The Human Chaos Theory

The Human Chaos Theory is something I noted last year sometime and today in a rare moment of half clarity I can spend a few hours listening to music while watching both our Worlds go by from my view and add words to a though that we all think. I woke up from a bad dream if I remember or maybe a confusing dream and I left myself a little note called ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. Back then all I could think was the title, this morning on a cold Scottish morning again I woke up after a dream and I now have the words to place here, or least enough words to start, maybe you can add more?. I will try and put my point across as quickly as I can, because I know the human condition, it has little time in its hour of boredom to be awoken, it is self serving, egotistical, wanting for things they already have, we believe money will cure us, when in-fact money harms us, but we also have the capacity for love and a level of caring we claim to behold on each other, yet we lie, I have lied, so have you. Money harms us in our day to day, and it harms our World through many means on a daily basis. We see it on the TV News or any medium of information giving and gathering, we give it a name in a moment, then we want the very thing we see destroying our World, but this is not all about money, it’s about HOW YOU THINK AND WHY

“Shaun, why do think so deeply?” is a question I personally as a human have had to answer too many times to too many people, but today I answer back with love, the ONLY emotion I can bring to any table these days. What makes us unhappy? What makes you unhappy as you read this? What makes you unhappy today, what made you unhappy yesterday and all the yesterdays before it? What will make you unhappy tonight and tomorrow and all the tomorrows to come? That is the question, the only question I can ask. And I again, I ask the World, not just you, no, please! Don’t be so selfish to think this is ABOUT YOU. There is your first lesson on the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’, but please keep in mind, in this moment you might be happy, I am trying to understand what makes me happy and unhappy and I am starting to think in most cases I bring it all onto myself, the same as you do, the same as our species do, but why? We can be happy or sad, yet the emotion I see most is hate and anger in our World, this confuses me and I know I am not alone

I see people as I sit here slowly typing away, I can look out 2 windows, I just seen an old woman from around the corner with walking sticks happily walking her two dogs and I looked up, smiled and gave her a little wave, she smiled and waved back. THAT WAS A HUMAN MOMENT, it was free as it was honest and these are the moments I personally look for every day. I am not the same person as I was last week, never mind 20 years ago or a year ago, but neither are any of us the same person we were in any yesterday we care to look back at.

A old wise man tells me often “Shaun, I cry for humanity” and he does on his level, when I was younger he would say this and I would just take it as a passing comment, today I feel it too, so whoever this old wise man is, thank you from the bottom of my soul for forcing me to look around myself and my own soul. The ability to just sit back with utter clarity of mind and see a butterfly is something money can’t buy you or anyone you know. I wish I could be better enough in my soul to see more of these moments, and I used butterfly as 1 example from an endless list of examples including of course things I will never see or feel, but this should not stop me or you from striving to feel that moment again or try and ask “Can you feel these small moments we often miss because our mind was elsewhere”, if your mind is elsewhere, then ask why? You are in a good place, if you can read this you are one of the lucky ones. I could share hell on Earth with you, but we get scared of it, not till hell or bad comes to our doors do we question the suffering our World places on us all, by each other and by lifes forces, that I don’t think we as a species have figured out, we are a young species, we are growing so fast yet so slowly at the same time, can you see it or feel it? Or don’t you care? Whatever the answer is, that is ok, just don’t harm others in your logical conclusions

We are nasty to each other, I have been nasty to people. We are egotistical against each other’s and the reason I can admit this and say this is I have been ego myself. My God! Writing this blog alone will pull the human ego in and I WILL BE JUDGED. But why? What makes others judge what is not theirs when there is no need to judge? I see people with kids who focus on only their own kids, but I also see people with kids who focus on other people’s kids with many emotions attached. This confuses me a lot. I have two little girls who call me Daddy 100 times a day, you may have people who call you Mum or Dad too or maybe they are too young to name the love they have for you yet? It doesn’t matter however, just accept that love and own it, keep it and call it your own, but please World, don’t deny others this same love or freedom of spirit to evolve forward for a better them, aimed at a better World

Our World is evil, and I don’t add God or the Devil or the bible or scripture written by other humans many hundreds of years ago, but I do 100% respect others who will apply God to this and think of him as I did the butterfly. Am I making any sense to your soul yet? I don’t ask to be named, tagger or labelled, but I will be, but so will you be, you have been and you always will be by our ‘Human Chaos Theory’ that is destructive in our face as we see it on our TVs and Internet. I observe in the same way a comedian does, the same way a musical does, the same as any art form looking for inspiration to write or think freely to imagine a better World with better people. I am no saint, but I am aiming to become one. It took me 43 years of living with Humans to understand, or at least start to understand the flaws and imbalance in our species that loves to place hard emotions on each other but are selfish with our feelings too and deny others the freedom of love. I am a medicated man so what you read here today is from a Disabled person from 2017 trying to figure out a World not of my making, a species not of my doing, emotions thrown at me from birth the same as you, I try to think past them, I think sideways because I refuse to go back or forward, we live RIGHT NOW and nowhere else. Right this moment you are alive! Yesterday is a memory and tomorrow is a wish or a guess, realise it and accept it, and I promise you the fruits of the World can be yours TO SHARE

I KNOW ANGRY, BECAUSE I WAS ANGRY

I KNOW SUFFERING, BECAUSE I HAVE SUFFERED

I KNOW PAIN BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN

I KNOW HATE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEEN HATEFUL

I KNOW MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD NONE

I HATE MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD SOME

I LOVE MY KIDS BECAUSE I KNOW MY PARENTS LOVE

I UNDERSTAND THE DEPTHS OF HELL BECAUSE I HAVE DINED WITH THE DEVIL

I UNDERSTAND GODS LOVE BECAUSE I HAVE DECIDED TO FEEL HIS LOVE

I NEVER ASK GOD FOR ‘ANYTHING’, I THANK GOD, EVERY DAY, HAVE DONE SINCE I WAS A WEE BOY

I SEE A SPECIES SO LOST, BECAUSE I WAS ONCE LOST

I SEE PEOPLE CRAVE THINGS THEY ALREADY HAVE IF THEY JUST LOOK AROUND

I SEE EMPTY PEOPLE READY TO BE FILLED WITH LIFE, BECAUSE I HAVE BE BEEN LIFELESS

I SEE SHALLOW PEOPLE BECAUSE I WAS ONCE AN EMPTY VESEL OF A PERSON

BUT I SEE THE HOPE WE ALL SHARE FOR A BETTER WORLD BECAUSE I HAVE FELT ITS HOPE

I SEE WHAT WE CAN BECOME BECAUSE I HAVE SEEN WHAT WE ARE

I SEE THE BEAUTY IN A PERSON BECAUSE I HAVE FELT UGLY

I HAVE FELT UGLY BECAUSE OF MY BEATY, I HAVE FELT BY BEAUTY BECAUSE I FELT UGLY

I CHOOSE TO TRY BECAUSE I HAVE GIVEN UP, I CHOOSE TO SMILE BECAUSE I HAVE CRIED

I CHOOSE TO BE HUMAN AND CARING, BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN NASTY AND HURT PEOPLE

Now keep repeating these lines over and over, till they stick in your mind for life. Or keep doing as you are doing and hope you get a life you want. Either way you have a choice, you have a final say in this World. Many say “I can’t change the World”, I have said it myself, but I have changed MY WORLD many times, have you? And right there you felt the emotion of ‘boasting’, yet I was not boasting, I was sharing what we all can be. And that is a better human for you, your loves ones and also our fragile Earth. You can add more or you can mock my Worlds, all I know is I am now ready to face what the final chapters of my life have for me, but I have some say in what I will become. I am a very fragile man, but I ask for no help because I have taught myself I can be anyone, be anything. I can lay down and listen to a song and own it as my own, I can watch a movie that moved me and play the part. Why should we all stop doing these things now? It’s all we have ever been doing for the love of God. Unique is my goal, I can’t blend in to my World, but I do blend into The World. I am becoming the best version of Shaun I can be for other people, what about you? Whatever you choose to do, please don’t make others suffer while you do it because this emotion will one day drag you down to levels you have taken others. Choose to lift people up because one day you may need lifted, don’t leave yourself alone as I have. I may be too late to bring people I love back but I am at one with what I done, my door has a bell and you can also knock it, you can call me, you don’t have to be alone, alone is choice sadly. But when we have no choices, how can we choose? It is all hard to take in isnt it? But this is living I am told. So how do you judge your own actions as a person, or do you even judge yourself, the first person we should judge each day is ourselves, yet we throw our own selves away and cast our emotions on others. And that is the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT IS ALL WE HAVE, lets choose to live today and accept the future as we build it together. Forget Politicians as they lie, Religion is your own call, if your heart has fear who am I to stop you connecting to God in your way? The very things that divide us are there for all to see, but the only thing left that can unite us is below in a song, and to the right hand side of this as you read it, I plant seeds in my own mind before I can even try and help another. Define away, but first define your own. The only emotion used in this 3 hours typing marathon was LOVE. But I ask, what did you feel? Only you can cause chaos and fit another emotion, or just feel love, YOU HAVE THE CHOICE. Start to apply and then you can never again deny

MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

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THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

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WHY IT MAY BE GOOD TO TALK TO YOURSELF!

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The Human mind is TRULY an amazing, yet confusing thing. I am trying to figure it out. I am now asking how many famous people went crazy trying you understand who they, others, our brains act in the way they do. Right now I am JUST SO BORED. Boredom to me is never a good think having 4 Disabilities, M.E. (Myalgic Encephalomyelitis) + Fibromyalgia + PTSD and Psychosis as they can take over. A small action usually is the trigger for me, big things I can usually just walk past or over, the smallest of things can get me over-thinking and it’s not always a good thing. Right now I am going for ‘Funny’, but I can’t be sure this will be funny 😀 If anything, our brains are good fun, I mean if we all were serious and angry in our thinking, it would rip us to pieces, trust me, I been there, I still might be there 😀 All I go do is live in moments (I think). I may look at this tomorrow and think “Oh Shaun, Why”, because often I do. But let’s get real here, who do I harm? Answer! NOBODY 😀 Cheer up World.. TRUST ME, IT COULD BE OH, SO WORSE. Maybe……….. lol. Anyway, a stupid thought created this copy and paste below. Enjoy…..

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  1. Give yourself a shoutout. Even if no one else seems to be appreciating you at the moment, compliment yourself on the way you handled a difficult situation, left your comfort zone for a new adventure, or just got through a busy day.
  2. Give yourself a pep talk. We could all use a motivational speaker from time to time, but we don’t always have one handy. Self-talk can help you motivate yourself to achieve a goal at work, in a relationship, or in your personal behavior.
  3. Debate both sides of a difficult decision. Saying your options out loud and elaborating on the pros and cons can help bring the right choice to light, and you might be surprised at the unexpected direction your thoughts take when they’re audible.
  4. Blow off steam. If you’re not the type to confront people who tick you off, talk to yourself about how they bother you or how unfair a situation is. Introverts are especially prone to missing opportunities to assert themselves. Put the “self” back in self-assertion.
  5. Understand your thoughts better. Sometimes we’re sure we think one way, but our psyche tells us differently. Have you ever found yourself crying when you didn’t think anything was wrong? That’s your subconscious letting you know. Invite it to join your conversation to bring you to new levels of self-awareness.
  6. Rehearse a difficult conversation. Practicing what you need to say to get your points across clearly and without anger will put you in a much better position when it comes time to communicate about a tough issue.
  7. Boost your memory. Research shows that saying the location out loud when you place an object will help you remember where you put it.
  8. Shake off stress and anxiety. Who couldn’t use one more way to get rid of stress? Work it through with a monologue.
  9. Improve attention span and concentration. Indeed, many people with ADD talk to themselves to help bring a tangle of thoughts into focus. Notice how often you see athletes muttering under their breath before an event; they’re calming themselves down (#8) and pumping themselves up (#2). It works.
  10. Improve attention span and concentration. Indeed, many people with ADD talk to themselves to help bring a tangle of thoughts into focus. Notice how often you see athletes muttering under their breath before an event; they’re calming themselves down (#8) and pumping themselves up (#2). It works.Leaving my husband and daughter at home, I took a 2-mile walk, stretching my legs and my mind as I chattered to myself about my blessings, complaints, and confusions. I didn’t solve everything that had been bothering me, but I did lift some weight from my shoulders by listening to the sound of my own voice as it brought forth some notions I hadn’t been aware of.

    So whenever you see people talking to themselves, remember that it’s a sign of sanity, not insanity. It makes us wiser, calmer, and more motivated. What are you waiting for? I can’t hear you.

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Living in pain with a brain illness – I am starting to understand things and people

7d8e410624cc96efade256b0d5aaf563I removed my stupid self from Facebook and a lot of other things in the last week, but I had good reason. Just now a family member is being annoyed by some idiot next door, pissing on my family members door mat, tapping the door then running away, threatening them, basically being a coward. I wanted to go to this person’s door and just have it dealt with, but family thought it WISE to call the police, and that is not how I deal with a ‘LIBERTY TAKER’ Someone who will do things to try and alter the mind of another to any given emotion. I think these ‘Liberty takers’ are cowards, real men just say to face or just jog on, that is all I know, so the restraint needed to not just go to this person’s door and finish this is very difficult for me, but over the last week in holding back seeing a family member suffer at the hands of a Coward it made me see something in myself, through my 4 disabilities

I am a person who can sleep like a happy baby with ANY emotion in my mind, I have the ability to sleep after someone says “I am going to kill you” or whatever crap people say. See real people just kill you, cowards give you the time and date so I just say “OK, we will be out, thanks for the heads up arsehole” 😀

d1660f22dbf09af7823b7ddcf50088eaThis new drug I am on MST Continus is a bit strong, but it is taken morning and night and is slow release, it differs from my old medication I was on in the way it doesn’t give you one big hit of pain relief at once, no, this just slowly enters your mind and body and you feel it, I can feel it in my mind. Strange thing the mind, I always want to be in full control of my mind, I never allow any person to enter my mind and try and own it, never going to happen. People have tried to play childish games with me in the past and always I slept well and didn’t give them thought. For me as a disabled guy living in agony and a mind that is hard to keep in check as it can be confusing with Fibromyalgia and M.E/CFS. Because I am in the Gym hitting leather and PVC every day I am needing flesh to hit, and the person annoying my family member was a target for my mind for a day or 2, but I managed to get rid of the idea of tying the prick to a chair and keeping him alive. I don’t mean that, it’s just a thought. I don’t play well with cowards, I tend to just deal with them and move on, I refuse to allow another to own my mind. But as I am off 5 different medications and now on 2 new ones I am trying to find my centre again, trying to re-establish where I am and what is around me. Always as a young kid my Dad would say to me “Know who is around you son, in-front, behind and at each side” and as a kid I never really got it, but I do now, I taught my own son’s this and I think they may struggle to understand it 😀 Life is very, VERY easy, and I prefer to live with a quiet mind, I own my thought and nobody can ever take that from me. They can mock, hit, play, do what they will, but not one person can control or own my mind, and that is what I am learning again. The man I used to be would just go and finish the story, get it over with and just go home as if nothing happened. Today I have two wee girls to help grow up, so I needed to grow up. This is why I came off Dr’s Heroin and am killing myself in the Gym every day. My mind, my entire being is for my family, I come 2nd because I can control my World, but I am noticing others can’t. It is what it is right?

11416159_10207009625624143_6777975463268398855_nBe good World, life can hit us from any side, in-front, behind or either side at any moment and we are left regretting we didn’t look to see what was around us. Don’t be paranoid with this, just understand EVERYTHING and EVERYONE around you, then you own your World. People say “But I can’t change the World” I say back “So go and change your own World” If we all did this, our World would be a better place I believe. Also, denying what and who we are, becoming something else or different because life said so can make us all very ill and unwell. I think we must always be ourselves and never deny who we are. Trust me, I seen it, made it, cleaned it, made the mess, you name it I done it, and got the preverbial T-Shirt to say so. Be yourself, don’t be someone else. Or life will hit you like a ton of bricks because you were not looking at what is around you, your mind was in a state of NOWHERE. Know who, what, whoever, whatever is around you, and the bricks miss you

More love, less hate

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‘My Political Views’ – In One Simple Image

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I always love it when I see someone else post how I feel. I seen this on Twitter and HAD to share. Some images can be so powerful

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How people perceive, and getting our message across to others

communication-and-interpersonal-skills-24-638Something that has been on my mind all day, so I am bored, so here I am blogging it

The title explains what I am about to say, but not until you have fully read it will you know what I am talking about. I am not one to care what others think of me, never have, never will, if I was that type of person, I probably would not be blogging this or any blog about any subject outside football

I have a few friends who give me a hard time doing this blog, they joke about it, but deep down I know they are really thinking “He is off his head” That is cool, because there are thing they do I don’t understand, I just don’t judge them, but it is all in fun

I started blogging Soccer, so people seen me blogging a year ago, when I started blogging about me and my world and how I perceive it, I did so on the QT, I didn’t really tell many Family or Friends. Many reasons, one, they might not care and two; I didn’t think it had anything to do with them. Recently I blog the odd thing I write onto Facebook, and it get’s like one comment and 2 likes, lol

With blogging it is all about whom you are blogging to and what you are blogging about. For me, as I have said, this has been a wonderful experience for me so far. What people think, I don’t care, as I say, I have many family members and friends, and many of them do things that would make me want to cry out of boredom, you get the picture

So I ask you, are you self conscious of what others think of you blogging? Do you hide it from your life? I mean your day to day stuff, away from the Internet? I used to, then I thought to myself one day “If someone dislikes me due to what I write, then they can go throw shit at themselves” or words to that effect. See I think we all do try to have an impact on others, but maybe only in here, in the blogosphere, on the internet.

I blog for “Bloggers for Peace” and “Master Peace” as well as blogging my own stuff, the Bloggers for Peace on here, I guess I was already on that page. So I try to make a difference, but trying to make that difference away from this blog and the internet is the real challenge. So I often wonder if what others think of us stops us from really trying to help and bring change. I blog the odd thing to my Facebook, just to test the water, and nothing! So either all my family and friends don’t give a shit, or they are too lazy to read.

So what I am saying is, many here want and try to change our earth, how can we bring change to people’s minds who are not here, and in what other ways can we get the message off the internet and into the street? I am talking in a “you and I” level here

Just thought I would throw that one out there

Shaun

Get busy living or get busy dying

Thanks to the Shawshank Redemption for this saying

Thanks to the Shawshank Redemption for this saying

Dealing with being pissed off at being in pain and other things

Yesterday and today, although better today my yearly Sinus issue begun. I am to take antihistamines each day, and I wasn’t, so I paid for it yesterday. I spent the day STRUGGLING to do normal things. Already in agony with my normal Chronic Pain I had to deal with this Migraine, right behind my eyes and my sinus was blocked and also shooting pains in both ears

Some days I wake up and “Pray for one day” Just one day where I don’t have to deal with this. Again, I say this and I get guilty. And I know now I shouldn’t but I can’t help it, others tell me this, some who are well worse off than I. People who have no movement from the neck down to people dying, all telling, me not to feel this guilt, it is just my way, I can’t change it, but I guess it is my pain, my story, my life and my blog, so I have to learn to share, as I have been, with no guilt, and I do try

As a kid my Mother tells me I got ill often, as an adult I just don’t get ill, no flu’s, no colds. No nothing. I wasn’t ill yesterday; I was just sore, but in another way. Dealing with EVERY DAY! Is becoming tiresome, annoying, painful, upsetting, brings anger and hate! And I don’t do hate. I just hate having to burden my family with my issues, again, I am being stupid, they tell me this, people on here have told me this, but again, these are my feelings

Someone asked “What is the pain like” I answered “All over body toothache” This is the best way I can describe my pain. Others will have other ways to describe it, this is how I describe my pain, all over toothache, and only all day and every time I frikkin blink!

So getting annoyed is a symptom for me, getting angry, and depression is another. I am not depressed; I have not been told I am clinically depressed. I went to speak to an expert and had him in stitches of laughter; he knew I wasn’t depressed; I just got angry when the pain came.

I am tired. I need to rest, but I am stubborn, I don’t listen to my body. When my body tells me to rest, I don’t, and I should, so this is something I need to break through. If my body tells me to rest I rest. This is all new to me.  I have had this way over 10 years, but only the last few years have these thoughts came to my mind. I hope by restarting Soccer management and buying a Dog to walk will at least allow me to build up my muscles. I have been told and advised by my Dr, the Hospital and my occupational therapist to do both. “Get Moving” they tell me, and I have started, but with it comes enormous pain

I am fighting harder than I have, I am pushing myself to the limit, both mind and body, in the hope  I can break free from the mind games I play with myself. Pain is pain, no matter what I do, I will be in pain, and it is just the levels. I am testing myself to the limit here and if the pain is stronger, tough, I need to get back to living, I need to get out of this self created bubble and get out there again, doing things I love. Should I fail, I don’t know what I will do.

So, get busy living, or get busy dying

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Sorry For your Loss

I woke up this morning to an email from one of my friends to say her Aunt had died. Just a message to say, I am here for you

At times like this Anger can sweep away memories of the person who passed. For now think of your loved one who has passed and nothing else, remember your loved one fondly and remember she is in a good place now. She had a long fulfilling life

I know you are angry with other emotions also, but for now remember whom you have lost.

I am here, as always as a friend should you need me. Always

With love and hugs from afar, Shaun x

One night a man had a dream.
He dreamed he was walking along
the beach with the Lord.

Across the dark sky flashed scenes from his life.
For each scene, he noticed
two sets of footprints in the sand,
one belonging to him and the other to the Lord.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,
he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life
there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the
very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it.

“Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you,
you’d walk with me all the way.
But I have noticed that during the most
troublesome times in my life there is
only one set of footprints.
I don’t understand why when I needed you most
you would leave me.”

The Lord replied “My precious, precious child,
I love you and would never leave you.
During your times of trial and suffering,
when you see only one set of footprints in the sand,
it was then that I carried you.”

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