The Broken Family Unit – It’s a Global Selfish Uncaring World!! God is Money!

Lately as I wake up to an uncaring World torn between what they desire and what they think they want, and also the lust for Money everywhere is very hurtful to stand back and watch. I remember when I was a child in the 1980’s, Family was close, if one fell, we all fell, then helped each other back up. Today the ‘Family Unit’ is broken and all I can see is Money and Ego getting in the way. My Father is in his early 70’s and lives on a small Island somewhere; he has Dementia and NOBODY CARES, NOBODY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT HIM. It seems I am the ONLY person who keeps in touch with my Father, he has NOBODY really, he is alone with his thoughts and I have no idea being 700 miles away and unable to travel to him for ‘Many’ reasons, how bad things are for him, and everyone else is just caring about the people they stayed close too, like siblings, MY OWN, who turned away to the other side of whatever family. Jesus, the more I think about it, can I blame them? Pause for thought Shaun!

Me and my Nana in 1973

I remember when my Dads Mother, my Nana passed away, she died alone and unhappy. Often I think back to her, the top of my Family Tree and cry. I cry because ‘SOMETHING’ made people walk away from her, in the end she died alone and thinking nobody cared. I took ALL the blame because I was a bad kid, but I still tried, as I did along with one Aunt who sadly passed too were the ONLY PEOPLE to try. I visited most nights to make sure my Nana was in bed ok, the gas was turned off and she was safe. This was back in the 1990’s. I remember the wake after the funeral, the guilt I felt was self inflicted. My Aunt who has sadly passed away was there and came to me. She gave me a hug and said “Penny for your thoughts” I then told her what was on my mind, my Aunt cried a little and said words that helped, and I will never forget her for that and many reasons.

Edinburgh, Scotland – My Home

20 years on and my Family on BOTH SIDES is broken, I don’t see my own Sons any-more as ‘THEY DON’T WANT TO GET INVOLVED’ But involved in what? Life? Family? Love? Yeah it’s a confusing emotion. My own Mother is in a bad place and it’s SO HARD as I have NO IDEA how bad things are for her, not a clue, nobody speaks, nobody seems to give 2 fucks any more. It’s all ‘Me, Me, Me’ wherever I go, the IRONY of it all is wherever I go it’s all about ‘SHAUN’, and this is from people I have never seen in 20 years or seen in the passing a few times over the time we had two sons I am so proud off along with their Mother and now 2 little girls that literally keep me alive. But looking back I look back and smile, Edinburgh is my home, I want to leave the mess behind, but Edinburgh taught me all I know. Life just happens but Family from Childhood all moved away from Edinburgh, often I ask myself “IS EDINBURGH SO BAD” I don’t think so, it’s a beautiful place

[MUSIC VIDEO] The Lake Poets ‘EDINBURGH’
Via: The Lake Poets on YouTube

Memories

I see a World so uncaring, so Money oriented, so scared of ‘EMOTION’ it hurts, afraid to ‘Talk deeply’ even one time and move away from it. I have never left my Childhood in the sense I am still living my life around the same people and same area of Edinburgh, Scotland. But the Family unit IS BROKEN wherever I look, anywhere I look, most if not all families just DON’T CARE, and the ones who do care are selective on WHAT SIDE OF FAMILY THEY CARE FOR, sadly many chase the money and side-step people who are ill. It’s horrible to watch. Again I am ‘Irony’ I know it! But like many I get blamed always, so I may as well be irony and just take blame right?

I have two little girls here aged 8 and 7 years old; they are starting to take note of NO FAMILY. They don’t know why, I MUST take some blame as I do have a car but LIFE JUST SAYS I CAN’T DRIVE SOMETIMES. My partner does her VERY BEST to show my Girls life, but it’s ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE to sit with Family in all directions be them blood or not these days. People just hate, fear and loath over money or emotions life somehow forgot to teach a generation of people. Where did we go wrong globally, can you see it, do you even care? I know I do, but it’s like trying to fart against a storm to stop if. Yeah Scottish humor right there, got to keep smiling yeah?

What happened to us?

What happened to us all? What happened to you? What happened to me? What happened to us? Will you read this and ACCEPT BLAME? Because these days all I get from these kinds of people is ‘IT’S NOT MY FAULT’, YEAH! People just TAKE THE BLAME. I am a Grandfather in name only; I don’t see my Grandchildren and I am at the stage of giving up on EVERYONE. HOW FUCKING SAD IS THAT? And THEY will read this and just accept and not try to make up. I get it, sadly I understanding it. The worst decision I ever made was to wake up to this World, it’s IN DIRE TROUBLE

Right now if I could I would sell up, get a passport and take my Girls to Australia where I have some family who still ACTUALLY CARE. Recently I had 2 Cousins who flew from Australia to Scotland to spread ashes for a parent they lost and ONLY around 12 people or so showed up from the Scottish side of my Dads side of the Family, a family that is FUCKED. I am irony because I was not there myself, but I respected them by not going as certain people just want to get drunk and cause FIGHTS because they think ‘Being a Tough Person’ suits their style. I was one from 20 people who stayed away TO RESPECT my Australian family, I am not alone, about 10% of the Family turned up for them, Australia to Scotland and THIS!

[NOW HEAR ME OUT FFS] I was on HEROIN Levels of Drugs till a year or so ago till a voice in my head said “Tell the Dr you want out” and my Dr was amazing and changed medication allowing me to wake up JUST ENOUGH to see two little girls beside me, but also others who just ARE NOT INTERESTED in anyone bar themselves, I respect private people, I must respect hate, anger and fear in others because like you, do we have a choice? My pain is no worse nor no less than yours, my issues one and the same as you who read this. Put aside health and money for a moment and I see it, my friends see it, Family I do speak to feel like I do. It’s hurtful and awful.

I can almost remember this, I was always youngest

But Family members of mine will read this and see HATE, ANGER OR FEAR. The 3 emotions one of my Parents pressed me HARD to lose from my mind over many years. Always one of my parents was telling me “Shaun, hate anger and fear will drag you to the grave”!! So I listened and now all I do is hurt. I woke up to a level of dysfunction so badly I just want to smother the pain in drugs and say ‘Not interested’, this morning I TRIED TO REACH OUT TO A BROTHER AND A SISTER due to a worry I have for one of my Parents and I got NOTHING BUT ‘SHIT THROWN BACK IN MY FACE”, same old bullshit like “Aww Shaun!! People get old and it’s JUST LIFE” << WHAT ON EARTH HAS HAPPENED TO US ALL? I am close enough with many people still who hurt people with lack of caring people and it’s so hard to see. I have my life partner here HURTING daily because of lack of love from her OWN! You can’t deny this if you read, BUT YOU HAVE CHOICE TO FIX IT, and we are here should you decide to ‘GET INVOVLED’ in love of Family

I see 1 option for my Daughters, and it’s a new life, new ways, somewhere where people care. My only doubt and question is “DOES IT EXIST?” I fear it does not. But as long as I have air in my lungs and a mind to try hard, I will protect my Daughter from Hate, Anger and Fear like many friends and family and I who have young kids agree on “WE WILL NOT ALLOW OUR KIDS TO GROW UP AND BECOME SELFISH AND UNCARING PEOPLE” And I refuse to do this with my Daughters, AT ANY COST! Even if it hurts me to walk away totally.

I wish I felt the emotion to this picture….1975 I think

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THIS WORLD? I remember a Family so close on all sides, then I seen Drink and Drugs, abuse, hatred and more and people just slowly did what I IRONICALLY AM SAYING HERE…They just walked away! The old saying of “If you can’t beat them, join them” seems my only option for my Daughters. This rant, as it will be called a rant! if anything, it’s just a confused question of ‘HOW AND WHY’ can I help two little girls see love and happiness? I will do my best to search for answers for MY 2 DAUGHTERS!!! I must therefore be like the rest and turn around, walk away and say “I love you, but I must look after my own”

THE IRONY OF IT ALL IS KILLING ME! I am fucking BADLY disabled, my body lives in pain and my mind is FUCKED. Yet I feel I am the only person looking at our kids, all our kids, globally and thinking “HOW CAN I MAKE IT BETTER” – But then I pause, reflect, and KNOW there are people like me who want to mend the ‘Broken Family Unit’. How we sit back and allow each other to hurt and die alone, how we allow our minds to be turned by actions of perversion be them literal or fiscal is beyond my thoughts.

….I am lost, but I must find a way for 2 little girls. AT ANY AND ALL COST. No longer will I allow myself to be #Anger #Fear or #Hate, I purged my soul of these 3 deadly emotions. Sadly most people I see have not, most have 1 or 2 or all 3 emotions of Anger, fear and hate. Why?

It was ACTUALLY fun before….. lol – That is me crying North-West Scotland as my Sibling laughs 😀 Good times!!

Whoever reads this, and I only get about 300/500 reads per day these days [NOT THAT NUMBERS MATTER, I would rather 50 REAL people read it than 1,000 uncaring people read this, I am asking why has our World walked away from itself and to what? Money the illusion of happiness through the illusion of money?  But then I know people reading this will just point the finger back at me and my kind, and allow the circle of #Anger #Hate and #Fear to be in their very minds and souls, and transmit it to their own. So I MUST protect my girls from these emotions, so they grow to be free from these emotions. IF IT’S MY LAST ACT AS A HUMAN, THEN SO BE IT, I ACCEPT THE CHALLENGE WITH LOVE AND A SMILE.

 

When in Rome……..You know the rest surely! We give up on each other too easily. Why?

#Peace

I miss them all…All I knew!

MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

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THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

Shaun Gibson Twitter: @ShaunyScot
Skype Username: shaunyg1973
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THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS - THIS REPRESENTS 'BETTER' FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS – THIS REPRESENTS ‘BETTER’ FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

 

 

ROCKY BALBOA – More Than a Movie?

I have this framed on my living room wall to remind me

I have this framed on my living room wall to remind me

Remind me of what? That it was just a movie or it was motivation for us all to know we can win when loss is all we see. I did boxing for many years as a kid but never really wanted to fight. I was put into boxing by my Dad to teach me street rules, not academic rules. It gave me an insight to what reality was doing boxing training, with my trainer at the time the Scottish Middleweight Champion. I so wanted to fight for real for a long time but as I have said my Dad wouldn’t let me fight real till I could protect myself, back then I never got it, today I try to tell my sons about it. Circle of life and all that. Why write a book to be unread? Why write a song to not listen? Why make a movie to not watch? What I do here is the same as any of these 3 things, I am reaching, trying, living and learning. Rocky made me love America and for a time I believed the ‘American Dream’ Only to grow older aged 42 now to know that dream died. The Newsroom TV Show’s first scene have you seen it? For me this is the UTTER TRUTH of America. I will leave a few video’s that inspire me, in hope it inspires people who need inspired today. Rocky and Back to the Future made me fall in love with America as a kid in a broken world. What the guy says in the 1st video below is sadly the reality, the internet shows the truth sadly. And this is why I dislike social media yet have a hard time turning away from it because I know I have been helped so I want to help back in any way I can. I love America but Government and Media have made it wrong and lies and, well other things you can define at will. #Respect 

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The Most Honest Three Minutes In Television History
The sad truth of what happend to America
Via: Wayne Loomis on You Tube

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ROCKY BALBOA Deleted scene (very sad)
Via: DRUMMABOY J. on You Tube

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Carl Weathers Interview on the Rocky Series
Via: Matt Biesiada on You Tube

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Rocky’s Nervous Breakdown Hurts Mickey (Deleted Scene) Very SAD
Via: DRUMMABOY J. on You Tube

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Rocky Balboa Speech – Motivation
Via: SALERNO on You Tube

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Rocky III – Rocky Says Goodbye to Mickey
Via: OfficialRockyBalboa on You Tube

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The Very Best Of Rocky Balboa- Tribute
Via: PBCFilmes on You Tube

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ROCKY TRIBUTE — EYE OF THE TIGER
Via: USAMADE316 on You Tube

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Unreal truth spoken from American past that is true today, always the truth is there
What could have been, then his Brother, what would the USA be today?
Via: AwsmMayCry on You Tube

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I am going back to Soccer management

1st ever adults team :D

1st ever adults team 😀

Well the cat is out the bag so to speak, weeks of talking and thinking and speaking to players and talking about money and parks to play and train on, we finally decided last night I am going back to manage in Soccer

I have been away 2 season almost due to the pain, but in my mind I am thinking, I am going to be in pain anyway, so we have talked about it, I will have a staff of 5 lads and a playing squad of 18, perhaps including my own son, we worked together as Manager/Player before winning many trophies and creating many memories, so this appeals to me

But it is not about me and my son; it is about me and my team. I know the team I am taking over, they are relocating 30 miles so I can take over and be manager, they were out of town, so we need to change the name, but all that will happen in due course

To say I am excited is an understatement. I have some amazing memories from the previous 15 seasons, working with kids as young as 8 to adults as old as 38, I did kids, development (Teenagers) and Adults and also East of Scotland (A high level) But then the pain came and I had to stop

So I got back in with all these memories and experience and hope I can just enjoy it. I am a winner, I am a hungry manager, I want trophies, I want to be the best, I will demand my players want to be the best, so I will pick 18 lads who want it as much as I do, and we will see what happens. I have 11 qualifications as a football man, but in total honesty, although I legally need them, I don’t really need them, they courses I went through taught me little, you learn from being on the touchline at games, you learn through making mistakes, you learn that being a weak manager gets you nowhere, you have to be tough and brave, and most of all have a voice, and I have this.

My mind is still mine, my body hurts, so I will need to surround myself with good coaches and secretaries and more. But I will do this, I almost already have,  I called all my old staff and within seconds “YES” was the answer, we enjoy working together, so bring it on

I want to enjoy this as long as I can do it; I want more memories, good memories, like the pictures below. The harder you work, the more ruthless you become, me and the players, the more chance you have of winning trophies. Winning games are easy; winning trophies is not, to win trophies you have to be the best team over the course of a 10 month season

I won’t post this on Face book just yet for my family and friends to see, it is almost still a secret, as we want to come back and surprise the other teams, just appear as we used to be a few years ago when I game the side up. We were called Gorgie Hearts, just a name, the name is unimportant when you are a manager, the cause is greater, the reasons are greater and the desire means more, so we will have a new name, but go with the same beliefs and actions as we did before

I couldn’t be happier; I just hope I can do myself justice to the club, the team and the players

Some memories from my 15 years  below

My first ever team 13 years or so ago now, all these kid are 19/20 years old now, but this is where it begun

My first ever team 13 years or so ago now, all these kid are 19/20 years old now, but this is where it begun

Again my first team, I had them WANTING to win at this age, but enjoyment was everything

Again my first team, I had them WANTING to win at this age, but enjoyment was everything

Me with former Celtic and Scotland international player Stevie Fulton as I progressed with my qualifications in football

Me with former Celtic and Scotland international player Stevie Fulton as I progressed with my qualifications in football

As I progressed through the ranks, I got a national Scottish coaching nomination, again, a moment!

As I progressed through the ranks, I got a national Scottish coaching nomination, again, a moment!

I took this group of kids to a Double winning season, capped off with a final at the home of a Professional football team, a REAL stadium, about 4,000 were there on the day

I took this group of kids to a Double winning season, capped off with a final at the home of a Professional football team, a REAL stadium, about 4,000 were there on the day

Me relaxed and ready to fire my players up in the Stadium an hour before kick off

Me relaxed and ready to fire my players up in the Stadium an hour before kick off

Allowing these kids to sample the big time was important, so we arrived early and let them tour the stadium

Allowing these kids to sample the big time was important, so we arrived early and let them tour the stadium

A picture from the daily paper from the game

A picture from the daily paper from the game, I was managing in a stadium, again, what a memory

Players after the game receiving their awards, and also our league winning Trophy

Players after the game receiving their awards, and also our league winning Trophy

Words from the Match sponsor and myself, I am there in the middle picture somewhere, crowd behind us

Words from the Match sponsor and myself, I am there in the middle picture somewhere, crowd behind us

The day we won the league title. Brilliant day. My oldest Daughter was born two days before this

The day we won the league title. Brilliant day. My oldest Daughter was born two days before this

My Partner had never missed a game, she couldn't make this one with the baby, this is my son, he scored 3 as we won 4-0 to win the league, his mum said

My Partner had never missed a game, she couldn’t make this one with the baby, this is my son, he scored 3 as we won 4-0 to win the league, his mum said “Do it for your Sister” And he delivered. A personal moment for me and my family this

The winning penalty to get us to our 2nd Final, a superb memory for me and the kid and his parents

The winning penalty to get us to our 2nd Final, a superb memory for me and the kid and his parents

Cup winners with the Adult side I owned and ran and managed

Cup winners with the Adult side I owned and ran and managed

League winners the week after winning the cup, the

League winners the week after winning the cup, the “Double” was ours

More media exposure for my boys

More media exposure for my boys

If I can create just 50% of these memories when I go back, then I will be happy. Above are just a few memories, I have tons more, but when I say I am a winner, to be a winner, you need winners around you, people that won’t fold when things get tough. people who will keep their head when all around are losing theirs, I still have a lot to learn as a Soccer manager, so I intend to do just that

Shaun

Pink Floyd Videos – Comfortably Numb – OId one’s are the best?

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In a bit of pain today, so I am on You Tube looking at songs, and again I stumble across a song my Dad used to really play loud. We are talking the mid 1980s here.

Pink Floyd, I love them, I am too young to have known then at their peak, but would love to see them love if at all possible in any shape or form.

I found these two videos, live, and I don’t know how many have seen the 2nd video.

This is SUPERB. I am in a music mood, so expect some music today. Lol

Music is memories, and for me, these bring back so much. I hope you enjoy

Shaun

A song with meaning and a message

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Sitting browsing Youtube there for songs, as you do.

Then this song comes up, one with so much meaning to me it is unreal. So, me being me, I share.

I hope others like song as much I do. I just has meaning, lots of meaning

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