World can be yours TO SHARE

I KNOW ANGRY, BECAUSE I WAS ANGRY

I KNOW SUFFERING, BECAUSE I HAVE SUFFERED

I KNOW PAIN BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN

I KNOW HATE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEEN HATEFUL

I KNOW MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD NONE

I HATE MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD SOME

I LOVE MY KIDS BECAUSE I KNOW MY PARENTS LOVE

I UNDERSTAND THE DEPTHS OF HELL BECAUSE I HAVE DINED WITH THE DEVIL

I UNDERSTAND GODS LOVE BECAUSE I HAVE DECIDED TO FEEL HIS LOVE

I NEVER ASK GOD FOR ‘ANYTHING’, I THANK GOD, EVERY DAY, HAVE DONE SINCE I WAS A WEE BOY

I SEE A SPECIES SO LOST, BECAUSE I WAS ONCE LOST

I SEE PEOPLE CRAVE THINGS THEY ALREADY HAVE IF THEY JUST LOOK AROUND

I SEE EMPTY PEOPLE READY TO BE FILLED WITH LIFE, BECAUSE I HAVE BE BEEN LIFELESS

I SEE SHALLOW PEOPLE BECAUSE I WAS ONCE AN EMPTY VESEL OF A PERSON

BUT I SEE THE HOPE WE ALL SHARE FOR A BETTER WORLD BECAUSE I HAVE FELT ITS HOPE

I SEE WHAT WE CAN BECOME BECAUSE I HAVE SEEN WHAT WE ARE

I SEE THE BEAUTY IN A PERSON BECAUSE I HAVE FELT UGLY

I HAVE FELT UGLY BECAUSE OF MY BEATY, I HAVE FELT BY BEAUTY BECAUSE I FELT UGLY

I CHOOSE TO TRY BECAUSE I HAVE GIVEN UP, I CHOOSE TO SMILE BECAUSE I HAVE CRIED

I CHOOSE TO BE HUMAN AND CARING, BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN NASTY AND HURT PEOPLE

Now keep repeating these lines over and over, till they stick in your mind for life. Or keep doing as you are doing and hope you get a life you want. Either way you have a choice, you have a final say in this World. Many say “I can’t change the World”, I have said it myself, but I have changed MY WORLD many times, have you? And right there you felt the emotion of ‘boasting’, yet I was not boasting, I was sharing what we all can be. And that is a better human for you, your loves ones and also our fragile Earth. You can add more or you can mock my Worlds, all I know is I am now ready to face what the final chapters of my life have for me, but I have some say in what I will become. I am a very fragile man, but I ask for no help because I have taught myself I can be anyone, be anything. I can lay down and listen to a song and own it as my own, I can watch a movie that moved me and play the part. Why should we all stop doing these things now? It’s all we have ever been doing for the love of God. Unique is my goal, I can’t blend in to my World, but I do blend into The World. I am becoming the best version of Shaun I can be for other people, what about you? Whatever you choose to do, please don’t make others suffer while you do it because this emotion will one day drag you down to levels you have taken others. Choose to lift people up because one day you may need lifted, don’t leave yourself alone as I have. I may be too late to bring people I love back but I am at one with what I done, my door has a bell and you can also knock it, you can call me, you don’t have to be alone, alone is choice sadly. But when we have no choices, how can we choose? It is all hard to take in isnt it? But this is living I am told. So how do you judge your own actions as a person, or do you even judge yourself, the first person we should judge each day is ourselves, yet we throw our own selves away and cast our emotions on others. And that is the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT IS ALL WE HAVE, lets choose to live today and accept the future as we build it together. Forget Politicians as they lie, Religion is your own call, if your heart has fear who am I to stop you connecting to God in your way? The very things that divide us are there for all to see, but the only thing left that can unite us is below in a song, and to the right hand side of this as you read it, I plant seeds in my own mind before I can even try and help another. Define away, but first define your own. The only emotion used in this 3 hours typing marathon was LOVE. But I ask, what did you feel? Only you can cause chaos and fit another emotion, or just feel love, YOU HAVE THE CHOICE. Start to apply and then you can never again deny

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A song with images the World MUST Watch

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How was 2016 for you? What are your hopes for 2017? – Regret or Hope?

Well that went fast as usual! All the fussing, driving, visiting, consuming things we probably don’t need, but it can be ok to have things for the sake of having things. Way I see life these days is, if you can have something, good for you. 2016 for me was a slight awakening, just enough to notice the damage 4 Evil disabilities were doing to the people I love and like. 2016 was a year I lost TONS of my body fat doing very hard physiotherapy every other day or just days I could. I gave myself ‘maybe’ 20 years more of life, the kicker is I gave myself 20+ years of more pain, worse pain. It’s my hell I will happily take to be there longer and better for them

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I can’t go back the way now, I spent the festive period like us all, like what I said above, my car broke Christmas Eve, my Dog was run over, she is ok now but at the time it was a horrible moment, but in that moment I seen something I can’t explain, but so did someone else, I won’t try and explain, let’s just say I tapped into something bigger than myself, many call it God, I am unsure what it is. The blog below this one is a hint of what I am trying to say here. What REALLY matters is what really matters now, before and when that time comes, I think so

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Blog below this one, but no hate

What did I tap into in 2016? Well me personally it was the minds of others, feelings of others, I just started to notice many more suffer badly, but I also seen some live happy, I guess 2016 helped me pretend better? I mean let’s face it, we all wear masks, I just took my mask off and said “Come ahead life” and I fought back, I gave my mind and body so much pain and confusion it was Evil. I have prayed to God every day almost since I was a little boy here in Scotland, today I still pray, I can’t find Religion, scripture and I can’t look at Jesus as anything more than a Ghandi type figure of his time where your World was like 1,000 miles circular, you were either there or you had no idea it was happening, when people read about it and found blind faith in it’s truth, but that is ok, well it’s ok if it does not harm our World right?

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The World is now tightly together through these Social Media platforms when we can know news from anywhere about anyone as it’s happening almost. Image 2,000 years ago when Baby Jesus probably was born, as I say, you were either there or you had no idea. Like Noah’ Ark and Moses leading people for 40 years in a quest for knowledge, stories get lost in translation. These same principles happen today too, one day I get a cold, 2 weeks later someone asks me if I had Ebola 😀 Seriously just apply logical thinking and you see it all. But we MUST respect those with faith in the Bible who want to believe things so impossible to believe for 2/5th of Humanity, out of all 4,000+ Religions. I learn to respect all that in 2016, but I am just 1 from almost 8 Billion who refuse to stop talking, I am honest today, I have opinions, ask me questions, but don’t deny or get angry over my answers, I see this image many times, it makes more sense today, almost.. lol

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Personally I woke up a tiny bit, just enough to see those around me, I will admit I purged some people, people I will still love and take a bullet for, but I also stepped back towards people who I just can’t be without. 2016 taught me that even when life is pushing you down, you can fight back the best you can and try and be the best you there is, for those around you. We are all flawed, we all make mistakes, some do it on purpose with free mind, some do it blindly or with anger, you know what I am saying here, we can live in light or dark..

Nouela ♫ The Sound of Silence ♫ – (Amazing cover of Simon & Garfunkel’s song)
[VIDEO] ♪ Via: MusicForLife on You Tube ♪

Happy 2017 to the 500 people STILL reading my blog every day, I stopped blogging as it just takes too long, hand spasms and more make it impossible, this took me 2 hours to type, and to those who might read this too, I wish you a happy and healthy 2017 for you and your family and friends. Over the Festive Period my Dog was run over, my car broke and a whole lot more happened that a year ago would have made me angry at someone. This year when bad things happened I just smiled and said “It’s only a car” or “It will be ok” I know what is important now, it’s not my PC, my TV, a car or any other object. What is important is we love the people we need so much they love us back. Over the last few months sadly I have lost people but I gained 2 amazing Daughters-in-laws, a Grandson with a little girl due too, both my sons are Dads or about to be and this made me try harder for them too, but just Yesterday I had a house full of people, so as I step towards a World I am TRYING to wake up too, people are noticing my confusion and helping me. All I can say is “I would help you too” I had a day with 1 Family member yesterday and in this day we found each other again, I hope this happens with more people like the person I had good fun with Yesterday

It was a crazy dream and this is the only way I could explain it

It was a crazy dream and this is the only way I could explain it

I had a dream about a Month ago, so vivid, so real, I awoke and for an hour I had no idea where I was. Was it my, medication, am I just an idiot or was it my 4 Disabilities, was it 1 of them, 2 create pain so bad you kind of get used to it, the other 2 confuse the mind to hell or heaven, it is that hard for me to gulp deep and try and NOT say things I shouldn’t, I am just trying to be the best for my Partner, sons, daughters, daughters in-laws, parents , brothers, sisters and friends. I see it clearly, but I only see it as clearly as I can. Today on the 2nd of January 2017 after a challenging 2016 in a way for me and others close I see a light at the end of an endless tunnel I will keep walking up, but looking back to all the bad or hard moments, I see the ones still standing with me, and I them. Just try, don’t be someone else, be the best you can for the ones who need you. I spent 15 years, wasted 15 years denying myself of who I was becoming, I lied, I was nasty, my word hurt, I was angry but never once did I lay a hand on a loved one, although words do cut deeper. But am I alone? Am I the only person to get things wrong? I don’t think so, all I do know is I did what was best for everyone else . When we do things for ourselves 9 times out of 10 times we will fail, when we see those around us from the young and old and make them our reasons, I promise you it gets a little easier. To everyone, start living or start dying, we all die in the end, so live till your end, we all got one. Not being morbid, just stating facts some might not like… lol

Shawshank Redemption – “Get Busy Living or Get Busy Dying.”
Via: Success Mentor on You Tube

❤ Shaun ❤

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♪ Second chance ♪

second_chance-posterClosing one door can be hard, but I am learning quicky that for every door that closed, a new one can open, but we must understand 2nd Chances are only there should we see the possibility of the 2nd chance. We all share quotes and images of ‘BETTER’ and ‘EASIER LIFE’ meanings and almost instructions. We share all these things about how we can ‘Make Life Better’, yet how many actually put into practice what they preach or say? My view is not many, we can all share GOOD THINGS all day, but if we don’t apply them then we are sharing for no other reason than sharing a myth to ourselves. Enjoy this song, hope it helps someone

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Shinedown – Second Chance ( lyrics )
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♫ Keep Singing ♫

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Amazing song below. These days I am TOTALLY understanding Music and its power. As a species NOTHING conventional like Politics, Religion, Sport, the list is endless, can keep us together nor keep us agreeing, we disagree on ALL THINGS, well apart from 1 thing, MUSIC! I am trying to fight past 4 HUGE disabilities that effect my mind and body. I can sit and listen to UB40, I can sit and listen to Lionel Richie, just an example. I close my eyes and pretend to sing to my partner, or my family in a room or venue. In my mind’s eye I am laying in my bed, or my spare room sofa, wherever, and I can let the music take me over. I visualise myself singing songs, I know this sounds crazy but I have to control the disabilities that control my mind, so I am fighting back. If I can play a song into my headset or ear-buds and sing it till the end, I feel liberated in my mind, but often in my thoughts of singing any song, whatever I like in that moment, a demon from my past can creep into my performance, the performance in my mind, so my fight is so big, so visible, yet so small and un-noticed, and I write this not for me, I write this so others can TRY. I hope you can. Love this song below, his album went right to number 1!!. Its lyrics are powerful to me, again it applies to me, if you struggle with pain or mind confusion like I do, pick 1 song and don’t stop till you can imagine, feel, and OWN THE MOMENT, in your mind. Strange yes, disabled yes. 😀 But Disabled people can live, breath and try and NOT BE A BURDEN TO OUR LOVED ONES OR/NOR SOCIETY!!! We deserve this, well most of us, I know people HAPPY on disability benefits and drugs from Drs [YEAH, CHEATERS TAKING MONEY OTHERS NEED].

imagesDisabled or not, see how much you own your mind, good fun for some, real for others. Also I have two little girls in this house, I tell them ‘Daddy has a sore knee’, that will do for now, but they MUST see a real man, a man who loves, tries, shows them a healthy relationship with Mummy, make them know fun and laughter and also plant seeds for the bad things. One day they will see boys, I have a job to do so when they see boys they can see a man in there, not a stupid boy. That is my job, well 1 of them, I have to get this right, for them, it’s that simple. Life kills me, but they reward me with something else, I don’t know what yet. Maybe Angels do exist? Till next time, not really in a ‘Bloggy’ place these days, but Music and THE SIGN below can save many people, I just know I need to help. I am told ‘Help yourself 1st’ But I just can’t, I need to help because I know what it’s like to need help in this often amazing or horrible World we all share. Thanks again for a friend helping me construct this share here

Rick Astley – Keep Singing
Via: RickAstleyVEVO on You Tube

When I was a boy
I saw my daddy crying at the steering wheel
And oh, it made me feel so scared

Then there was joy
Found my religion, swimming in a chour of voices
And oh, I knew that I’d been spared

That I’d be saved some sunny day
Saved from throwing my life away
That I’d be saved some sunny day
From throwing my life, throwing my life away

Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Praising to the heavens with my voice ringing
Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Clap to the beat ’till my hands are stinging
And I’d be saved some sunny day
From throwing my life (throwing my life)
Throwing my life (throwing my life) away

And now I understand
I’m a wide eyed father, blessed are the children
Oh our greatest reward
And with these hands
I’ll move a mountain, build a castle to keep you safe
Of this, you know you can be sure

And you’ll be saved some sunny day
Saved from throwing your life away
And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life, throwing your life away

Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Praising to the heavens with your voices ringing
Keep singing, woah, keep singing
Clap to the beat ’till your hands are stinging
And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life (throwing your life)
Throwing your life (throwing your life) away

Who do you love
When it all comes down to truth
Who do you love
When it all comes back to you
Who do you love
When you’re lying in your bed
Who do you love
Who do you love

Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray
Keep singing, woah, keep singing, pray

And you’ll be saved some sunny day
From throwing your life (throwing your life),
Throwing your life (throwing your life) away

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♪ WOULD YOU ALMOST KILL YOURSELF TO STAY ALIVE?♫

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It’s a fake gun, relax. It’s the eyes I am going for

Above my blog are 3 pages, one is Living with CPS/Fibro and M.E. – 3 Disabilities I hope I can help others, that is all. When we have to put ourselves in a bubble and ignore almost everyone, it’s for good reason usually. Sadly others see it different, because some STILL want to name me and put a name on me as well as define me, this is the only way I can try and speak back. I can’t do ‘Going out’ much these days. I am making myself a monster so I can get into THAT ROOM, the room in the 3 links below. I just spent another hard morning doing Boxing work with a hairline fracture on my right ankle and damage to my left hand. Always I look to be inspired by things be them images or music, these are the only two things boxing will help you with. A famous fighter once said “Boxing is the Loneliest training or sport on Earth” I have that on my wall with other images to help me, and boy was he correct. I was a boxer as a kid, not allowed to fight by my Dad who maybe didn’t want me to go that road? I have no idea, he said “You can’t protect yourself” and I thought I did, this was 30 years ago now, so we laugh about it today my Dad and I as he calls me asking how I am doing with this fight for lifequote-Frank-Bruno-boxing-is-the-toughest-and-loneliest-sport-82019

The video below sadly I couldn’t find the lyrics video for so hit play on the video then scroll down to the lyrics. Who can identify with these lyrics? I can for sure, they make utter sense. Today I went into THAT ROOM for many people, the list is long and I am at the bottom, I can’t do this for myself, it has to be for others. I have added more pictures to my wall, and when I am screaming in pain, dulled by the music I have blasting out I know I am not alone. Many of us have a battle right? Mine is to live longer, that is it man, I can’t define it any better. I do feel lonely, I am having to decline offers to be places or go places because what I am doing I have to FIND HATE! And I don’t do hate, in my mind I MUST find a reason to keep doing what I am doing in a pain I have never felt before. The pain is dull, very deep and doesn’t go away. So when I am in that room I change my thinking to where I need to put it, then I have to start thinking about my Daughters and others before I finish and leave THAT ROOM. 7 weeks in and my body is starting to tighten, I feel the effects. I have to beat this, the rest is just BULLSHIT # The Reality Of Blogging. We shout over each other, it’s 8ull$h1t <# My thoughts on Blogging at the end of 2015

A Song To My Family

1st Report for my Gym/Boxing work. As I fight for life

2nd Report for my Gym/Boxing work. As I fight for life in agony

March 5th 2013: When we place ourselves in a private bubble, turn to love

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DeNauN-This Corner
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[Intro]

Hey look let me tell y'all somethin' alright?
What I do, I do
Straight like that
So ain't no sense in y'all troublin' yourselves over that
'Cause man the way I feel right now today

I came up on the wrong side of the fence
I gave my family pain and strife and asked them all for strength
But hell in my defence
And I got too much way too fast
My mama told me it won't last
Now I'm back down on the bottom
Wishin' that I took another path
I should've listened
But my mind was gone
My temper too quick so when my fuse get lit so when it's on, it's on
Yeah, everybody wrong
Yeah, and I'm always right
Yeah, ain't nobody to blame now
It's me vs. Me, man, this my fight

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

Yeah I put that on my family, all you gotta do is give me the chance
And I can show you that I'm worthy of the trust that you require
Put it all on my shoulders, I'm a fighter, I won't get tired
When I'm back up in this corner, back up in this corner, tryna get out
Back up in this corner, back up in this corner, gotta get out

You think I got none but I got all kind of sense
Stop judgin' my book by the cover
Maybe you should do a little recounting since
I ain't tryna vent, this ain't what was me
It's nothing owed to me
Get the swan song, I don't need an ode to me
Shit hopefully holdin' this rosary'll keep me out of close calls with 
the O police
I said I'm tryna be a whole new me
I ain't tryna do the same old thing
I'm tryna prove to my family that I will not bring
No more trouble around, I ain't gotta do nothing
But stay out of shit, I ain't gotta be up in the chaotic
Prolly 'cause it's my redemption that I'm entrenched in
And I won't let anybody deny my vision, it's my decision
But y'all ain't listenin'

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

Yeah I put that on my family, all you gotta do is give me the chance
And I can show you that I'm worthy of the trust that you require
Put it all on my shoulders, I'm a fighter, I won't get tired
When I'm back up in this corner, back up in this corner, tryna get out
Back up in this corner, back up in this corner, gotta get out

It's my gameplan now
To get in this ring and show that I'm a changed man and how
I won't blow another chance to make you proud
Even though you got the right to hate me now
I know you lost your hope in me
But hopefully I can restore it back where it's supposed to be
I just want my daughter back, this fight means much more than that
I'm tryna think before I react, I ain't get the message at first
I tried to ignore the facts
But I'm much older, she's my soldier, I told you
I'd go to war for that
I said your boy is the truth and it's no lie in him
All he needs is his family with him
Y'all want him 'til it's no room given
I'ma hit him 'til the ref come and get him

So don't look at me like I am the same person I was before
We all deserve a second chance and this time I think I can do more
I'm better

~~End~~

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Life is like?……..You define it!

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Often these days I try to define things, not because I want to see bad or create bad, more to create a mindset of understanding things. Always when I am talking in real life I use football (Soccer) to get my point across, don’t know why I do that but it seems to help get points across. All I know is football, being the coach, being the manager, leading kids and men into battle. I belong on the sidelines of a football field, that is my place, this is where I have a REAL VOICE. I feel silenced, almost as if someone took my voice away. I try to write it away but it doesn’t come close. I only know life through football. People from foreign shores might not understand, here in Europe, Scotland for sure, Football is our church, our reasons away from family and life. We live and breath it. So because I have no voice to roar, I will do my best in images. 3 days from now I go to hell to fight for life, I don’t know if I am ready but I know I have support. I lost my voice, I need it back.

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Shaun Vlog – Audio Blog – Me Speaking about ‘stuff’

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Me Talking – Audio Vlog

Dare say this will annoy someone or make them lose sleep 😀 I was bored.

[AUDIO VIDEO] Shaun Vlog – Audio Blog – Me Speaking about ‘stuff’ [AUDIO VIDEO]

Shauny

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[VLOG] Family, Life, Happy, Medication, Coping, Friendship & More

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Video ‘Vlog here. Feedback on Video, Audio quality appreciated and of course the topic I talk about. Also I mention a small Facebook group I started for anyone with any illness, please feel free to join to just read and know you are not alone, link is below the video/vlog. And also a link to another ‘Vlog I done about ‘People 😀 I got a roasting for it from my partner and my mates 😀 I just don’t care so it’s better fun when they mock me, good conversation starter. If people watch, all the better, Enjoy I did

VIDEO/VLOG – ME SPEAKING VIDEO 😀

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Vlog on ‘People: https://shaunynews.com/2015/08/16/vlog-audiovideo-blog-about-people/

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The woman in pink 😀 HAHA

More Love, Less Hate

Shauny 🙂

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Why Do We Fall? – Motivational Video For People Who Can’t Stand Up

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Strange day in many ways today. I spoke with a ton of people who are ill or disabled, even dying. All we can offer are words with no reasons often. So without over talking (Typing) here I will cut to the chase. Now this works for me and I told others and it works for them, they say ‘Thank you Shaun’ But keep in mind I was taught this also, I once thanked a person. When the pain, depression, panic attacks, whatever happen or sets in, try and use a tool. Now this tool can be music, a movie, a walk, basically reaffirming your own reasons to carry on, because sometimes people don’t carry on and we are left thinking “Should I have said more” But the reality is we can be guilt. So I am offering a solution that works for me. Music and motivational things. Head-set on and it does help. I use music but I also listen to reasons why. If you want to help others stand up or be helped to stand up please know you can join this small group, I keep it small so people can talk and be heard..so fire away.. Fibromyalgia and Chronic Pain Issues <Click)

I hope this helps you!!

Why Do We Fall – Motivational Video
Via Mateusz M on You Tube

More love, Less hate – More helping! 

Shauny

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