Dying Inside

After doing this blog here “Suicide is not always a ‘One-off-Act’ – It’s a living thought for People “ I got a few ‘Gossips’ from people who ‘should know better’, but also nothing from people I expect to be at our side, our being ‘Me and mine’ – When someone lives with Suicidal thoughts and a whole host of other issues like M.E. (Myalgic Mencephalomyelitis) + Fibromyalgia + PTSD and Psychosis, like I do, they want to die, I want to die, but I have reasons to live more important than myself, but I would love HELP to take the burden away from loved ones who watch me suffer, we don’t want sympathy or ‘What a shame’ and I hate this I get a lot ‘I feel sorry for you Shaun, you been through too much for someone so young”, yeah that tires your soul out that one. Sadly people I know say things like “That stupid fucking blog that Shaun does” But that’s it, they DON’T HELP THE PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO SUFFER BECAUSE OF MY ILLNESS. This is not about me. Think who hurts when one is watching another die, slowly or fast, it makes no fucking difference. This World is horrible, I am suicidal, but I will MAN UP as people say about me. But it is fucking hard to take the next step, the next breath. 5am, been up for a day and a half, pain is like death, my mind is scrambled and tied to the moon. Yet people who claim to ‘Love me’ are reading SOMETHING ELSE HERE, or wishing they had a voice? #NEWSFLASH, you do have a voice. Use it or shut the fuck up. I am aware there are people FAR WORSE than myself, but this is hard, every moment is ‘How can I kill myself’, but here I am, for now anyway. Regret is ONLY regret AFTER the event ❤ Peace

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♫ Dying Inside ♫
Via Shaun Gibson on You Tube

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THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

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My New ME/Pain Tablet – MST Continus

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I now understand the help message.

When I was taking ‘Gabapentin a year or so ago with Dihydrocodeine, Tramadol, Diazepam, Amitriptyline and Morphine I thought I was on LSD. The drug almost took my mind and kept it, some take it and fine, some take it and get what I got. With ‘MST Continus I have a drug that will help with Cancer, Parkinson’s disease and a few other things, of course I don’t have Cancer not Parkinson’s. What I have does not kill people; it keeps them in a state on ‘Death’ likely, in thoughts only. I have been on this new drug since 1st April I think so nearly 3 weeks and I must say it is close to Gabapentin in the way you can feel it ‘try and control your thought. The pain is the same, but 1 thing it has helped is my mind, it is a little clearer. I still depend on my partner to give me this medication at the exact right time. This is a Pharmaceutical controlled drug, when I go to pick it up the Chemist owner/pharmacist has to open a safe in the back of the shop as this drug is so dangerous. The lists of things I can and can’t do is long, let’s just say perfect timing is crucial with this drug. My mind is free from Dihydrocodeine, Tramadol and Morphine in liquid form and I can feel it. But I knew when I decided to do this ‘Boxing Training to get Muscle tone 100% to live longer’

Made as the same material as 'David King' to the left

Where the pain wants to kill me, all I can do is fight

And come off ALL medication I had to take the right medication. The cold turkey feelings are back and my body is demanding Heroin, Dr’s heroin. I don’t allow my mind to be weak these days. I spend large parts of every day in bed just sleeping on and off. It is a trade I made to live longer, so I can’t complain. My muscle tone is very high, it feels like my skin is so tight, where there was fat, there is now no fat, I have dropped over 20 Kilo, I let myself go but can I use Medication as an excuse? The answer is no, I decided to take the medication and let my mind and body go. Today the pain is 100x worse but it was horrific before anyway. I gained life here, I showed my 2 little daughters, or I am showing them I hope that ‘It’s ok to feel bad’ and ‘It’s ok to get better’ My Daughters think I have a sore knee, so for now this story works and 2 wee minds don’t need to know the story. The shit below is just the drug leaflet. It is CRAZY. But I am winning this fight and I will tear anyone to bits who stands in my way. I hit leather and PVC every day in the boxing gym, and my mind logically wants flesh to hit. That is a challenge right there, NOT TO HIT SOMEONE. That is hard, but Boxing is a sport for the individual, it’s lonely but it’s discipline is something I am re-learning. I am not doing this to fight people, to be tough; I am doing this to live longer. That is all. Don’t read below, I just needed to share this for ‘whatever’ reason. ‘Keeping on, keeping on’ here…. for now.

Via: http://xpil.medicines.org.uk/

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MST Continus tablets 5 mg, 10 mg, 15 mg, 30 mg, 60 mg, 100 mg, 200 mg
Company Details
Napp Pharmaceuticals Limited

MST® Continus® 5 mg, 10 mg, 15 mg, 30 mg, 60 mg, 100 mg and 200 mg prolonged release tablets

Morphine sulphate
Read all of this leaflet carefully before you start taking this medicine.

In this leaflet:

1. What MST Continus tablets are and what they are used for
2. Before you take MST Continus tablets
3. How to take MST Continus tablets
4. Possible side effects
5. How to store MST Continus tablets
6. Further information
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1. What MST Continus tablets are and what they are used for

These tablets have been prescribed for you by your doctor to relieve severe pain over a period of 12 hours. They contain the active ingredient morphine which belongs to a group of medicines called strong analgesics or ‘painkillers’.

Do not take MST Continus tablets if:

You are allergic (hypersensitive) to morphine or any of the other ingredients of the tablets (see section 6 ‘Further Information’);
you have breathing problems, such as obstructive airways disease or respiratory depression. Your doctor will have told you if you have these conditions. Symptoms may include breathlessness, coughing or breathing more slowly or weakly than expected;
you have a head injury that causes a severe headache or makes you feel sick. This is because the tablets may make these symptoms worse or hide the extent of the head injury;
you have a condition where the small bowel (part of your gut) does not work properly (paralytic ileus), your stomach empties more slowly than it should (delayed gastric emptying) or you have severe pain in your abdomen;
you have recent onset liver disease;
you are taking a type of medicine known as a monoamine oxidase inhibitor (examples include tranylcypromine, phenelzine, isocarboxazid, moclobemide and linezolid), or you have taken this type of medicine in the last two weeks;
the patient is under one year of age.

If you are going to have an operation, please tell the doctor at the hospital that you are taking these tablets.
Take special care with MST Continus tablets

Before treatment with these tablets tell your doctor or pharmacist if you:

Have breathing problems, such as impaired lung function or severe bronchial asthma. Your doctor will have told you if you have these conditions. Symptoms may include breathlessness and coughing;
have an under-active thyroid gland (hypothyroidism), severe kidney or liver problems as you may need a lower dose;
have a severe headache or feel sick as this may indicate that the pressure in your skull is increased;
suffer from, or have ever suffered from epilepsy, seizures, fits or convulsions;
have low blood pressure;
have a severe heart problem after long-term lung disease (severe cor pulmonale);
have inflammation of the pancreas (which causes severe pain in the abdomen and back) or problems with your gall bladder;
have an inflammatory bowel disorder;
have prostate problems;
have poor adrenal gland function (your adrenal gland is not working properly which may cause symptoms including weakness, weight loss, dizziness, feeling or being sick);
are or have ever been addicted to alcohol or drugs;
have previously suffered from withdrawal symptoms such as agitation, anxiety, shaking or sweating, upon stopping taking alcohol or drugs.

Very rarely you may experience increased sensitivity to pain despite the fact that you are taking increasing doses of these tablets (hyperalgesia). Your doctor will decide whether you need a change in dose or a change in strong analgesic (“painkiller”).
Taking other medicines

Please tell your doctor or pharmacist if you are taking or have recently taken any other medicines, including medicines obtained without a prescription. If you take these tablets with some other medicines, the effect of the tablets or the other medicine may be changed.

These tablets must not be used together with a monoamine oxidase inhibitor, or if you have taken this type of medicine in the last two weeks (see section 2 ‘Do not take…’).

Tell your doctor or pharmacist if you are taking:

medicines to help you sleep (for example tranquillisers, hypnotics or sedatives);
medicines to treat psychiatric or mental disorders (such as phenothiazines);
muscle relaxants;
medicines to treat high blood pressure;
cimetidine to treat stomach ulcers, indigestion or heartburn;
certain types of medicines to stop you feeling or being sick;
medicines used to prevent or relieve the symptoms of an allergy (antihistamines);
rifampicin to treat tuberculosis;
ritonavir to treat HIV;
medicines to treat Parkinson’s disease.
gabapentin to treat epilepsy or neuropathic pain (pain due to nerve problems).

Also tell your doctor if you have recently been given an anaesthetic.
Taking MST Continus tablets with alcohol

Drinking alcohol whilst taking MST Continus tablets may make you feel more sleepy or increase the risk of serious side effects such as shallow breathing with a risk of stopping breathing, and loss of consciousness. It is recommended not to drink alcohol while you’re taking MST Continus tablets.
Pregnancy and breastfeeding

Do not take these tablets if you are pregnant or breastfeeding.

Ask your doctor or pharmacist for advice before taking any medicine.
Driving and using machines

These tablets may cause a number of side effects such as drowsiness which could affect your ability to drive or use machinery (see section 4 for a full list of side effects). These are usually most noticeable when you first start taking the tablets, or when changing to a higher dose. If you are affected you should not drive or use machinery.

This medicine can affect your ability to drive as it may make you sleepy or dizzy.

Do not drive while taking this medicine until you know how it affects you.
It is an offence to drive while you have this medicine in your body over a specified limit unless you have a defence (called the ‘statutory defence’).
This defence applies when:
The medicine has been prescribed to treat a medical or dental problem; and
You have taken it according to the instructions given by the prescriber and in the information provided with the medicine.
Please note that it is still an offence to drive if you are unfit because of the medicine (i.e. your ability to drive is being affected).

Details regarding a new driving offence concerning driving after drugs have been taken in the UK may be found here: https://www.gov.uk/drug-driving-law

Talk to your doctor or pharmacist if you are not sure whether it is safe for you to drive while taking this medicine.
Important information about some of the ingredients of MST Continus tablets

The 5 mg, 10 mg, 15 mg, 30 mg and 60 mg tablets contain lactose which is a form of sugar. If you have been told by your doctor that you have an intolerance to some sugars, contact your doctor before taking these tablets.

The 30 mg and 60 mg strength tablets contain sunset yellow (E110) which may cause allergic reactions.
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3. How to take MST Continus tablets

Always take the tablets exactly as your doctor has told you. The label on your medicine will tell you how many tablets to take and how often.

Swallow your tablets whole with a glass of water. Do not break, crush or chew them.

MST Continus tablets are designed to work properly over 12 hours when swallowed whole. If a tablet is broken, crushed or chewed, the entire 12-hour dose may be absorbed rapidly into your body. This can be dangerous, causing serious problems such as an overdose, which may be fatal.

You must only take the tablets by mouth. The tablets should never be crushed or injected as this may lead to serious side effects, which may be fatal.

You should take your tablets every 12 hours. For instance, if you take a tablet at 8 o’clock in the morning, you should take your next tablet at 8 o’clock in the evening.
Adults

The usual starting dose is one 30 mg tablet every 12 hours. However, the dose will depend on your age, weight and the severity of your pain. If you are elderly or weigh less than 70 kg your doctor may suggest a lower starting dose. Your doctor will decide how many tablets you should take.
Children over one year of age

Children over one year of age can take the tablets. The required dose will depend on their weight and severity of pain. This should be discussed with your doctor or pharmacist.

If you find that you are still in pain whilst taking these tablets discuss this with your doctor.

Do not exceed the dose recommended by your doctor. You should check with your doctor or pharmacist if you are not sure.
If you take more MST Continus tablets than you should or if someone accidentally swallows your tablets

Call your doctor or hospital straight away. People who have taken an overdose may feel very sleepy, sick or dizzy. They may also have breathing difficulties leading to unconsciousness or even death and may need emergency treatment in hospital. When seeking medical attention make sure that you take this leaflet and any remaining tablets with you to show to the doctor.
If you forget to take MST Continus tablets

If you remember within 4 hours of the time your tablet was due, take your tablet straight away. Take your next tablet at your normal time. If you are more than 4 hours late, please call your doctor for advice. Do not take a double dose to make up for a forgotten tablet.
If you stop taking MST Continus tablets

You should not suddenly stop taking these tablets unless your doctor tells you to. If you want to stop taking your tablets, discuss this with your doctor first. They will tell you how to do this, usually by reducing the dose gradually so you do not experience unpleasant effects. Withdrawal symptoms such as agitation, anxiety, shaking or sweating may occur if you suddenly stop taking these tablets.
4. Possible side effects

Like all medicines, these tablets can cause side effects, although not everybody gets them. All medicines can cause allergic reactions, although serious allergic reactions are uncommon. Tell your doctor immediately if you get any sudden wheeziness, difficulties in breathing, swelling of the eyelids, face or lips, rash or itching especially those covering your whole body. The most serious side effect, although uncommon, is a condition where you breathe more slowly or weakly than expected (respiratory depression).

As with all strong painkillers, there is a risk that you may become addicted or reliant on these tablets. Very common side effects (probably affecting more than 1 in 10 people taking these tablets) Constipation (your doctor can prescribe a laxative to overcome this problem).
Feeling sick.

Common side effects (probably affecting between 1 and 10 in 100 people taking these tablets)

Drowsiness (this is most likely when you first start taking your tablets or when your dose is increased, but it should wear off after a few days).
Dry mouth, loss of appetite, abdominal pain or discomfort.
Vomiting (being sick). This should normally wear off after a few days. However your doctor can prescribe an anti-vomiting medicine if it continues to be a problem.
Dizziness, headache, confusion, difficulty in sleeping.
A feeling of unusual weakness.
Involuntary muscle contractions.
Rash or itchy skin.
Sweating.

Uncommon side effects (probably affecting between 1 and 10 in 1000 people taking these tablets)

Difficulty in breathing (possibly due to fluid on the lungs) or wheezing.
A condition where the bowel does not work properly (ileus).
Changes in taste, indigestion.
A feeling of dizziness or ‘spinning’, fainting, seizures, fits or convulsions.
Agitation, mood changes, hallucinations, a feeling of extreme happiness.
Unusual muscle stiffness.
Tingling or numbness.
Difficulty in passing urine.
Low blood pressure, facial flushing (redness of the face).
Palpitations.
Swelling of the hands, ankles or feet.
Hives.
A worsening in liver function tests (seen in blood test).
Blurred vision.
Muscle spasms.

Frequency unknown (cannot be estimated from the available data)

Unpleasant or uncomfortable mood, abnormal thoughts.
An increased sensitivity to pain.
Reduction in size of the pupils in the eye.
A fast or slow heartbeat.
High blood pressure.
Decreased cough reflex.
Colicky abdominal pain or discomfort, an increase in the severity of symptoms associated with inflammation of the pancreas (severe pain in the abdomen and back).
Impotence, decreased sexual drive, absence of menstrual periods.
Withdrawal symptoms (See section 3 “If you stop taking MST Continus tablets”).

Reporting of side effects

If you get any side effects, talk to your doctor or pharmacist. This includes any possible side effects not listed in this leaflet. You can also report side effects directly via the Yellow Card Scheme at http://www.mhra.gov.uk/yellowcard. By reporting side effects you can help provide more information on the safety of this medicine.
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5. How to store MST Continus tablets

Keep out of the reach and sight of children.

Do not use any tablets after the expiry date which is stated on the blister and carton. EXP 08 2010 means that you should not take the tablets after the last day of that month i.e. August 2010. Do not store your tablets above 25°C. Do not take your tablets if they are broken or crushed as this can be dangerous and can cause serious problems such as overdose.

Medicines should not be disposed of via wastewater or household waste. Ask your pharmacist how to dispose of medicines no longer required. These measures will help to protect the environment.
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What MST Continus tablets contain

The active ingredient is morphine sulphate. Each tablet contains 5 mg, 10 mg, 15 mg, 30 mg, 60 mg, 100 mg or 200 mg of morphine sulphate.

The other ingredients are:

Hydroxyethylcellulose
Cetostearyl alcohol
Magnesium stearate
Talc
Lactose (except for 100 mg and 200 mg tablets)
Hypromellose (E464) (except for 10 mg)
Macrogol
Titanium dioxide (E171)
Polyvinyl alcohol (10 mg only)

The tablets also contain the following colourants:

10 mg – Iron oxide (E172)

15 mg – Iron oxide (E172), brilliant blue (E133), quinoline yellow (E104) and indigo carmine (E132)

30 mg – Erythrosine (E127), indigo carmine (E132) and sunset yellow (E110)

60 mg – Erythrosine (E127), quinoline yellow (E104) and sunset yellow (E110)

100 mg – Iron oxide (E172) and indigo carmine (E132)

200 mg – Brilliant blue (E133) and quinoline yellow (E104)
What MST Continus tablets look like and the contents of the pack

The tablets are marked with NAPP on one side and the strength (e.g. 5 mg, 10 mg etc) on the other.

The tablets are coloured as follows: 5 mg – white, 10 mg – golden brown, 15 mg – green, 30 mg – dark purple, 60 mg – orange, 100 mg – grey, 200 mg – teal green.

In each box there are 60 tablets.
Marketing Authorisation Holder and Manufacturer

The tablets are made by
Bard Pharmaceuticals Limited
Cambridge Science Park
Milton Road
Cambridge
CB4 0GW
UK

This leaflet is also available in large print, Braille or as an audio CD. To request a copy, please call the RNIB Medicine Information line (free of charge) on:

You will need to give details of the product name and reference number.

These are as follows:

Product name: MST Continus tablets

Reference number: 16950/0035

 

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