The Broken Family Unit – It’s a Global Selfish Uncaring World!! God is Money!

Lately as I wake up to an uncaring World torn between what they desire and what they think they want, and also the lust for Money everywhere is very hurtful to stand back and watch. I remember when I was a child in the 1980’s, Family was close, if one fell, we all fell, then helped each other back up. Today the ‘Family Unit’ is broken and all I can see is Money and Ego getting in the way. My Father is in his early 70’s and lives on a small Island somewhere; he has Dementia and NOBODY CARES, NOBODY GIVES A SHIT ABOUT HIM. It seems I am the ONLY person who keeps in touch with my Father, he has NOBODY really, he is alone with his thoughts and I have no idea being 700 miles away and unable to travel to him for ‘Many’ reasons, how bad things are for him, and everyone else is just caring about the people they stayed close too, like siblings, MY OWN, who turned away to the other side of whatever family. Jesus, the more I think about it, can I blame them? Pause for thought Shaun!

Me and my Nana in 1973

I remember when my Dads Mother, my Nana passed away, she died alone and unhappy. Often I think back to her, the top of my Family Tree and cry. I cry because ‘SOMETHING’ made people walk away from her, in the end she died alone and thinking nobody cared. I took ALL the blame because I was a bad kid, but I still tried, as I did along with one Aunt who sadly passed too were the ONLY PEOPLE to try. I visited most nights to make sure my Nana was in bed ok, the gas was turned off and she was safe. This was back in the 1990’s. I remember the wake after the funeral, the guilt I felt was self inflicted. My Aunt who has sadly passed away was there and came to me. She gave me a hug and said “Penny for your thoughts” I then told her what was on my mind, my Aunt cried a little and said words that helped, and I will never forget her for that and many reasons.

Edinburgh, Scotland – My Home

20 years on and my Family on BOTH SIDES is broken, I don’t see my own Sons any-more as ‘THEY DON’T WANT TO GET INVOLVED’ But involved in what? Life? Family? Love? Yeah it’s a confusing emotion. My own Mother is in a bad place and it’s SO HARD as I have NO IDEA how bad things are for her, not a clue, nobody speaks, nobody seems to give 2 fucks any more. It’s all ‘Me, Me, Me’ wherever I go, the IRONY of it all is wherever I go it’s all about ‘SHAUN’, and this is from people I have never seen in 20 years or seen in the passing a few times over the time we had two sons I am so proud off along with their Mother and now 2 little girls that literally keep me alive. But looking back I look back and smile, Edinburgh is my home, I want to leave the mess behind, but Edinburgh taught me all I know. Life just happens but Family from Childhood all moved away from Edinburgh, often I ask myself “IS EDINBURGH SO BAD” I don’t think so, it’s a beautiful place

[MUSIC VIDEO] The Lake Poets ‘EDINBURGH’
Via: The Lake Poets on YouTube

Memories

I see a World so uncaring, so Money oriented, so scared of ‘EMOTION’ it hurts, afraid to ‘Talk deeply’ even one time and move away from it. I have never left my Childhood in the sense I am still living my life around the same people and same area of Edinburgh, Scotland. But the Family unit IS BROKEN wherever I look, anywhere I look, most if not all families just DON’T CARE, and the ones who do care are selective on WHAT SIDE OF FAMILY THEY CARE FOR, sadly many chase the money and side-step people who are ill. It’s horrible to watch. Again I am ‘Irony’ I know it! But like many I get blamed always, so I may as well be irony and just take blame right?

I have two little girls here aged 8 and 7 years old; they are starting to take note of NO FAMILY. They don’t know why, I MUST take some blame as I do have a car but LIFE JUST SAYS I CAN’T DRIVE SOMETIMES. My partner does her VERY BEST to show my Girls life, but it’s ALMOST IMPOSSIBLE to sit with Family in all directions be them blood or not these days. People just hate, fear and loath over money or emotions life somehow forgot to teach a generation of people. Where did we go wrong globally, can you see it, do you even care? I know I do, but it’s like trying to fart against a storm to stop if. Yeah Scottish humor right there, got to keep smiling yeah?

What happened to us?

What happened to us all? What happened to you? What happened to me? What happened to us? Will you read this and ACCEPT BLAME? Because these days all I get from these kinds of people is ‘IT’S NOT MY FAULT’, YEAH! People just TAKE THE BLAME. I am a Grandfather in name only; I don’t see my Grandchildren and I am at the stage of giving up on EVERYONE. HOW FUCKING SAD IS THAT? And THEY will read this and just accept and not try to make up. I get it, sadly I understanding it. The worst decision I ever made was to wake up to this World, it’s IN DIRE TROUBLE

Right now if I could I would sell up, get a passport and take my Girls to Australia where I have some family who still ACTUALLY CARE. Recently I had 2 Cousins who flew from Australia to Scotland to spread ashes for a parent they lost and ONLY around 12 people or so showed up from the Scottish side of my Dads side of the Family, a family that is FUCKED. I am irony because I was not there myself, but I respected them by not going as certain people just want to get drunk and cause FIGHTS because they think ‘Being a Tough Person’ suits their style. I was one from 20 people who stayed away TO RESPECT my Australian family, I am not alone, about 10% of the Family turned up for them, Australia to Scotland and THIS!

[NOW HEAR ME OUT FFS] I was on HEROIN Levels of Drugs till a year or so ago till a voice in my head said “Tell the Dr you want out” and my Dr was amazing and changed medication allowing me to wake up JUST ENOUGH to see two little girls beside me, but also others who just ARE NOT INTERESTED in anyone bar themselves, I respect private people, I must respect hate, anger and fear in others because like you, do we have a choice? My pain is no worse nor no less than yours, my issues one and the same as you who read this. Put aside health and money for a moment and I see it, my friends see it, Family I do speak to feel like I do. It’s hurtful and awful.

I can almost remember this, I was always youngest

But Family members of mine will read this and see HATE, ANGER OR FEAR. The 3 emotions one of my Parents pressed me HARD to lose from my mind over many years. Always one of my parents was telling me “Shaun, hate anger and fear will drag you to the grave”!! So I listened and now all I do is hurt. I woke up to a level of dysfunction so badly I just want to smother the pain in drugs and say ‘Not interested’, this morning I TRIED TO REACH OUT TO A BROTHER AND A SISTER due to a worry I have for one of my Parents and I got NOTHING BUT ‘SHIT THROWN BACK IN MY FACE”, same old bullshit like “Aww Shaun!! People get old and it’s JUST LIFE” << WHAT ON EARTH HAS HAPPENED TO US ALL? I am close enough with many people still who hurt people with lack of caring people and it’s so hard to see. I have my life partner here HURTING daily because of lack of love from her OWN! You can’t deny this if you read, BUT YOU HAVE CHOICE TO FIX IT, and we are here should you decide to ‘GET INVOVLED’ in love of Family

I see 1 option for my Daughters, and it’s a new life, new ways, somewhere where people care. My only doubt and question is “DOES IT EXIST?” I fear it does not. But as long as I have air in my lungs and a mind to try hard, I will protect my Daughter from Hate, Anger and Fear like many friends and family and I who have young kids agree on “WE WILL NOT ALLOW OUR KIDS TO GROW UP AND BECOME SELFISH AND UNCARING PEOPLE” And I refuse to do this with my Daughters, AT ANY COST! Even if it hurts me to walk away totally.

I wish I felt the emotion to this picture….1975 I think

WHAT THE HELL HAPPENED TO THIS WORLD? I remember a Family so close on all sides, then I seen Drink and Drugs, abuse, hatred and more and people just slowly did what I IRONICALLY AM SAYING HERE…They just walked away! The old saying of “If you can’t beat them, join them” seems my only option for my Daughters. This rant, as it will be called a rant! if anything, it’s just a confused question of ‘HOW AND WHY’ can I help two little girls see love and happiness? I will do my best to search for answers for MY 2 DAUGHTERS!!! I must therefore be like the rest and turn around, walk away and say “I love you, but I must look after my own”

THE IRONY OF IT ALL IS KILLING ME! I am fucking BADLY disabled, my body lives in pain and my mind is FUCKED. Yet I feel I am the only person looking at our kids, all our kids, globally and thinking “HOW CAN I MAKE IT BETTER” – But then I pause, reflect, and KNOW there are people like me who want to mend the ‘Broken Family Unit’. How we sit back and allow each other to hurt and die alone, how we allow our minds to be turned by actions of perversion be them literal or fiscal is beyond my thoughts.

….I am lost, but I must find a way for 2 little girls. AT ANY AND ALL COST. No longer will I allow myself to be #Anger #Fear or #Hate, I purged my soul of these 3 deadly emotions. Sadly most people I see have not, most have 1 or 2 or all 3 emotions of Anger, fear and hate. Why?

It was ACTUALLY fun before….. lol – That is me crying North-West Scotland as my Sibling laughs 😀 Good times!!

Whoever reads this, and I only get about 300/500 reads per day these days [NOT THAT NUMBERS MATTER, I would rather 50 REAL people read it than 1,000 uncaring people read this, I am asking why has our World walked away from itself and to what? Money the illusion of happiness through the illusion of money?  But then I know people reading this will just point the finger back at me and my kind, and allow the circle of #Anger #Hate and #Fear to be in their very minds and souls, and transmit it to their own. So I MUST protect my girls from these emotions, so they grow to be free from these emotions. IF IT’S MY LAST ACT AS A HUMAN, THEN SO BE IT, I ACCEPT THE CHALLENGE WITH LOVE AND A SMILE.

 

When in Rome……..You know the rest surely! We give up on each other too easily. Why?

#Peace

I miss them all…All I knew!

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From your past – Hello – I love you – From the Grave – To my Future

I don’t write much these days, I don’t know why, it gave me a voice, an opinion, made me feel human just for a little while. Many say even today “Shaun and that stupid blog of his”, yet they have not read one line of this or any others. So today I explain to my future what I did in your past. See, this blog is here forever, I paid for a lifetime URL, and this will be here when I die, hopefully in my sleep age 94 or something 😀 Many people say “I would love to leave something behind” It could be a song, a poem, a saying, anything really. I will leave you some images and songs for you to look back on too, why not? Music is all I can see in 2017 that does not divide our species, everything else keeps us hating or just not liking. I may be right, I may be wrong, but I AM GOING TO BE HONEST WITH YOU. How can I lie to our future when I can only tell the truth of today?

♫ Bob Marley ♪ Redemption Song + Lyrics ♫

I was thinking about this tonight, I am in an ‘awake all night, sleep all day’ sleeping pattern, or stuck in one again, they come and go, I have 4 life changing disabilites, click HERE to know them, they might still exist for you, if not, I give you a look into a 2017 disabled mind, use it well 😀 Back in 2017 the medicine you read about in your time are awful, but that good medicine was withheld from us, you have the truth and free healthcare I hope.The proof and the means to look back to all versions of Earths past and ask ‘WHY’ are hard to do today, you might be just as confused, so I am going to give you my stupid version of why, a try.

It is very simple, back in 2017, or right now, 20th April 2017 at around 03:30am on a cold Scottish Thursday morning, we are a species so asleep, so oppressed we don’t even know it or why. As you might just have read, some of us are fully aware of the World back in 2017. We know its hell, its heaven, of course if Religion is still alive whoever you are, in whatever time in my future you read this. Religion KILLED our species in my time, I am CERTAIN if you are reading this 100 years or 500 years from now, you will be asking “How could our species be so dumb and easy to control” I and MILLIONS of others ask this today, 20th April 2017.

They [Do you know why THEY are?] <Click) used Religion, Politics, Sport, TV, Internet like this (Ironic huh, lol) and much more to keep us distracted and in fear, or happy and blissfully unaware or uncaring of what is around us. A Religious mind is a very selfish mind in my time. They call it “The fear of God”, I call it “The Fear of the unknown”, see I have disabilities, are they were called back in 2017, as you will see with the images I left at the foot of this blog. I am medicated and alone, probably through unconscious un-deliberate ways I have no idea why I do it? I don’t know, I am just trying to stay alive for those who need me. Technology was and is our biggest enemy, it controlled our EVERY DAY in 2017 and a decade before, God (Ironic to mention him, I know) knows what the future will become due to technology!

As I type, 1/7th of our Species use just this 1 technological device, but there is MUCH more

I envy you, be you reading this in 50 years or 5,000 years from now or anywhere in-between or after. I envy the World you will live in, free from invisible oppression and fear, or the deliberate trick that money or the need or want of money gives people in my time, people THINK money will cure Cancer and all other bad things in 2017, people crave something they don’t even understand. I have been poor and rich, all I can tell you in the future or anyone reading today is “Money won’t cure you if you have issues, no it will only make them worse”. You are from the future, use whatever search function you may have to look for things like “Man wastes £10 Million lottery win in a year” or whatever the story, because most people who win money, sadly end up losing not money always, but they lose, mostly. Yet money rules my World in 2017, Religion is Tax free and Religion has the most money, if I told you the ‘Wealth of the Church<Click) in 2017, you probably already know, if you don’t just click that link, if it is still live. If it isn’t, all I can say is The Wealth of Religion could wipe out Global Debt and make every man, woman and child rich. That is the DAMNING statement of 2017 Human species, ironic too

The UTTER IRONY, people like myself must battle for life and love

I could go on and on to you, reading this from whatever future my selfish 2017 gives you, but it’s all here, you can still search anything on my blog from this time period that may interest you about our shared World we live or lived in. Also I speak for our species when I say “Sorry for leaving you such a horrible World” PLEASE understand many of us tried to help, tried to awaken the ‘Sheeple; as we called them, those so asleep through oppression of any kind, religion or money of any taking or bad health, people living in War zones, sadly as I type this around 18% of people on this Earth are living in a War Zone. Kids are murdered every day, but TV, Internet, Pizza delivery to watch a movie, self debt, self doubt, selfish minds, rich minds, religious minds, I could AGAIN, go on and on as to WHY. Imagine a World so pure, that the RIGHT THING was just seen as natural and the thing we JUST DID, someone left a message for that too, people like me kept listening

♫ John Lennon ♪ Imagine ♫

There. I just left a message to the future, and NOBODY can erase it. But all over my ‘Social Media’ I have used this image here below. It is an image of Good Vs Bad, Hate Vs Love, about our fragile World, from a movie called ‘I am Legend’ <Click) where the Human Race has killed itself, 1 man remains in this movie. In the image below he is quoting ‘Bob Marley’ , <Click) the amazing singer and songwriter who died when I was a very young child, whos songs where this movies soundtrack. But he too left something for the future. I JUST realised in a moment of boredom tonight “I too can leave something for the future” – And I just said it all, well as much as I could 😉 Also, or PS: I may have just annoyed, angered half our species here, or made half smile, I might never know, you on the other hand, will know. If God is real, find a way to tell me please 😀 I am being funny and facetious and light hearted here, but I WILL be judged today. What about your Day? Am I being judged or loved? I only EVER asked for love, but Human EGO got in the way. Sad but true I am afraid 🙂

If anyone I love happens to stop judging this blog and are reading it? Hey, and thank you, and I love you ❤

OUR battle between God and Devil, good or bad, or for me, opinion Vrs oppression

From 2017….

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Skype Username: shaunyg1973
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