The Human Chaos Theory

The Human Chaos Theory is something I noted last year sometime and today in a rare moment of half clarity I can spend a few hours listening to music while watching both our Worlds go by from my view and add words to a though that we all think. I woke up from a bad dream if I remember or maybe a confusing dream and I left myself a little note called ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. Back then all I could think was the title, this morning on a cold Scottish morning again I woke up after a dream and I now have the words to place here, or least enough words to start, maybe you can add more?. I will try and put my point across as quickly as I can, because I know the human condition, it has little time in its hour of boredom to be awoken, it is self serving, egotistical, wanting for things they already have, we believe money will cure us, when in-fact money harms us, but we also have the capacity for love and a level of caring we claim to behold on each other, yet we lie, I have lied, so have you. Money harms us in our day to day, and it harms our World through many means on a daily basis. We see it on the TV News or any medium of information giving and gathering, we give it a name in a moment, then we want the very thing we see destroying our World, but this is not all about money, it’s about HOW YOU THINK AND WHY

“Shaun, why do think so deeply?” is a question I personally as a human have had to answer too many times to too many people, but today I answer back with love, the ONLY emotion I can bring to any table these days. What makes us unhappy? What makes you unhappy as you read this? What makes you unhappy today, what made you unhappy yesterday and all the yesterdays before it? What will make you unhappy tonight and tomorrow and all the tomorrows to come? That is the question, the only question I can ask. And I again, I ask the World, not just you, no, please! Don’t be so selfish to think this is ABOUT YOU. There is your first lesson on the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’, but please keep in mind, in this moment you might be happy, I am trying to understand what makes me happy and unhappy and I am starting to think in most cases I bring it all onto myself, the same as you do, the same as our species do, but why? We can be happy or sad, yet the emotion I see most is hate and anger in our World, this confuses me and I know I am not alone

I see people as I sit here slowly typing away, I can look out 2 windows, I just seen an old woman from around the corner with walking sticks happily walking her two dogs and I looked up, smiled and gave her a little wave, she smiled and waved back. THAT WAS A HUMAN MOMENT, it was free as it was honest and these are the moments I personally look for every day. I am not the same person as I was last week, never mind 20 years ago or a year ago, but neither are any of us the same person we were in any yesterday we care to look back at.

A old wise man tells me often “Shaun, I cry for humanity” and he does on his level, when I was younger he would say this and I would just take it as a passing comment, today I feel it too, so whoever this old wise man is, thank you from the bottom of my soul for forcing me to look around myself and my own soul. The ability to just sit back with utter clarity of mind and see a butterfly is something money can’t buy you or anyone you know. I wish I could be better enough in my soul to see more of these moments, and I used butterfly as 1 example from an endless list of examples including of course things I will never see or feel, but this should not stop me or you from striving to feel that moment again or try and ask “Can you feel these small moments we often miss because our mind was elsewhere”, if your mind is elsewhere, then ask why? You are in a good place, if you can read this you are one of the lucky ones. I could share hell on Earth with you, but we get scared of it, not till hell or bad comes to our doors do we question the suffering our World places on us all, by each other and by lifes forces, that I don’t think we as a species have figured out, we are a young species, we are growing so fast yet so slowly at the same time, can you see it or feel it? Or don’t you care? Whatever the answer is, that is ok, just don’t harm others in your logical conclusions

We are nasty to each other, I have been nasty to people. We are egotistical against each other’s and the reason I can admit this and say this is I have been ego myself. My God! Writing this blog alone will pull the human ego in and I WILL BE JUDGED. But why? What makes others judge what is not theirs when there is no need to judge? I see people with kids who focus on only their own kids, but I also see people with kids who focus on other people’s kids with many emotions attached. This confuses me a lot. I have two little girls who call me Daddy 100 times a day, you may have people who call you Mum or Dad too or maybe they are too young to name the love they have for you yet? It doesn’t matter however, just accept that love and own it, keep it and call it your own, but please World, don’t deny others this same love or freedom of spirit to evolve forward for a better them, aimed at a better World

Our World is evil, and I don’t add God or the Devil or the bible or scripture written by other humans many hundreds of years ago, but I do 100% respect others who will apply God to this and think of him as I did the butterfly. Am I making any sense to your soul yet? I don’t ask to be named, tagger or labelled, but I will be, but so will you be, you have been and you always will be by our ‘Human Chaos Theory’ that is destructive in our face as we see it on our TVs and Internet. I observe in the same way a comedian does, the same way a musical does, the same as any art form looking for inspiration to write or think freely to imagine a better World with better people. I am no saint, but I am aiming to become one. It took me 43 years of living with Humans to understand, or at least start to understand the flaws and imbalance in our species that loves to place hard emotions on each other but are selfish with our feelings too and deny others the freedom of love. I am a medicated man so what you read here today is from a Disabled person from 2017 trying to figure out a World not of my making, a species not of my doing, emotions thrown at me from birth the same as you, I try to think past them, I think sideways because I refuse to go back or forward, we live RIGHT NOW and nowhere else. Right this moment you are alive! Yesterday is a memory and tomorrow is a wish or a guess, realise it and accept it, and I promise you the fruits of the World can be yours TO SHARE

I KNOW ANGRY, BECAUSE I WAS ANGRY

I KNOW SUFFERING, BECAUSE I HAVE SUFFERED

I KNOW PAIN BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN IN PAIN

I KNOW HATE BECAUSE I HAVE BEEEN HATEFUL

I KNOW MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD NONE

I HATE MONEY BECAUSE I HAVE HAD SOME

I LOVE MY KIDS BECAUSE I KNOW MY PARENTS LOVE

I UNDERSTAND THE DEPTHS OF HELL BECAUSE I HAVE DINED WITH THE DEVIL

I UNDERSTAND GODS LOVE BECAUSE I HAVE DECIDED TO FEEL HIS LOVE

I NEVER ASK GOD FOR ‘ANYTHING’, I THANK GOD, EVERY DAY, HAVE DONE SINCE I WAS A WEE BOY

I SEE A SPECIES SO LOST, BECAUSE I WAS ONCE LOST

I SEE PEOPLE CRAVE THINGS THEY ALREADY HAVE IF THEY JUST LOOK AROUND

I SEE EMPTY PEOPLE READY TO BE FILLED WITH LIFE, BECAUSE I HAVE BE BEEN LIFELESS

I SEE SHALLOW PEOPLE BECAUSE I WAS ONCE AN EMPTY VESEL OF A PERSON

BUT I SEE THE HOPE WE ALL SHARE FOR A BETTER WORLD BECAUSE I HAVE FELT ITS HOPE

I SEE WHAT WE CAN BECOME BECAUSE I HAVE SEEN WHAT WE ARE

I SEE THE BEAUTY IN A PERSON BECAUSE I HAVE FELT UGLY

I HAVE FELT UGLY BECAUSE OF MY BEATY, I HAVE FELT BY BEAUTY BECAUSE I FELT UGLY

I CHOOSE TO TRY BECAUSE I HAVE GIVEN UP, I CHOOSE TO SMILE BECAUSE I HAVE CRIED

I CHOOSE TO BE HUMAN AND CARING, BECAUSE I HAVE BEEN NASTY AND HURT PEOPLE

Now keep repeating these lines over and over, till they stick in your mind for life. Or keep doing as you are doing and hope you get a life you want. Either way you have a choice, you have a final say in this World. Many say “I can’t change the World”, I have said it myself, but I have changed MY WORLD many times, have you? And right there you felt the emotion of ‘boasting’, yet I was not boasting, I was sharing what we all can be. And that is a better human for you, your loves ones and also our fragile Earth. You can add more or you can mock my Worlds, all I know is I am now ready to face what the final chapters of my life have for me, but I have some say in what I will become. I am a very fragile man, but I ask for no help because I have taught myself I can be anyone, be anything. I can lay down and listen to a song and own it as my own, I can watch a movie that moved me and play the part. Why should we all stop doing these things now? It’s all we have ever been doing for the love of God. Unique is my goal, I can’t blend in to my World, but I do blend into The World. I am becoming the best version of Shaun I can be for other people, what about you? Whatever you choose to do, please don’t make others suffer while you do it because this emotion will one day drag you down to levels you have taken others. Choose to lift people up because one day you may need lifted, don’t leave yourself alone as I have. I may be too late to bring people I love back but I am at one with what I done, my door has a bell and you can also knock it, you can call me, you don’t have to be alone, alone is choice sadly. But when we have no choices, how can we choose? It is all hard to take in isnt it? But this is living I am told. So how do you judge your own actions as a person, or do you even judge yourself, the first person we should judge each day is ourselves, yet we throw our own selves away and cast our emotions on others. And that is the ‘The Human Chaos Theory’. THE BUTTERFLY EFFECT IS ALL WE HAVE, lets choose to live today and accept the future as we build it together. Forget Politicians as they lie, Religion is your own call, if your heart has fear who am I to stop you connecting to God in your way? The very things that divide us are there for all to see, but the only thing left that can unite us is below in a song, and to the right hand side of this as you read it, I plant seeds in my own mind before I can even try and help another. Define away, but first define your own. The only emotion used in this 3 hours typing marathon was LOVE. But I ask, what did you feel? Only you can cause chaos and fit another emotion, or just feel love, YOU HAVE THE CHOICE. Start to apply and then you can never again deny

MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

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THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

THIS DOES NOT REPRESENT ALL DISABLED PEOPLE

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THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS – THIS REPRESENTS ‘BETTER’ FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

 

Angels On My Side

My 2 Daughters are making me live again

My 2 Daughters are making me live again

I am not re-blogging again, more just a ‘Hey, how are you doing’ – I am done with my Gym work as it just got too hard, but the weight is gone. I sleep most of the day these days, but I am daring to show the World that ”Disabled People’ or any people cannot just dream, they can act, they can do, become, create and make moments others can feel also. I am about to ROAR again as losing my voice, or ability to be a ‘Team Player’ in life shattered my soul. I have 3 offers from Publishers to tell my story, my life story. I said ‘Yeah’ on 1 condition, that any money I make is placed into a pot where it can help people who are needing help, that is a promise I make, life is not about me, News isn’t even what I want to write anymore, I want to create and live in moments where smiling is what I do even when I am in agony in bed. I always have only ever had 2 choices, live or die, I am going to live. But my quest now is to change this image here that DOES NOT REPRESENT all disabled people. For me personally, well I will not be judged by one more person, the next person to judge me by the 1st image below will be told to go forth and multiply!! I mean this, no hate, no anger, just LETS CHANGE THIS SIGN so people can be respected and allowed to be part of a World that looks and see’s no wheelchair. This is my goal now. I was signed off by the Government in 1999 against my wishes and it nearly got nasty and hard with court cases, in the end I took the easy option of money and free drugs from the Government, that was my choice, but the pain was bad and I was young. Now older the reason for being signed off Work are no longer applicable, I was signed off for LIFE, DUE TO A BAD KNEE!!! Today I have Fibromyalgia, Chronic Pain, M.E and another stupid brain condition; I flat out am refusing to be judged BADLY by anyone today. These things restrict my body and mind, but I live in agony, so how much more pain can I give myself today with a clearer mind? I am going to tell myself to ‘Keep on Keeping on’ because ‘Everything will be alright’ and ‘I have angels on my side’ – Please check the amazing song below!!

 

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THE ABOVE IMAGE NEEDS CHANGED TO THIS – THIS REPRESENTS ‘BETTER’ FOR SOCIETY TO JUDGE

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Rick Astley – Angels On My Side
Via RickAstleyVEVO on You Tube

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“Angels On My Side”

Sometimes I just don’t feel like waking up
wanna stay inside my dreams
sometimes I feel like I am breaking up
do you know just how that feels

Hope is for the hopeful
it’s a dream that never dies
faith is for the faithful
I see it in your eyes

And I got angels on my side
I got angels flying high
and everything gon’ be alright
’cause I got angels on my side

I need the people that I really love
to only give me truth
don’t fake it, I can’t take it
my heart is close to breaking
it reminds me of my youth

Hope is for the hopeful
it’s a dream that never fades
faith is for the faithful
And I will not be swayed

‘Cause I got angels on my side
I got angels flying high
and everything gon’ be alright
’cause I got angels on my side

Everything gon’ be alright,
everything gon’ be alright,
everything gon’ be alright,
everything gon’ be alright

Everything gon’ be alright,
’cause I got angels on my side.
Oh, yeah.

Can you see them?
Can you see them?

I got angels on my side
angels flying high
and everything gon’ be alright,
’cause I got angels on my side.

I got angels, you got angels,
everybody got their angels on their side,
everything’s gonna be alright
You got angels, I got angels
everybody got their angels by their side,
it’s alright, it’s alright.
I got angels, you got angels,
everybody got an angel by their side,
we got angels on my side.
I got angels, you got angels,
everybody got their angels by their side,
oh, yeah.

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MORE LOVE, LESS HATE

Shauny